New Focus

[Guest guest]

Hey Everyone, Barbara here from Florida.

I have not written much since joining this group. I just wanted to share what

has been going on with me.

I have been really listening to 's podcasts, and taking in what she has

shared. I have been reading the shares here.

Today I didn't binge eat, or obsess over what I ate. In the past when I tried

to focus on losing weight, I would go to the extreme either way, with

undereating, then overeating.

Today I focused on teaching my body and discipling my body to eat 3 times today,

with a possible snack if I needed it. That is my only intent today. I have

really messed up by just eating whenever whatever I wanted to, or starving

myself after each binge to make up for it. Both of these behaviors are not

healthy for my body.

I cooked some oatmeal muffins tonight, they were not for me to eat tonight, I

made them so that I could have one for my breakfast in the morning. They are

high in fiber low sugar. I have truly not craved them or have not been obsessing

about them. I know that I can have one for breakfast in the morning with decaf

coffee, and it will taste really good because I will be truly hungry.

I think for me, a compulsive over and under eater, the first thing is to retrain

myself and eat more balanced meals 3 times a day. I am sure I will not do this

perfectly, as my compulsive nature wants me to, lol, but I am at least moving in

the right direction. TOWARD and not AWAY FROM. I decided not to beat up on

myself if I don't do well one day. Once my body learns that I am not going to

over stuff it or under feed it, then I can focus on another intent to reach for.

So just for today, I had 3 meals no seconds or thirds, and no more, thank you

God. I actually drank more water today too, not too much but more than I had

been drinking, because when I overeat, I don't even/ever think about drinking

water, it has to be soda pop even the diet kind. I am weaning myself from the

diet soda etc stuff.

I am ready to be better to my body, not forcing it, not fighting the food, just

taking it one day at a time. Right now I can't exercise much because of having a

lot of pain, I pray one day that will change and I can get more exercise in.

Anyway that is where I am right now, I am doing a lot of praying.

May God be with you all,

Barbara in Fl. Compulsive in nature, diabetic.