hello from the Netherlands

October 20, 2009

Checking in to say hey to all my fellow DSers.

Life has been the hardest that it has ever been... and in my nearly 55

years, I've had a few. This year beats them all.

But, there appears to be a tiny light shimmering at the end of a very

long tunnel, and Gene and I are hopeful that it isn't just a trick of

the shadows, but leading to a better future.

Our son Tony is again in a psychiatric hospital. When we saw him

after a week and a half, I couldn't believe the improvement. They

have finally started him on an anti-psychotic medication... and what a

difference. I wanted to start him on it a year ago, but I couldn't

get anyone to believe me that he was suffering psychosis. Even now,

they doubt that the medication is what has helped, but I am certain of

it. He is a different boy. Now, whether the change will stay is the

question.

We are hopeful of bringing Tony home and not have him poison us

anymore. Gene and I both have what I think are physical consequences

of Tony's poisoning of us. Other than feces, bleach and cleaning

solutions, I have no clue what else he used. Just the other day the

kids told me that he would squeeze the juice out of berries in the

backyard.... that Tony called poison berries. Well, they appear to me

to be holly berries... which are quite poisonous.

What a harrowing adventure we have had for the past year plus.

Thank you Jo for everything you do for this group. You are amazing.

Yes, I have failed to take good care of myself. Everyday has been

just a struggle to get through for such a long time. Yesterday for

the first time in six months I took on a small project. And, it even

required getting out and meeting new people. I almost felt like my

old self again.

.......... good to stop in and say hi. Hope you are all keeping up the

battle to stay healthy.

Elle

Goldendale, Washington

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