where do I go from here? Long sorry

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Hi

I am feeling very sorry for my girls right now, particularly the older one

but don't know what more I can do to make things right!

She is main stream educated at the moment with her due to move to a

special school for ASD in little over a year, the thing is she is struggling and

thinks she is so stupid, I build her up for her just to go back to school

and feel stupid, she is not being bullied, she just knows she is different

to her peers and is far far behind them academically, which I do not have a

problem with but she does. She has a statement of special educational needs

and that has recently been made up to a statement for a child with severe

and complex needs, she is struggling horendously, she is fine at school but

comes home and breaks down and begs me not to take her back.

I did consider home education but to be honest, I am not sure I could teach

her, I am blind and she has a planning disorder and needs to do things

visually which obviously I cannot do, not to mention the extra patience I

would need!

I am waiting for our local lea to get me her revised statement as I can

then go back to the special school and see if she would fit with their

criteria for earlier intervention.

I guess part of me feels guilty for them being asd as although not

diagnosed I am sure I am and it has come from me, my youngest is not formally

diagnosed but is due to re see the paed next month, but she is so much more

obviously asd than my elder daughter.

Neither of them are badly behaved, I know I am incredibly lucky, they are

beautiful blonde haired, blue eyed girls but my eldest is so deeply sad

when not with me and struggles to make sense of things around her, what can I

do to make it better?!

sorry this post is so long but I really don't know what to do, we are meant

to be off on holiday and I should be packing but I know on holiday the

rest of our family will be shocked at how backwards Grace has gone since last

years holiday, we are holidaying with my sister and her four children and

my mum.

Tony