What's been holding me back?

[Guest guest]

I think I've been asking myself that question for longer than I should. I can't

for the life of me figure out what it is, unless there is some weird thing known

as " big family syndrome. "

For some reason I picked up on a strange habit I have, or even stranger, a line

of thinking.

" I don't eat, I snarf. "

Seriously, I have this irrational fear when food is around that if I don't eat

it, or I don't pile as much as I think I'll eat on my plate, then someone else

will eat it and I won't have an opportunity to have any at all! And, heaven

forbid I don't finish what's on my plate, because that's " wasteful " and someone

else could have enjoyed my uneaten portion because they didn't quite get as much

as they wanted.

I don't understand this, because never in my life have I ever gone hungry!

There's probably been multiple times when I didn't get a cookie or a cupcake

that everyone else ate some of, but *never* have I been actually without

nourishment. So this blows my mind.

Alot of my meals are family oriented, we eat together, so I've noticed this

weird behavior seems to only arise when I have to share food. It's worse when

there are limited portions, like with pizza or takeout.

Then, I have this other nifty dilemma. My mother. She buys junk food in bulk.

My dad and I have tried to discourage her, we've had the sit down talk, but she

still comes home from the store with chips, dips, cookies, and candies...all the

time.

I need a little guidance.

[Guest guest]

Charlotte I'm the same way. I actually get anxious when I try to leave

food on my plate. My DH said something interesting the other day. We

were talking about my grandmother and how she " favored " my male cousin

cause, well, he was a boy (Italian thing). My other cousin, his

sister, was the homemaker, sewer, etc and I asked my husband, what was

I? He said, " you were the good eater. " BOY did that resonate with me.

I WAS! Those two never ate. They were skinny, skinny and my

grandmother used to say, " Why don't you eat like Bonnie. " So, I eat to

please my grandmother. I'm the good eater!!!!

Bonnie

Thoughts become things. Choose the good ones.

On Jul 27, 2009, at 8:12 PM, Charlotte wrote:

> I think I've been asking myself that question for longer than I

> should. I can't for the life of me figure out what it is, unless

> there is some weird thing known as " big family syndrome. "

>

> For some reason I picked up on a strange habit I have, or even

> stranger, a line of thinking.

>

> " I don't eat, I snarf. "

>

> Seriously, I have this irrational fear when food is around that if I

> don't eat it, or I don't pile as much as I think I'll eat on my

> plate, then someone else will eat it and I won't have an opportunity

> to have any at all! And, heaven forbid I don't finish what's on my

> plate, because that's " wasteful " and someone else could have enjoyed

> my uneaten portion because they didn't quite get as much as they

> wanted.

>

> I don't understand this, because never in my life have I ever gone

> hungry! There's probably been multiple times when I didn't get a

> cookie or a cupcake that everyone else ate some of, but *never* have

> I been actually without nourishment. So this blows my mind.

>

> Alot of my meals are family oriented, we eat together, so I've

> noticed this weird behavior seems to only arise when I have to share

> food. It's worse when there are limited portions, like with pizza

> or takeout.

>

> Then, I have this other nifty dilemma. My mother. She buys junk

> food in bulk. My dad and I have tried to discourage her, we've had

> the sit down talk, but she still comes home from the store with

> chips, dips, cookies, and candies...all the time.

>

> I need a little guidance.

>

>

>

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