still alive, kinda

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hi everyone.

finally time for a little checkin, im miss all of you so much!

im still doing my (mostly) daily walks with chinook, a bit of

snow shovelling, taebo and a few light weights. not nearly

enough workouts, alot of bad eating, too much blubber on the bod,

too much snow, no work and no money is making me feel depressed.

im always depressed at this time of year, but im feeling scared

this year as well because of the recession... im scared that my

dh wont be starting work soon and that we will have to sell

something to get out from under all of the bills maybe i

should try to sell some workout dvds???

today i found out that i lost my web maintenance job... it didnt

make much money (only a couple of hundred every 3 months) but it

was still something. i lost it because they want a total

re-design and since im not trained in website design or the

current website languages, i had to admit this and decline the

job. besides i do not like the man who is heading the re-design

project - he is very difficult. oh well, maybe it will be for

the best. i struggle enough as it is with dh's website (dh is

one customer who is never happy with his website...ugh!). also

ive been busy trying to prepare for dh's year end for his

business... im also not formally trained in

book-keeping/accounting, so i always struggle with this every

year as well. man, i just feel like laying down and never

getting up! at least i got our personal income taxes done and

submitted -- very early this year in the hopes that the refund

gets here quickly.

on a happy note, i threw a bit 8th birthday bash for ds#2 last

weekend... spent alot of time planning and preparing and managed

to pull it off with a minimum of cost. most of his friends came

and most everyone seemed to have fun... ds hasnt said anything

negative about the party so i guess i did ok. i like parties

but planning and executing them can be quite exhausting. i was

tired for two days after that...LOL.

anyway, i just wanted to say hi and let you know what ive been up

to. i really want to try harder to workout and eat right...

some days i do really well, others i feel down and dont want to

do anything except binge eat ::sigh:: please keep posting all

of your successes... sometimes i read them and feel like a real

loser, but mainly they motivate me to try harder.

congratulations to everyone on their success!!

:*carolyn.