Pulling my hair out!!!HELP

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Ok so I have to warn you I really need to vent. I have been on the

couch sick with the flu/ cold/ new med " sickness " type combo. My

depression has gotten bad enough I started meds to give me a boost

and help me out with taking care of the kids. Well its making me

exhausted and then BAM out of no where I get the flu/cold. Anyways.

Schyler is driving me nuts. I could barely get off the couch to take

care of major nessaties much less any major cleaning and she FREEKED

OUT on me. Telling how I am such a horible mother, im a pig, how can

i allow us to be so dirty, im ruining her life, and she just cant

handle this mess and ect ect. Ok before I got sick my house was

spotless because she is obsessed with neatness. If its not spotless

she will go bazerk on me, for instance on day she got really mad at

me cus the toilet didnt seem clean enough to pee in it. Or another

day she blamed the town of ramsey smelling bad on the four backpacks

(thier toys for entertaining them at the hospital) in my truck on my

piggyness. Now i am not naturally a clean freek. I like things to be

somewhat organised but not perfect. i can handle in between but this

kid is military!! Shes 4!!!! I am gonna go insaine I swear. She is

wearing me to the bone some days, with these cleaning demands. I

know she dont care that her sister has her own sets of needs being

that she has aspergers and all. I dont have anyone who can help me

and my husband is pretty much useless as he works 6 days a week 2

jobs so hes great at bringing home the money so i cant rightfully

ask for more. Any advice would be helpfull. I will probally be up

alot of the night scrubbing so i dont have to hear her raging on me

tomarow. It hurts to hear some of the verbal things she says to me.

She went as far as telling me that even animals dont like to be

dirty. dont know where she comes up with some of this.... thanks for

the vent sorry so long.

-cj