NEW MEMBER- I NEED SUPPORT

[Guest guest]

I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT, RECENTLY

MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD) FOR

HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

" BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME TO

BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

POWER.

SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS AND

WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT INVITE

ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LIKE

MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE MY

FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN

I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED OUT

AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE HAS.

GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW WHO

I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT TO

SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME IN

ANY WAY.

SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A FAULT

OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

UNHAPPY.

PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

APPRECIATE IT.

DEE

[Guest guest]

Hello Dee,

Welcome to ModOasis. Your story has many similarities to those of

many of us. You are definitely in the right place. Learning your

mother has BPD can cause many different reactions and stir up

feelings as well. We have all gone through this, so be sure to write

when you need to do so.

As for your recovery, I have found that my recovery has escalated

since I learned about BPD and became a member of this board. Yes,

there is alot to recover from. I have been in therapy for 10 years,

but many here have either not been in therapy, or have ended it in a

shorter amount of time.

I can understand your feeling better after having no contact with

her. I have felt that way too, and although I at first thought that

at some time I would resume contact, I don't even want to do that any

more. My nada (our term = not a mother) is sick, and she hasn't done

anything in my lifetime to try to help herself or deal with the

damage she has done to others. She is my biological mother, but not

my emotional or spiritual one.

Take care of yourself,

Sylvia

>

>

> I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT, RECENTLY

> MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

> PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

> WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD) FOR

> HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

> MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

> " BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME TO

> BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

> SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

> JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

> POWER.

> SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS AND

> WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT INVITE

> ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LIKE

> MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

> HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE MY

> FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN

> I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED OUT

> AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

> CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE HAS.

> GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

> SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

>

> I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

>

> I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

> BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW WHO

> I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

> LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

>

> WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

> CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT TO

> SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

> SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME IN

> ANY WAY.

>

> SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A FAULT

> OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

>

> ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

> YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

> DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

> MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

> UNHAPPY.

> PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

> APPRECIATE IT.

>

> DEE

[Guest guest]

Hello Dee,

Welcome to ModOasis. Your story has many similarities to those of

many of us. You are definitely in the right place. Learning your

mother has BPD can cause many different reactions and stir up

feelings as well. We have all gone through this, so be sure to write

when you need to do so.

As for your recovery, I have found that my recovery has escalated

since I learned about BPD and became a member of this board. Yes,

there is alot to recover from. I have been in therapy for 10 years,

but many here have either not been in therapy, or have ended it in a

shorter amount of time.

I can understand your feeling better after having no contact with

her. I have felt that way too, and although I at first thought that

at some time I would resume contact, I don't even want to do that any

more. My nada (our term = not a mother) is sick, and she hasn't done

anything in my lifetime to try to help herself or deal with the

damage she has done to others. She is my biological mother, but not

my emotional or spiritual one.

Take care of yourself,

Sylvia

>

>

> I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT, RECENTLY

> MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

> PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

> WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD) FOR

> HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

> MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

> " BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME TO

> BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

> SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

> JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

> POWER.

> SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS AND

> WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT INVITE

> ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LIKE

> MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

> HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE MY

> FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN

> I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED OUT

> AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

> CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE HAS.

> GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

> SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

>

> I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

>

> I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

> BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW WHO

> I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

> LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

>

> WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

> CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT TO

> SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

> SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME IN

> ANY WAY.

>

> SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A FAULT

> OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

>

> ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

> YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

> DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

> MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

> UNHAPPY.

> PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

> APPRECIATE IT.

>

> DEE

[Guest guest]

Hello Dee,

Welcome to ModOasis. Your story has many similarities to those of

many of us. You are definitely in the right place. Learning your

mother has BPD can cause many different reactions and stir up

feelings as well. We have all gone through this, so be sure to write

when you need to do so.

As for your recovery, I have found that my recovery has escalated

since I learned about BPD and became a member of this board. Yes,

there is alot to recover from. I have been in therapy for 10 years,

but many here have either not been in therapy, or have ended it in a

shorter amount of time.

I can understand your feeling better after having no contact with

her. I have felt that way too, and although I at first thought that

at some time I would resume contact, I don't even want to do that any

more. My nada (our term = not a mother) is sick, and she hasn't done

anything in my lifetime to try to help herself or deal with the

damage she has done to others. She is my biological mother, but not

my emotional or spiritual one.

Take care of yourself,

Sylvia

>

>

> I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT, RECENTLY

> MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

> PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

> WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD) FOR

> HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

> MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

> " BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME TO

> BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

> SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

> JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

> POWER.

> SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS AND

> WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT INVITE

> ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LIKE

> MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

> HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE MY

> FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN

> I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED OUT

> AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

> CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE HAS.

> GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

> SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

>

> I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

>

> I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

> BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW WHO

> I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

> LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

>

> WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

> CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT TO

> SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

> SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME IN

> ANY WAY.

>

> SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A FAULT

> OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

>

> ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

> YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

> DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

> MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

> UNHAPPY.

> PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

> APPRECIATE IT.

>

> DEE

[Guest guest]

> >

> >

> > I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT,

RECENTLY

> > MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

> > PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

> > WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD)

FOR

> > HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

> > MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

> > " BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME

TO

> > BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

> > SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

> > JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

> > POWER.

> > SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS

AND

> > WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT

INVITE

> > ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T

LIKE

> > MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

> > HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE

MY

> > FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY,

WHEN

> > I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED

OUT

> > AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

> > CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE

HAS.

> > GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

> > SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

> >

> > I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

> >

> > I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

> > BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW

WHO

> > I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

> > LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

> >

> > WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

> > CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT

TO

> > SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

> > SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME

IN

> > ANY WAY.

> >

> > SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A

FAULT

> > OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

> >

> > ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

> > YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

> > DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

> > MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

> > UNHAPPY.

> > PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

> > APPRECIATE IT.

> >

> > DEE

[Guest guest]

HI Dee,

Glad you found us. Your story sounds familiar. This is a very

difficult time. In the beginning I thought I was really losing it

and than realized I was grieving for the mother I thought I had.

Although it was still difficult at least I felt I knew what was

happening at that point. The cycles of anger, and hurt have

definately gotten better over time. For me it's been 10 months since

I realized there was something seriously wrong with my Nada. Being

able to post here has helped tremendously. I hope it helps you.

Have youread Stop Walking on Eggshells, Understanding the Borderline

Mother and Surviving the Borderline Mother?

cntbreathe

>

>

> I HAVE BEEN IN THERAPY FOR 2 YEARS. HAVING SAID THAT, RECENTLY

> MY THERAPIST TOLD ME MY MOTHER IS A BP. SHE TORTURED ME,

> PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED ME, CONTROLLED ME IN ANY

> WAY SHE COULD. WHEN I GOT TOO TALL(ABOUT 14 YEARS OLD) FOR

> HER TO PHYSICALLY OVERPOWER ME, SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD

> MANIPULATE ME, CONTROL ME, BLACKMAIL ME. SHE BECAME MY

> " BEST FRIEND " AND LIVED HER LIFE THROUGH MINE. SHE USED ME TO

> BE A TEENAGER AGAIN, SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS.

> SHE WAS NEVER ANY SUPPORT IF I HAD A PROBLEM, SHE WOULD

> JUST MAKE THE PROBLEM SEEM WORSE WITH ALL HER NEGATIVE

> POWER.

> SHE IS DEFINITLY MORE CONCERNED FOR HER OWN FEELINGS AND

> WILL HURT FAMILY MEMBERS TO GET HER WAY. SHE DID NOT INVITE

> ME FOR THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LIKE

> MY FIANCE AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE HIM. I TOLD HER THAT THIS

> HURT ME VERY MUCH AND BECAUSE I TRIED TO COMMUNICATE MY

> FEELINGS, I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HER SINCE CHRISTMAS DAY, WHEN

> I CALLED HER TO WISH HER MERRY CHRISTMAS SHE FREAKED OUT

> AND STARTED SCREAMING AND CRYING SO THAT ALL HER

> CHRISTMAS GUESTS COULD SEE WHAT AN EVIL DAUGHTER SHE HAS.

> GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TELLING THE FAMILY. I KNOW THAT

> SHE TOLD MY GRANDMOTHER NOT TO LET ME COME VISIT.

>

> I CAN GO ON AND ON WITH MILLIONS OF STORIES.

>

> I FEEL SHE HAS COMPLETELY DESTROYED WHO I COULD HAVE

> BECOME IN LIFE, MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW , I DO NOT KNOW WHO

> I AM. THERAPY HAS BEEN A HELP BUT I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE A

> LONG TIME FOR ME TO KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

>

> WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN 2 MONTHS SINCE ACTUALLY BEFORE

> CHRISTMAS. I AM NOT SURE AT THIS POINT WHETHER I EVER WANT TO

> SEE HER OR SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. I AM DOING MUCH BETTER AND

> SEE LIFE MORE CLEARLY NOW THAT SHE IS NOT INFLUENCING ME IN

> ANY WAY.

>

> SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE IS WRONG AND NEVER WILL ADMIT A FAULT

> OR APOLOGIZE, I DO NOT THINK SHE WILL EVER SEEK HELP.

>

> ALSO THE ABUSE AND TORTURE MY DAD HAS ENDURED OVER THE

> YEARS HAS BEEN DAMAGING TO HIM AS WELL. HE IS LIKE A BEATEN

> DOG. HE ALMOST LEFT ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO, BUT HE CHANGED HIS

> MIND. I WISH HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH WITH IR. HE IS SO

> UNHAPPY.

> PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS. I WOULD DEEPLY

> APPRECIATE IT.

>

> DEE