Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 Another flea that we KOs have is that we trust others but we don't trust ourSelf. Trust was the first thing we were supposed to learn as infants -- but we had nadas. Our nadas couldn't teach us lots of stuff that those who had 'normal' mothers learned because our nadas were incapable of learning that stuff. <sigh> - Edith Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 I am lucky that I had my Granny and Granddaddy. I always felt safe with them. In fact my Granny raised me the first 3 years of my life. I called her Granny but she was and always has been my mother in my heart. I made sure that mother knew it too. When she screamed at me that she hated my guts and wished she had given me away. I usually screamed back that I loved Granny more than her and that I too wished that she had given me away. I always felt like my Granddaddy was my Daddy and I called him that for quite a while. I also felt that way about my Uncle Jimmy too. Granny had a little treasures drawer in her kitchen. Whenever I would come over she would open it up and give me some of the things. It was really junk, but they were treasures to me because they came from her. I miss her now. She has been gone for 5 years and I can still see her face and hear her voice. I can still see and hear my Granddaddy too and he has been gone since I was 11 yrs old. If it weren't for them I hate to think where I would be now. They were my security and I had/have great faith in their love for me. All those things mean more to me now than they did when I was a kid. I have lost them all now, but I still have 2 people in this world that I treasure (as far as family goes) and they are Aunt Pat and her husband. Debbie trust Another flea that we KOs have is that we trust others but we don't trust ourSelf. Trust was the first thing we were supposed to learn as infants -- but we had nadas. Our nadas couldn't teach us lots of stuff that those who had 'normal' mothers learned because our nadas were incapable of learning that stuff. <sigh> - Edith Send questions and/or concerns to ModOasis-owner " Stop Walking on Eggshells, " a primer for non-BPs, can be ordered via 1-888-35-SHELL () and for the table of contents, go to: http://www.BPDCentral.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 I had no one. But my dogs loved me unconditionally. When THEY beat me, the dogs licked the tears from my eyes and the snot from my nose. Dunno what I would have done without the dogs. - Edith Deborah Kovak wrote: > I am lucky that I had my Granny and Granddaddy. I always felt safe with them. In fact my Granny raised me the first 3 years of my life. I called her Granny but she was and always has been my mother in my heart. I made sure that mother knew it too. When she screamed at me that she hated my guts and wished she had given me away. I usually screamed back that I loved Granny more than her and that I too wished that she had given me away. > I always felt like my Granddaddy was my Daddy and I called him that for quite a while. I also felt that way about my Uncle Jimmy too. > Granny had a little treasures drawer in her kitchen. Whenever I would come over she would open it up and give me some of the things. It was really junk, but they were treasures to me because they came from her. > I miss her now. She has been gone for 5 years and I can still see her face and hear her voice. I can still see and hear my Granddaddy too and he has been gone since I was 11 yrs old. > If it weren't for them I hate to think where I would be now. They were my security and I had/have great faith in their love for me. > All those things mean more to me now than they did when I was a kid. I have lost them all now, but I still have 2 people in this world that I treasure (as far as family goes) and they are Aunt Pat and her husband. > Debbie > trust > > > Another flea that we KOs have is that we trust others but we > don't trust ourSelf. Trust was the first thing we were supposed > to learn as infants -- but we had nadas. > > Our nadas couldn't teach us lots of stuff that those who had > 'normal' mothers learned because our nadas were incapable of > learning that stuff. <sigh> > > - Edith Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 Edith, I wish you had. Although this is too late to do you much good back then Here are some strong {{{{{{HUG}}}}}}s and a hanky for the tears, As well as a Shaking fist of anger at them. Debbie trust > > > Another flea that we KOs have is that we trust others but we > don't trust ourSelf. Trust was the first thing we were supposed > to learn as infants -- but we had nadas. > > Our nadas couldn't teach us lots of stuff that those who had > 'normal' mothers learned because our nadas were incapable of > learning that stuff. <sigh> > > - Edith Send questions and/or concerns to ModOasis-owner " Stop Walking on Eggshells, " a primer for non-BPs, can be ordered via 1-888-35-SHELL () and for the table of contents, go to: http://www.BPDCentral.com ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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