RE: I am pissed. del

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Del honey I actually had blackouts as a kid I would get so angry and then when the lights came back there was usually blood around and not mine. Quite terrifying for a kid. After last time I was so scared I learned to stuff that back down but then became a mat for people to walk all over me. Then it would fester for years or months until right button was pushed and the beast came out although no blackout. Your doc needs to send you to specialist not be afraid of you for pity sake. You always help me with your humor, stories, poems and love in general. I love you sweet friend...patgail wrote: I didn't know you were an asshole.None of us are perfect,but if your medical team is afraid of you then you need anger managemnt/That is not hard to get Del.Talk to your doctor and he will send you to the person you need to see.Take care buddy. Gail -----Original Message-----From: HepatitisCSupportGroupForDummies [mailto:HepatitisCSupportGroupForDummies ]On Behalf Of Del ComptonSent: August 8, 2007 10:11 PMTo:

HepatitisCSupportGroupForDummies Subject: Re: I am pissed. Hi . I just read this and your previous post, saying that someone advised you not to post on the board.. Again , I don;t know how I do it, but my trying to be helpful to folks is just not working and has a opposite effect of what I'm trying to do. . Sometimes I can comfort people, just with stories, but not always. I am your friend, yet my actions get you steamin' mad, and I would rather stay in a cave, than do that to people. I never realized I had a "uncontrolable" at times rage in me. People close to me would say I needed to learn how to control it.. later in life, I never thought I had a problem, like my Dad did, and didn't even know I was hurting people, and yelling and the beast is still within. My doctor won't meet alone with me anymore, He thinks

I am too unstable. I'm begginning to agree.I wish I knew what this "imbalance of love and rage is...My father was exactly the same way.. and I haven't even thought of that before. WOW.. sorry, I got lost in myself. I honestly didn't even realize I had this meaness in me. OMG.. I've got some thinking to do..... , Good Luck, beleive in God, Wait a second.... What is this called? if I'm like my dad, and I think we (UNME)are alike, with this "rage", sorry if that offends you, that it must be recognized, or have a name, or a cure or treatment. I would do anything to stop it from being part of me. I'm totally embarrassed that my medical team doesn't want to be alone with me.. Man... thats bad. My mother.... could not believe I didn't realize I had a temper worse than my dads. I don't ever remember anyone saying that to me... why didn't somebody tell me I'm an asshole?

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