Re:Fwd: Ask yourself: Has my AIDS crisis ended?

[Guest guest]

This is a great topic. I was speaking with my best friend this

weekend. (He is HIV-). He was worried that I was not doing enough

dating wise, given that counts had been pretty steady. undectabpeMy V-

load is undetectable and my cd4's are about 250.

But I suffer from painful PN in my feet and a myriad of other HIV

crap. While I look good, I have to say that my books belie

my overall health. I am also recently a diabetic( insulin dependent)

and have been dealing with Peyrponie's DIsease. Also, mu regular

bloodwork is

okay , say the inability to measure my good and bad cholesterol, due

to sky high trigyclyerides.

MY friend simply does not want me to be alone. He is 90 miles away. He

seems to think I am fixated with dating guys younger than myself -

although,

I am not sure how he feels this way, givnen tht I have had not no

tricks or dating in about 2 years./

I know that everyone is different. My friend likes to have things laid

out and when any change occurs he has to readjust his short and long

term plans.

I do lead a structured life. I am a home bosy. I do volunteer and

meeeting guys if not a problem

So , what givess? I respect his opoiniom a lot . I am also about as

happy right now as I have ever been.He likess to keep lists and I only

like to do

that fior chores around the house.

What do you guys think? my gut says we just look at things

differently.. He thinks fullfillment is happiness with another guy. I

just find hppiness all ny myself.

I know I need to get out there and meet some guys - I really woul like

to try/ Anyone have any ideas.

NEal