A question

[Guest guest]

I've learned about my mom's bpd a few months ago and have been coping

to some extent.

Now the biggest problem I have is paranoias that family instills in

me. Namely, out of 10 people in my family that have escaped the

Bosnian war and are now living in Toronto, I have strong suspicion

that at least 3 are not right in the head.

And something that never happened to me before, when well meaning or

not, someone in the family, starts speaking against my father or

mother, 50% of me wants to agree, they're right, and 50% wants to

beat him to a pulp and then call the cops and talk about his verbal

harrasment. And all that time, whenever I hear such stories, and this

always happens in this situation, I feel in a dreamlike state; as if

I'm stepping out of reality. I fear that I might one day, truly. Step

out.

It frightens me. How do I deal with these paranoias of stepping out?

So far, the only way I know how to avoid this is not to talk to any

relatives.

In my case, I am sure that my life out of family works. Slowly. I'm

asking myself if it is time to tell them all to go to hell?

All the best.

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