Guest guest Posted September 16, 2010 Report Share Posted September 16, 2010 i have been bingeing a lot too, including today.. but not getting so mad at myself. really wanting to move on with my life. but feeling hopeless. im not really working IOWL or any other program to help me. just sorta wanting the changes to come with time.. hmmm Avie On Thu, Sep 16, 2010 at 3:00 PM, AlyceJ <alycej@...> wrote: > > > Wow. I have been BINGING for the past couple days. It's been complete > madness. What I want I have. I haven't felt guilty. i've felt slightly > embarrassed, but not guilty or angry at myself. I can't help but think this > is a very important first step in my journey. I've quite obviously let go of > the tight grip I've had on this issue. I haven't eaten like this in years. > But boy, I used to. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I was on the > high end of normal, but I was in my healthy weight range. > > I don't think I want to keep eating junk food. I kind of feel like I'm > trying to make up for lost time. All the times I denied myself. I don't want > to deny myself anymore. I want to bake the coffee cake my grandma used to > bake when I was little. I got a mental whiff of it the other day. ......it's > been 32 years since my grandma was alive. Isn't that amazing? It may take > some detective work to find the recipe, but I'm going to do it. And I'm > going to eat it. > > I'm so excited to be so out of control! > > Alyce > > > -- Avie Linden University of Michigan - Anthropology Program in the Environment, History of Art 248.535.0521 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 17, 2010 Report Share Posted September 17, 2010 What if it weren't hopelessness, but a calm patience? Re: BINGE!!!!! >i have been bingeing a lot too, including today.. but not getting so mad >at > myself. > > really wanting to move on with my life. but feeling hopeless. im not > really > working IOWL or any other program to help me. just sorta wanting the > changes > to come with time.. > > > hmmm > Avie > > On Thu, Sep 16, 2010 at 3:00 PM, AlyceJ <alycej@...> wrote: > >> >> >> Wow. I have been BINGING for the past couple days. It's been complete >> madness. What I want I have. I haven't felt guilty. i've felt slightly >> embarrassed, but not guilty or angry at myself. I can't help but think >> this >> is a very important first step in my journey. I've quite obviously let go >> of >> the tight grip I've had on this issue. I haven't eaten like this in >> years. >> But boy, I used to. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I was on >> the >> high end of normal, but I was in my healthy weight range. >> >> I don't think I want to keep eating junk food. I kind of feel like I'm >> trying to make up for lost time. All the times I denied myself. I don't >> want >> to deny myself anymore. I want to bake the coffee cake my grandma used to >> bake when I was little. I got a mental whiff of it the other day. >> ......it's >> been 32 years since my grandma was alive. Isn't that amazing? It may take >> some detective work to find the recipe, but I'm going to do it. And I'm >> going to eat it. >> >> I'm so excited to be so out of control! >> >> Alyce >> >> >> > > > > -- > Avie Linden > University of Michigan - Anthropology > Program in the Environment, History of Art > 248.535.0521 > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 Wow Alyce.....  I was going through the same thing.... It's like after all these years I just.... let go. Didn't feel any guilt. Ate pretty much what I wanted when I wanted it. Baked a cake and ate a lot of it. Bought ice-cream and ate that. I was sort of sailing along...enjoying. I told a friend the other day that I love my body, love that it's strong and love my skin tone and love my shoulders and really like the way I can swim strongly in the sea and lift weights. I am overweight right now yet I said this on the beach in my bathing suit and the friend is male. This would not have happened EVER in the past.  I have eaten everything in sight for the last few weeks and even though my jeans (my overweight jeans, not the skinny ones) are a bit tight, no major damage has been done.  Yet, today I have felt the first pangs of guilt.... Like I've overdone it. Like it's a wake up call because if I keep this up I will gain so much that I will no longer fit into my jeans. I don't like this overfull feeling that I constantly have lately. I'm sleeping badly again and I have a bulging stomach and I am " out of control " again.  So so tired of this constant cycle....  From: AlyceJ <alycej@...> Subject: BINGE!!!!! weightloss Date: Friday, September 17, 2010, 5:00 AM  Wow. I have been BINGING for the past couple days. It's been complete madness. What I want I have. I haven't felt guilty. i've felt slightly embarrassed, but not guilty or angry at myself. I can't help but think this is a very important first step in my journey. I've quite obviously let go of the tight grip I've had on this issue. I haven't eaten like this in years. But boy, I used to. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I was on the high end of normal, but I was in my healthy weight range. I don't think I want to keep eating junk food. I kind of feel like I'm trying to make up for lost time. All the times I denied myself. I don't want to deny myself anymore. I want to bake the coffee cake my grandma used to bake when I was little. I got a mental whiff of it the other day. ......it's been 32 years since my grandma was alive. Isn't that amazing? It may take some detective work to find the recipe, but I'm going to do it. And I'm going to eat it. I'm so excited to be so out of control! Alyce Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 19, 2010 Report Share Posted September 19, 2010 But remember, the shorter it takes you to get back on track, the more progress you are making - self correcting! I was very good to myself this weekend. I didn't binge or overeat at all except for a little too much popcorn after my 3rd cocktail. I'll think about cutting back on the drinks eventually. BINGE!!!!! weightloss Date: Friday, September 17, 2010, 5:00 AM Wow. I have been BINGING for the past couple days. It's been complete madness. What I want I have. I haven't felt guilty. i've felt slightly embarrassed, but not guilty or angry at myself. I can't help but think this is a very important first step in my journey. I've quite obviously let go of the tight grip I've had on this issue. I haven't eaten like this in years. But boy, I used to. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I was on the high end of normal, but I was in my healthy weight range. I don't think I want to keep eating junk food. I kind of feel like I'm trying to make up for lost time. All the times I denied myself. I don't want to deny myself anymore. I want to bake the coffee cake my grandma used to bake when I was little. I got a mental whiff of it the other day. ......it's been 32 years since my grandma was alive. Isn't that amazing? It may take some detective work to find the recipe, but I'm going to do it. And I'm going to eat it. I'm so excited to be so out of control! Alyce Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 19, 2010 Report Share Posted September 19, 2010 But remember, the shorter it takes you to get back on track, the more progress you are making - self correcting! I was very good to myself this weekend. I didn't binge or overeat at all except for a little too much popcorn after my 3rd cocktail. I'll think about cutting back on the drinks eventually. BINGE!!!!! weightloss Date: Friday, September 17, 2010, 5:00 AM Wow. I have been BINGING for the past couple days. It's been complete madness. What I want I have. I haven't felt guilty. i've felt slightly embarrassed, but not guilty or angry at myself. I can't help but think this is a very important first step in my journey. I've quite obviously let go of the tight grip I've had on this issue. I haven't eaten like this in years. But boy, I used to. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I was on the high end of normal, but I was in my healthy weight range. I don't think I want to keep eating junk food. I kind of feel like I'm trying to make up for lost time. All the times I denied myself. I don't want to deny myself anymore. I want to bake the coffee cake my grandma used to bake when I was little. I got a mental whiff of it the other day. ......it's been 32 years since my grandma was alive. Isn't that amazing? It may take some detective work to find the recipe, but I'm going to do it. And I'm going to eat it. I'm so excited to be so out of control! Alyce Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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