vaacination pain

February 18, 2001

Hi all,

I was just wondering if anyone else felt like me:

I think the vaccine discussion on this list and others is completely

appropriate and vital, but I've taken to hitting the delete button

before reading more than the first couple of words. The reason: I have

had nightmares--literally---about our vaccine experience. And I know

that I cannot go back in time and change things, though I can heal as

best as possible beginning now. I'm am so frustrated by the ignorance of

many in the medical community and elsewhere that I no longer write angry

letters (like I did to Newsweek, which failed to publish one letter--of

many--critical of their vaccine-autism article) not because I don't

think it makes a difference (who knows, it might somewhere) but, first,

because I can't stand to relive the experience. It was rough enough the

first time but I feel like I am beating up myself everytime I go over

it. I am also sooooo weary of spelling out the flaws in the arguements

of those who are ignorant or close-minded or not so ignorant but have a

financial stake in vaccines. I am also weary of spreading the word among

ordinary people (like pregant women, or friends etc.). I feel outrage

when I hear somebody counter with " all the good vaccines have done " and

I am sick and tired of MDs who've " seen what can happen " to those who

don't get their shots. (They don't share what they've seen happen in

those who DO get their vaccines because that would make them, at least,

partially responsible. Right? So they go into denial).

Anyway, I am wondering if anybody else feels like me. I know it's

important for this issue that I let our story be known, my voice be

heard etc. but I am weary and just want to move on with the healing

process.

Marisol

February 18, 2001

Dear Marisol:

If writing letters is to difficult for you then don't write them. There

are others of us who can write the letters. We will all work together.

No one can be expect to do everything. It's like a body working

together. Where would the eye be with out the feet to take them

anywhere. Where would the hand be with out they eye to see what to

grasp. If everyone was an eye, how would that be good? Do what you can

and don't worry about the rest. We all will play our different roles.

In Christ's love and mine...Jen : )

On Sat, 17 Feb 2001 22:56:14 -0500 " J. Greenberg "

<greenvil@...> writes:

> Hi all,

> I was just wondering if anyone else felt like me:

> I think the vaccine discussion on this list and others is

> completely

> appropriate and vital, but I've taken to hitting the delete button

> before reading more than the first couple of words. The reason: I

> have

> had nightmares--literally---about our vaccine experience. And I

> know

> that I cannot go back in time and change things, though I can heal

> as

> best as possible beginning now. I'm am so frustrated by the

> ignorance of

> many in the medical community and elsewhere that I no longer write

> angry

> letters (like I did to Newsweek, which failed to publish one

> letter--of

> many--critical of their vaccine-autism article) not because I don't

> think it makes a difference (who knows, it might somewhere) but,

> first,

> because I can't stand to relive the experience. It was rough enough

> the

> first time but I feel like I am beating up myself everytime I go

> over

> it. I am also sooooo weary of spelling out the flaws in the

> arguements

> of those who are ignorant or close-minded or not so ignorant but

> have a

> financial stake in vaccines. I am also weary of spreading the word

> among

> ordinary people (like pregant women, or friends etc.). I feel

> outrage

> when I hear somebody counter with " all the good vaccines have done "

> and

> I am sick and tired of MDs who've " seen what can happen " to those

> who

> don't get their shots. (They don't share what they've seen happen

> in

> those who DO get their vaccines because that would make them, at

> least,

> partially responsible. Right? So they go into denial).

> Anyway, I am wondering if anybody else feels like me. I know it's

> important for this issue that I let our story be known, my voice be

> heard etc. but I am weary and just want to move on with the healing

> process.

> Marisol

>

February 18, 2001

Marisol,

What you feel is completely justified. I battle with directing my anger

everyday to be productive.

The only way I get it out is in bits and drabs, when I make sarcastic

remarks.

I truly believe that most of the Medical community wants to help people. At

least that's how they all start out. Maybe as a child who is inspired " I

want to be a Doctor " .

Still today, I believe that the majority of the Medical Community is trying

to help and make a difference in this world. It always pains me when I see

them look at their watch while I'm in the office. I know they have a

schedule of appointments. I also know they have bills and payments as we

have but I was fortunate to be raised with a doctor who had visiting hours

as " first come, first served " method and sometimes he would be in his office

till twelve. I never mind waiting for a Doctor. I always remember, the one

before me might have a serious issue that needs more time.

I speculate on the Government and the Pharmaceutical companies as they keep

the truth hidden behind the curtain as the " Wizard " did in the Wizard of Oz.

Most must be afraid of the public panic it could spread if the " Truth be

Told " outright.

I am counting on them correcting it. It's a shame that others are doing

their jobs.

I am healing my child first. Then I'll be helping others.

My other two NT children always have patience with me when I stop and talk

to a new mommy with a baby. My children know, they do papers in their

classes on what they've learned but, they live it every day...most do not.

You do make a difference, things are changing because of things, people like

you do.

No guilt allowed here.

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