CMT and Friendships

[Guest guest]

I was just sitting here wishing I had friends that understood, then said 'hey I

have !'

I will try to make this short.

I have depression that I have never kept a secret from but I have never

said much to the people around me. I never tell people unless I have to that my

children have CMT and I never talk about my CMT either. I am a very private

person out here in the real world.

That being said I deal with things alone mostly and really only trust 2 people

with all my personal feelings. A good friend here on the list and my husband.

Now the issue on hand: I have ANOTHER friend sucking the life out of me. She is

going through a divorce and needs a friend. She has a broken heart. She called

me out of no where after a year of not hearing from her. Part of this is my own

fault because I have compassion for people in need. I am a afe person to come

to for

support. The last few days I have had 2 very needy friends all over me. One

won't ever go home. It is getting very hard to listen to people complain about

their so called problems when I see them as lucky to have their health, able to

work a full time job or go to school full time. I also see their healthy

children. They are able to run, play sports and join the freaking army!

Everyday I think about Adam and Spencer's future.. I cross my fingers for

. I have my own heath to think about. Where is my understanding friend

that will take me to lunch, support me and let me cry on their shoulder the way

they all can with me???

CMT can be a very isolating disorder but is that really the

case here? Maybe these people just find me because I do listen and care or maybe

they are selfish time stealers and life suckers to anyone that can sit still

long enough to listen? Maybe I like the attention I get from someone needing me?

I am not sure if it is depression playing the main role here or CMT, as far as

looking at kids and wishing I had NORMAL problems.

My heart has been broken for years. I do my best to go on and I keep it to

myself and here at . What really bugs me is when the person gets over the

problem ( usually divorce) they are pretty much out of my life other then a few

phone calls to tell me how happy they are and how much weight they lost and what

great shape they

are in. I am the friend they come to when they are in need.

What do you do with a situation like this? Just dump the needy friend????

Thank you for listening if you got this far. I have some other stuff to complain

about but I will spare you all for now.