Guest guest Posted September 12, 2010 Report Share Posted September 12, 2010 I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 12, 2010 Report Share Posted September 12, 2010 Hi Alyce! Don't beat yourself up. This is a part of the process. It happened to me, too. Just try to listen to the episodes and don't shut IOWL out of your life completely. You'll be back when you are ready. And you will have made progress without knowing it. This is part of the patience and persistence is talking about. You will learn to walk eventually, even though you might find yourself falling down a few times before you do! Jantje > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > heartburn. > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > and hopeless. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 12, 2010 Report Share Posted September 12, 2010 53,85,122 Hi Alyce! My heart really goes out to you, I can hear the anger,and the fear in your words,I hear a sense of powerlessness and hopelessness and perhaps frustratiion.I cannot of course feel exactly what its like to be in your place,only you can, but I have felt the above emotions and felt so trapped by my weight. I like what Jantje and Patti said and I only want to suggest that when you again can listen to a podcast,there are certain ones that deal with this issue.A few are No's 53,85,and 122. Keep listening,stay open,take small steps,each setback can be an opportunity and increase the probabilility of future success. Glenn > > > > > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > > heartburn. > > > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > > and hopeless. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 Thank you. I really appreciate the encouragement. LOL - I'm afraid to listen randomly right now cuz I haven't listened to them all yet. I think that's been part of it - getting overwhelmed by trying to do things the right way. It was kind of interesting though cuz the next podcast on the list was about letting go. Totally what I need to do. Re: > Biiiiigggggg huuugggg for Alyce. > > Don't hate yourself. Starting to post here is a great start. Just pick a > podcast and start again. When I get stuck, I just scroll through and stop > on one randomly. Weirdly, it's usually the one that gives me what I need > and jump starts me again. > > I went through the same thing a few weeks ago. Just give yourself a big > hug > and start over. And don't get overwhelmed with trying to fix everything > at > once. Start with one little change. It's ok if you don't have a perfect > day. Just concentrate on one little area that you made a good choice or > listened to your body. Just a little thing to build on. Build a little > confidence.... one minute at a time. Then build a little more. It's not > always the total of the bad choices we make. It's concentrating on the > right choices and the little successes. > > Good luck!! > Patti > > > On Sun, Sep 12, 2010 at 8:31 AM, Alyce <alycej@...> wrote: > >> >> >> I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my >> body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm >> mad >> at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my >> stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the >> next >> decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. >> If >> I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you >> know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad >> heartburn. >> >> I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to >> stop >> the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe >> that I >> can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly >> heartbroken >> and hopeless. >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 You know, in a way I think giving up - or actually surrendering - is exactly what I need to do. I have a desperate need to lose weight. I think about it continuously all day every day. So for today my goal was to enjoy my body for what it is. The podcast that talks about how when ( I think it was her) was thin and looked in the mirror, she still saw all the same flaws. I've been there, I felt the same way. I don't want to beat myself up anymore. I want to love me. So today whenever I looked in the mirror, I picked out something I liked. Whenever I talked down to myself, I said something nice. I want to learn to love myself however I am. Re: weightloss Date: Monday, September 13, 2010, 12:06 AM Hi Alyce! Don't beat yourself up. This is a part of the process. It happened to me, too. Just try to listen to the episodes and don't shut IOWL out of your life completely. You'll be back when you are ready. And you will have made progress without knowing it. This is part of the patience and persistence is talking about. You will learn to walk eventually, even though you might find yourself falling down a few times before you do! Jantje > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > heartburn. > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > and hopeless. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 This made me tear up a little, Corinna. When you said the part about , it touched me. I want to be beautiful and loved and good enough no matter what size I am. I know would love me. The thing is my husband adores me and loves me and loves my body. He hates when I talk bad about my body. But you know, it's not enough for the person I care most about in my life to love my body. I need to. You are worth it. And I am too. Thank you for reaching out to me. Re: Alyce, I was where you are a few weeks ago.. Heck, maybe even a few days ago! We can and will do it! Dig deep and realize this is your body telling you that have have something to work on! My mental image of giving up: If I were to give up, I would certainly become bed ridden, depressed and unable to help myself. They will come to get me.. but to get me out, they will need to remove a wall and lower me down with a crane. will be there.. telling me I am beautiful and that he loves me... Don't give up! You DESERVE to feel fabulous! You are worth it! Worth digging deep.. If I am, everyone is. Corinna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 Yeah, I'm gonna keep trying, RJ. Thank you. I don't know how supportive I can be right now, but I'm here. The worst thing that can happen? Getting fatter. Never losing weight. And no, I'm not ok with that right now. It makes me kind of short of breath to even think about it. I definitely need some free time to renew. I've been stretched too thin. I can really feel it. Re: Alyce- You are not alone. I have been feeling pretty hopeless myself lately. I keep starting again on the right path, and falling off quickly, even though I know I will feel better if I keep doing the things I know to do. I had the easiest most amazing month of my life in July, and now I can't seem to get back there. I am NOT there yet, but I keep reading what I wrote then, and what I wrote before then, to keep reminding myself. As I say- I am NOT there yet, but I keep reminding myself so I crawl back slowly. Or quickly if I can . Can you take 1-2 days and do something new? For instance, for my job I am traveling all this week, but I get a whole day in Spokane, a city I love, free of meetings, etc. So I will work, but I will also be able to get out of my cycle of funk by hanging out there- on the river that I love, etc. If you live near a meditation center, that can be an amazing bump. Go meet with your spiritual leader? Read an inspirational book? The world grinds at our light. We know we are being judged by people who do not know us, people are mean and snarky and nasty. Just having to keep cleaning the same dishes every few days can wear you down. Finding small ways to renew us is essential. For that matter, give yourself permission to buy and read a trashy romance or mystery for an afternoon- allow yourself to escape for a few hours, but then re-engage. You cannot change others, you can only change yourself- your heart, your mind, your choices, your body. And you cannot change yesterday. You can only change today, moment to moment so the future does not repeat the past. In America, we often cannot focus on ANYTHING for more than 5 min. But if you can find ways to keep focus, you can change yourself into who you want to be. Try some of the suggestions everyone has offered to find little ways to refocus. What is the worst that can happen? Can you be ok with that if it happens? I will keep trying, and I hope you join me in the journey! RJ > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 Yeah, I'm gonna keep trying, RJ. Thank you. I don't know how supportive I can be right now, but I'm here. The worst thing that can happen? Getting fatter. Never losing weight. And no, I'm not ok with that right now. It makes me kind of short of breath to even think about it. I definitely need some free time to renew. I've been stretched too thin. I can really feel it. Re: Alyce- You are not alone. I have been feeling pretty hopeless myself lately. I keep starting again on the right path, and falling off quickly, even though I know I will feel better if I keep doing the things I know to do. I had the easiest most amazing month of my life in July, and now I can't seem to get back there. I am NOT there yet, but I keep reading what I wrote then, and what I wrote before then, to keep reminding myself. As I say- I am NOT there yet, but I keep reminding myself so I crawl back slowly. Or quickly if I can . Can you take 1-2 days and do something new? For instance, for my job I am traveling all this week, but I get a whole day in Spokane, a city I love, free of meetings, etc. So I will work, but I will also be able to get out of my cycle of funk by hanging out there- on the river that I love, etc. If you live near a meditation center, that can be an amazing bump. Go meet with your spiritual leader? Read an inspirational book? The world grinds at our light. We know we are being judged by people who do not know us, people are mean and snarky and nasty. Just having to keep cleaning the same dishes every few days can wear you down. Finding small ways to renew us is essential. For that matter, give yourself permission to buy and read a trashy romance or mystery for an afternoon- allow yourself to escape for a few hours, but then re-engage. You cannot change others, you can only change yourself- your heart, your mind, your choices, your body. And you cannot change yesterday. You can only change today, moment to moment so the future does not repeat the past. In America, we often cannot focus on ANYTHING for more than 5 min. But if you can find ways to keep focus, you can change yourself into who you want to be. Try some of the suggestions everyone has offered to find little ways to refocus. What is the worst that can happen? Can you be ok with that if it happens? I will keep trying, and I hope you join me in the journey! RJ > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 Thank you, Glenn. I am angry that I have let myself get to this point. I am afraid that I will never, ever be at a healthy weight again. I am hopeless and frustrated and completely feel powerless. And I do feel trapped. The weight is heavy in so many ways. Thank you for understanding. I'm going to put those podcast on my player right now. Thank you. Re: 53,85,122 Hi Alyce! My heart really goes out to you, I can hear the anger,and the fear in your words,I hear a sense of powerlessness and hopelessness and perhaps frustratiion.I cannot of course feel exactly what its like to be in your place,only you can, but I have felt the above emotions and felt so trapped by my weight. I like what Jantje and Patti said and I only want to suggest that when you again can listen to a podcast,there are certain ones that deal with this issue.A few are No's 53,85,and 122. Keep listening,stay open,take small steps,each setback can be an opportunity and increase the probabilility of future success. Glenn > > > > > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > > heartburn. > > > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > > and hopeless. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 Thank you, Glenn. I am angry that I have let myself get to this point. I am afraid that I will never, ever be at a healthy weight again. I am hopeless and frustrated and completely feel powerless. And I do feel trapped. The weight is heavy in so many ways. Thank you for understanding. I'm going to put those podcast on my player right now. Thank you. Re: 53,85,122 Hi Alyce! My heart really goes out to you, I can hear the anger,and the fear in your words,I hear a sense of powerlessness and hopelessness and perhaps frustratiion.I cannot of course feel exactly what its like to be in your place,only you can, but I have felt the above emotions and felt so trapped by my weight. I like what Jantje and Patti said and I only want to suggest that when you again can listen to a podcast,there are certain ones that deal with this issue.A few are No's 53,85,and 122. Keep listening,stay open,take small steps,each setback can be an opportunity and increase the probabilility of future success. Glenn > > > > > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > > heartburn. > > > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > > and hopeless. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Alyce,  That is a step in the positive direction. So you haven't given up :-)  You know you wrote that your husband loves you just the way you are and he doesn't like you criticising your body. My husband is the same. He loves me so much and I can see the pain in his eyes if I'm upset about my body or criticising it.  I have been working on a daily basis on loving me...Not so much my body but ME. The person who is inside and showing respect for that person. Loving the outside is sort of a bonus that comes with loving the inside. Whenever I have negative thoughts, I now replace them with positive. Most days it works.  I am still struggling with the food too Alyce. Every day........ The last thing that I want at this point is to " go on a diet " so I am taking it one day at a time. I am determined to get in my exercise no matter what and I try to do sth good for others during the day (a compliment, eye contact with a sales person, etc) and I try to eat at least two veggies and fruits. Most days this helps me to eat better than I would if I completely gave in. By the way, talks about giving in vs giving up in one of her earliest episodes. I'll look it up tonight and let you know which one.  Hang in there! Keep coming on and reading and joining in when you can. We will be here for you.  Hugs.. From: Nixe708 <jantje.gerdes@...> Subject: Re: weightloss Date: Monday, September 13, 2010, 12:06 AM Hi Alyce! Don't beat yourself up. This is a part of the process. It happened to me, too. Just try to listen to the episodes and don't shut IOWL out of your life completely. You'll be back when you are ready. And you will have made progress without knowing it. This is part of the patience and persistence is talking about. You will learn to walk eventually, even though you might find yourself falling down a few times before you do! Jantje > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > heartburn. > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > and hopeless. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Alyce,  That is a step in the positive direction. So you haven't given up :-)  You know you wrote that your husband loves you just the way you are and he doesn't like you criticising your body. My husband is the same. He loves me so much and I can see the pain in his eyes if I'm upset about my body or criticising it.  I have been working on a daily basis on loving me...Not so much my body but ME. The person who is inside and showing respect for that person. Loving the outside is sort of a bonus that comes with loving the inside. Whenever I have negative thoughts, I now replace them with positive. Most days it works.  I am still struggling with the food too Alyce. Every day........ The last thing that I want at this point is to " go on a diet " so I am taking it one day at a time. I am determined to get in my exercise no matter what and I try to do sth good for others during the day (a compliment, eye contact with a sales person, etc) and I try to eat at least two veggies and fruits. Most days this helps me to eat better than I would if I completely gave in. By the way, talks about giving in vs giving up in one of her earliest episodes. I'll look it up tonight and let you know which one.  Hang in there! Keep coming on and reading and joining in when you can. We will be here for you.  Hugs.. From: Nixe708 <jantje.gerdes@...> Subject: Re: weightloss Date: Monday, September 13, 2010, 12:06 AM Hi Alyce! Don't beat yourself up. This is a part of the process. It happened to me, too. Just try to listen to the episodes and don't shut IOWL out of your life completely. You'll be back when you are ready. And you will have made progress without knowing it. This is part of the patience and persistence is talking about. You will learn to walk eventually, even though you might find yourself falling down a few times before you do! Jantje > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > heartburn. > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > and hopeless. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Thankyou Alyce. I have just now re-activated my account after switching off as you have, for 6 weeks (didn't feel like that long) only to find you expressing the words that I couldn't find. First I found the will to go for a long walk, then open my gratitude/success journal, then check in with the group. Now, thanks to you and the group, I've 'got back up' and am trying again. My heartfelt good wishes to you on your journey. I'm sure we'll get there eventually > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Thankyou Alyce. I have just now re-activated my account after switching off as you have, for 6 weeks (didn't feel like that long) only to find you expressing the words that I couldn't find. First I found the will to go for a long walk, then open my gratitude/success journal, then check in with the group. Now, thanks to you and the group, I've 'got back up' and am trying again. My heartfelt good wishes to you on your journey. I'm sure we'll get there eventually > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 Huh. I never thought that my miserableness would be a comfort/inspiration to someone else. That feels like a hug. Re: Thankyou Alyce. I have just now re-activated my account after switching off as you have, for 6 weeks (didn't feel like that long) only to find you expressing the words that I couldn't find. First I found the will to go for a long walk, then open my gratitude/success journal, then check in with the group. Now, thanks to you and the group, I've 'got back up' and am trying again. My heartfelt good wishes to you on your journey. I'm sure we'll get there eventually > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad heartburn. > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken and hopeless. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 I'm with you. Definitely NOT dieting. At least not now. I need to find peace with myself first. I ate without beating myself up today. That's a good step. Re: weightloss Date: Monday, September 13, 2010, 12:06 AM Hi Alyce! Don't beat yourself up. This is a part of the process. It happened to me, too. Just try to listen to the episodes and don't shut IOWL out of your life completely. You'll be back when you are ready. And you will have made progress without knowing it. This is part of the patience and persistence is talking about. You will learn to walk eventually, even though you might find yourself falling down a few times before you do! Jantje > > > > > > > I have stopped listening to the podcasts. I have stopped listening to my > > body. I've ignored all of the messages here for the past two weeks. I'm mad > > at myself. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror or even put my > > stupid tight clothes on my body. I'm dangerously close to reaching the next > > decade of pounds - I've never been that heavy except when I was pregnant. If > > I could I would quit. Quit caring, quit trying. Eat what I want. But you > > know, I couldn't eat what I want even if I gave up cuz I have such bad > > heartburn. > > > > I feel like I can't do anything to lose weight. I can't do anything to stop > > the heartburn. Honestly, I don't , even in a tiny little way, believe that I > > can lose the weight and get back to a healthy weight. I'm truly heartbroken > > and hopeless. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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