Paradox regarding MS suffering?

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I'm wondering if any of you have encountered what I'm observing:

My wife has had MS for 30 years and was slowly losing the ability

to walk, moving rather like a drunk. She stopped taking Rebif

and started taking LDN. I've noticed a dramatic improvement in her

gait - and apparent energy levels ( she's back to trying to tell me

what to do, another sign of doing better!)

Despite this, she seems to have a uninthused and lackadaisical

response

to taking LDN. She says her feet now sometimes feel 'like they're

curling up', something she associates with a past exacerbation.

Despite 30 years of marriage, getting any exact details out of her

about the progress of her disease is like pulling teeth. I feel

like I have to give her the 'third degree' under hot lights,

while she proclaims ignorance of her body. If I try to press the

issue, lawyer-style, to analyse what's going on, she seems to

back off, " yeah, I guess, whatever "

I'm confused by what I see vs what I hear. Do some people

subconsciously hold on to a disease as part of their identity

- or what? I'm puzzled.