, come on girl you're almost there...

[Guest guest]

,

You're there, looking into the abyss. CROSS IT. Come on. You have an

emotionally painful event that is making you really look deep inside to find

your motivation to get healthy. We're all out here, cheering you on to cross

that abyss.

When you cross it you won't say " this little chocolate pretzel won't hurt. "

you'll say, " this little chocolate pretzel will NOT help my goal, what can I eat

that WILL get me to the hot chick I want to be? "

Go on, continue this dialog, you will get there. In the meantime, don't

hesitate to fake it. Write your goals and execute them daily.

And this dialog below is not positive:

Sure, it would be nice to be one of the " hot " girls everyone looks at

when you walk down the street, lol... but that's not me. I've always

been big, ever since I was little... and I know I will always have some

size to me... but as long as I am a healthy " big " (lol) I will be happy.

Are you afraid to say that you want to be 20% bodyfat and a size 4/6/8? Why

not? What is deep in your heart? Why DON'T you deserve to be thin and hot?

You do. And, YOU have the power to do it. It's all a matter of time.

It may be more or less time than you imagine, but it's right there (see it

over there?). You have the power to be ANYTHING you want. You can be a fitness

model. whatever is deep in your heart. Dreams should be BIG and then you set

your goals to achieve your dreams. And, at some point you realize that as long

as you are making progress it doesn't matter how long it takes to get there.

I look forward to the day when YOU post an email that says " look at my

pictures, I'm a hot girl. "

In 3 months will you look better, the same, or worse? You tell me then make

it happen.

Jami

(was 240, now 160, size 8, 19% bodyfat, yes I'm hot)

(consider yourself cyber-shaken)

Oh, and BLF works. 3x cardio and 3x weights/weekly. Work those weights hard

and it's better than doing cardio! Really, really go for the 10's. Shake when

you're done. Have you seen Machelle's transformation? machelleloveslarry is

her profile on bodyforlife-tracker.com. SHE'S totally hot in only 12 weeks.

But she was an ANIMAL in her quest. My hero.

Message: 15

Date: Wed May 31, 2006 8:25 am (PDT)

From: " Dearing " shaedearing@...

Subject: My breaking point has finally hit.

Yesterday I was going to Fashion Bug to buy a new top for an interview

I have today. I finally hit my absolute breaking point. I broke down

(all be it pretty quietly) in the dressing room when I realized just

how SICK and FAT I look. I'm so fat it's disgusting, and it's no wonder

my husband hardly touches me anymore. I wouldn't want to touch me

either. And I'm not exaggerating.... it's down right sickening to look at

and I finally hit that point where not even I can stand looking at

myself anymore - which really gave me the mojo to keep doing what I'm

doing. I am going to up my cardio for the time being - and I know it isn't

realistic to do that because I will " burn out " - but I HAVE to do

something to kick start this weight loss. 3 x a week at 20 minutes a pop is

NOT going to do it for ME (works great for some, but I need to do

something different).

I'm probably going to go to see a counselor too because yesterday

really brought me down hardcore... and I feel very low and VERY depressed

today. part of me just really wants to lock myself up and never have to

come out ... but I know that isn't the answer. It's really unhealthy

the attitude I have towards myself and I know I need to get it fixed.

I don't need to be a size 4 to be happy... but in order to make myself

happy, I have got to lose some fat. I'd settle for a size 10, quite

truthfully. RIght now I'm in 14-16... and that may not seem like much to

some of you - but I am 24 years old and 200 pounds. :-( I didn't

actually ever view myself as obese because I know a lot of 200 pound people

that are WAY bigger than me, andI just don't get it. but yesterday....

that took the cake.

SOrry to write such a downer of an email... but I am very down today.

I've been eating well, and exercising and I think I've actually gained

3 more pounds instead of losing ANYTHING this entire time.

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