Re: My weight loss journey

[Guest guest]

Jantje!

Hugs & hugs & hugs!

What a fantastic post. I am so pleased that you are starting to acknowledge

your worthiness and actually starting to see yourself as we see you! You

know that we are all in this boat with you and understand everything you

say, but it is so wonderful to see you growing and beginning to accept the

wonderful and accomplished human being that you are. Everything will fall

into place for you because you are on the right path!

So very happy for you!

Wynn

My weight loss journey

> Hi all!

>

> Over the last few weeks I noticed several big changes that had occurred,

> but haven't really found the time to think about them. I thought I'd post

> them, primarily so I can properly acknowledge and celebrate them.

>

> 1) The DIF of my overeating episodes has decreased tremendously. I

> especially noticed that last week after a pretty upsetting conversation

> with my boss. My usual reaction would have been to inhale every food in

> sight. I did not. I went home, did a guided journey and called a friend.

> If I overeat, I eat less than before. Last night, f.e. I had an extra

> sandwich although I was not hungry. This pales in comparison to what I

> have managed to eat before.

>

> 2) Only after someone (I think it was , thanks again!) posted the

> definition of compulsive overeating vs. binge eating did I realize that I

> was a compulsive overeater, not a binge eater. Sometimes even as I was

> eating something I would think about what I could eat next. Hunger did

> abslutely NOT play a role in my decision making. That has changed. My most

> vulnerable time is at night. I live alone and then feelings of loneliness

> and boredom come up. I dealt with them by eating. Lately I am not

> constantly thinking about food anymore. I can watch a movie without

> checking the fridge and pantry for snacks. This doesn't happen all the

> time yet, but it happens and I am on my way to break free of this

> compulsion.

>

> 3) More and more, I am able to love and accept the way I am. I bought new

> clothes, got a new haircut, take better care of myself all around. But I

> am still struggling with my self image in several areas. One, as you might

> recall, is exercise, particularly swimming. Although I feel quite athletic

> swimming has become a stress factor for me because it sometimes brings on

> feelings of hopelessness and unworthiness. Still working on that but I am

> beginning to at least allow myself the thought of not doing the triathlon

> if it is too much stress. After all, I enjoy exercise and do not want to

> spoil this for me...

>

> 4) I have recently discovered a new limiting belief: I feel unworthy of

> love in a romantic relationship. Somehow, I have cornered myself into the

> role of great friend, buddy and /or colleague. Although I very much long

> for an intimate relationship I am very insecure and nervous when a man

> shows interest in me as a woman. Something I am working on...

>

> Thanks everyone for your companionship and support. I feel blessed to have

> found 's podcast and am looking forward to continuing the journey

> that is life!

>

> Jantje

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