Guest guest Posted April 27, 2010 Report Share Posted April 27, 2010 Dear Josie, I know what pain is like... i "enjoy" that every day too... For me, it's hard to be around people who don't understand what the pain is like...makes me feel alone too. Your friends may have stopped calling, but you still have an online community here. So you are not alone! Ling To: BeingSick Sent: Wednesday, 28 April 2010 07:21:03Subject: Endless Pain I think it is very hard to live a totally different life than ytou expected, especially when the quality is so poor. You have to endure the pain, the illness and the grieving for the life lost. Pain alone is exhausting. For a while I thought I would get better, but now I know that is not going to happen. At least I have faced the truth as it exists for me. Each day I have to find a reason to go on. Some days it is very hard. My last relative has died, and my friends have long since stopped calling I am housebound and alone. Loneliness is one of the worst parts of this situation. Josie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2010 Report Share Posted April 28, 2010 Hiya Josie! Wow: you took the words right out of my mouth! I am another here in the group that can really relate to what you're saying and going through! My life didn't turn out at all how I expected it to (although I was stunned I made it to age 18 due to the abuse I endured) and I try very hard not to think about the life that was lost because it is simply too overwhelming (cuz I feel like a failure even though I can't control my health issues). And you're right: the quality of our lives, due to the chronic pain we suffer, is very poor and affects us in every way, shape and form. And it's incredibly hard to find a reason to live each day...many days I feel like I'm just waiting around to die. I am sorry to learn of the loss of your last relative...that's very sad... and about friends...well, let's just say I've had more than my share of friends burn and betray me (three in the past three months) and so now I can't trust anyone new anymore (and am wary of old friends) and that's also heartbreaking because now I really have just mainly my mom in my life (and I'm grateful for her every, single day)...she's literally the only thing keeping me alive. And I am primarily housebound as well due to my illnesses but I try really hard not to be too lonely but there are days that are much more difficult than others. Thank goodness for these Yahoo Groups! I belong to 3 and am grateful they connect me to the world. So, Josie, please know you are *not* alone in what you're experiencing. I realize being alone and being lonely are two different things but I hope it boosts your spirit a little bit to know there are others out there who feel as you do. Hopefully, you'll make some friends via this Yahoo Group or search for penpals/friendship groups! I have made a couple of great friends that way who have stuck with me through thick 'n thin!! My heart and hugs go out to you! Beth -- Endless Pain I think it is very hard to live a totally different life than ytou expected, especially when the quality is so poor. You have to endure the pain, the illness and the grieving for the life lost. Pain alone is exhausting. For a while I thought I would get better, but now I know that is not going to happen. At least I have faced the truth as it exists for me. Each day I have to find a reason to go on. Some days it is very hard. My last relative has died, and my friends have long since stopped calling I am housebound and alone. Loneliness is one of the worst parts of this situation. Josie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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