What do you mean this is easy? Self-acceptance

July 28, 2009

Okay, I feel like thinking out loud...

I made the commitment to lose weight 14 months ago, and I'm TIRED. I

kind of want to shout, " What do you mean this is easy? This is NOT

easy. " Is it just me who resents the idea that weight loss is easy?

Okay, here are some things that area easy for me:

* Eating less is relatively easy; it's usually a " piece of cake " ,

especially whenever I eat fruits and veggies instead of " cake " .

* Exercise. I love to walk! I've been consistently walking about 5

days/week for 14 months, and I would enjoy doing it even if it had

nothing to do with weight loss.

* Dropping pounds is not that difficult. It could be worse. I've lost

58.6 lbs.

* Listening to 's soothing voice.

But here are the things that are NOT easy:

* Waiting to " unwrap the package " ; self-acceptance. When will I reach

my goal weight? When will I be satisfied with my body size? I realize

that it's possible that I may never be completely satisfied with my

body, but surely I will like my body more at 130-135 than I do at 155.

I'm still 11 lbs. overweight by BMI standards, and by my standards, I

need to lose 20-25 lbs. I went on vacation recently to Arizona (to see

Sedona and the Grand Canyon), and I was disappointed with my photos. I

can't imagine that I ever weighed 213.6 lbs. My face is a whole lot

thinner (happy with that); my hips are smaller (good), but my stomach

and arms are just FAT! I'm obviously having trouble with

self-acceptance. And I KNOW that my value has nothing to do with my

size, in the eyes of my friends and family. It's me who hates me when I

look at my fat stomach.

Okay, back to the episodes on self-acceptance while I'm waiting to

unwrap.

Bev

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