resentment

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Hi all!

Just got this thought floating around. I think we have talked a

little about this resentment issue before fbut for the life of me I

can't remember for sure. Anyway, I think this must be part of working

through the whole anger stage or something, but what do you guys do

with all the resentment you have for the people that nada associates

with that she has possibly turned against you? I think this is one

reason I am just itching to drop that one homeschool gropu in

particular. Wish I could just email and say " take me off you freakin'

list " but no, I have to wait until next school year and just not sign

up. this will make me feel soooo good. And it's all because I resent

several people in these groups because they even partly listened to

nada in regards to me or my daughter even if they did not completely

buy it (and there is really no way to tell all that).

I have had one lady not connected with the group say she could tell

that they thought things were not so " kosher " between nada and me so

they were kind of " fishing " around wondering, in a sense, whether they

just do activities with nada or whether I am all that weird and mean

or not. I say if they gotta wonder then they can leave me out of the

picture. I don't need their " support " group which is more than

lacking in support. I do know for sure more than one person in the

group fell for nada's tactics and sob stories and for me, that's just

bad enough.

At the same time, I don't wanna just turn into an ole sourpuss and be

angry at the whole world. I wish I could ignore such things better

but I have always tended to be a little sensitive in terms of when

people want to " attack " my feelings, directly or not.

I am finding it VERY difficult to make friends and have much of any

trust in people in general, I think because of these sorts of things

going on. I want to be a friendly person to others and just say " Hi,

how you doin'? " but more times than not I find I avoid people in

general unless they talk to me. Of course, I had been like that

since I was a kid, so is it still that same ole shyness? I don't

think so? Was I shy then because I did not trust people? I don't

know. I just know I don't know how to relate to others very well and

it beats me how to make any friends.

What do you guys do?

Theresa