Re: Control issues?

[Guest guest]

I just finished listening to Eat Pray Love. A lot of it resonated with me.

I find it ironic that she looked for happiness through food. And yet, we

are here trying to STOP looking for happiness through food. But she took so

much pleasure from eating and felt no guilt afterward. I can't honestly say

I have ever gotten as much enjoyment from eating as she did. I generally

just gobble things up in the moment and deal with the guilt afterward. I

would love to be able to eat a meal with as much emotion as she did.

But the second part... the meditation part spoke to me. I'm thinking it is

something I should look into. And I like how she found that she is

constantly learning... constantly striving.... constantly reaching.

I was also touch by something else. They spoke about using meditation to

find the perfection of the world around them and in themselves. They wanted

to make sense of the chaos of the universe. Personally I've never had a

problem with the world and the universe. One only has to look at a tree or

the sky or just experience a 24 hour cycle to know the universe is not

chaotic. It functions in perfect harmony. God (or Nature, or whatever you

chose to call it) has everything under control. Everything out there works

exactly as it's supposed to. I have perfect faith in the perfection of the

universe around me.

My problem is the perfection in me. I had not occurred to me to consider

myself as perfect. Growing up, I was taught that we are flawed... born with

original sin. We are all sinners. No one is perfect. It is pride and

vanity to think I am perfect. Any of this sound familiar to anyone?

Well, let me try out this theory. If God has the ability to create a

perfect Universe, why would he make me imperfect? He can make a tree, and a

mountain, and an ocean, and the climite work exactly the way they are

supposed to. Everything works in harmony with everything else. So why

would he create " man " that isn't perfect? (Substitute " God " with whatever

" higher power " you believe in)

No. We are perfect..... our soul.... our spirit.... the main core of " us "

is perfect. Our brains just muck it up. I am not " broken " or " flawed " . I

am perfect. I was created for a reason. I was created in harmony with

everything around me. I've just spent the last 49 years dancing to my own

tune instead of in harmony of the universe. (and here I thought I just had

no rhythm!!!)

Isn't that what " diets " are? We look in the mirror, see something flawed

and imperfect, so we go on the latest " diet " and try to fix ourselves. But

what if we throw away that idea. Throw away the idea that there is anything

to " fix " . (I think I just read that somewhere else. Can't remember where)

So, once I see my own perfection, I should want to take care of myself,

right? That means eat healthy, exercise and be happy with my body at

whatever size it is.

Sound too " new age " ?

Just more rambling thoughts......

Patti

On Sun, Sep 26, 2010 at 7:02 AM, Samokhina <masyana@...> wrote:

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> I'm currently listening to the " Eat pray love " , and one line transformed

> me.

> It was 's " You gave control issues, Groceries " - as an answer to her

> wish to know the date when her soul ache would heal... It hit me that I have

> control issues, too. I just had a compelling urge to purge almost every time

> I overeat. And I thought: " what will be will be " .And then I ate a " bad "

> thing - waffles in chocolate. Not the best choice nutritionally.. but..

> there was no guilt! What will be will be. Relief... freedom.. trust..

> Another thing - I recently found out that the part of me which doesn't want

> me to be slim (by that I think " regular " or " controlled " or " behaving the

> right way " ) has a huge gift for me - comparable to being healthy, if not

> more important. It is being spontaneous, being alive, living life as an

> adventure! I got so excited about it, I want it sooo much!

> Now I'd like to find out how to have both at a time - spontaneity and

> achieving things which are achieved by regular practice...

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> any ideas?

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