Still binging

[Guest guest]

Hi guys, I'm finally making the step and writing to you all, we'll see if I get

back duble or more

I'm sitting here, desperate once more since I'm sooooo incredibly full. I

started listening to IOWL not too long ago, but I'm already at episode 51,

sucking in all the good advice Renée is giving. It all sounds so right and I

know the secret to my success must lie in there somewhere, but I just can't seem

to find it.

First I've had some success on the small scale, I've had some really great days

when someone even offered me some cookies and I just did NOT care about them. I

did NOT WANT them. So cool, right?

But the last week has been a disaster. I've been overeating every single day, up

to the point where it really hurts. I don't even seem to have enough space in my

stomach for all that food. I'm actually not overweight. I just want to lose

about 6kg (that'd be about 13pounds I guess... I'm Swiss =D), and I've wanted

that for so long! Well now actually I'd be kinda happy if I was able to only

normalize my eating habits again. I'm constantly thinking about sweets since I

tried weight watchers 2 years ago. Before that I was naturally thin. Well, not

thin but normal. Now I'm just so sick of that constant thought, that constant

energy killer!

It gets worst in the evening, when I'm watching TV. I've thought about giving

that up, but I'd much rather kill the root of the problem, not the symptoms...

and watching TV is so relaxing =) Well anyways, I then always think: hmm... some

ice cream would be very nice and I'll end up eating 3cones and some chocolate!

And in that moment I really don't want to be thin anymore, I don't even want to

think about anything, I only want to eat!

Ok, this message has gotten way too long already and probably no one will want

to read it, but I still hope for your support and send you all of mine...