Really Doing It! - Episode #4

December 21, 2010

Hey guys!

I have internet back at home again and let me tell you, I missed it! I missed

posting on here, too. I notice that when I post on here it really helps me to

feel supported. I am not completely open about my weight struggle in person

(though I'm working on it!) and I really appreciate the opportunity to post on

here.

I listened to episode 4 several times on my iPod but here are my answers

finally! I think this episode is awesome and thinking about it has helped me a

lot this week. I've thought about what I'm really looking for when I reach for

food. So, with that in mind, lets proceed:

Whats holding me back?

- The idea of being slim feels unknown and scary. I feel like I can't really

handle all of my emotions and handle all of the challenges in my life without

food. So the gift or positive intent for that would be comfort and safety.

- Its funny, part of me fears success and another part fears failure and they

both hold me back! Ironic, I know. Fear of the unknown and putting myself out

there one more time even though I know that continued attempts are necessary for

success!

So in terms of the gifts and positive intents, I am trying to give myself these

main things: comfort, safety, security, calm. It seems that I should probably

try to give myself those things in other ways! This past week I've been doing

that in small ways, by checking in with my body before the overeating at night

gets overboard. Tonight I had some granola bars and 2 pancakes before stopping,

checking in and bringing myself back into balance by forgiving myself for

overeating and giving comfort by getting into sweats and doing something fun

(watching the Biggest Loser on Hulu, anyone watch that???)

Anyways, there is my answer. I look forward to being more active and posting the

episodes again. I can do #5 tomorrow to try to catch up for the lack of

internet. Thanks for your understanding.

So guys, what is holding YOU back??? And whats your positive intended gift???

Much love,

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