Guest guest Posted December 5, 2006 Report Share Posted December 5, 2006 Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing process right now. Yours? Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided me for so many years. What's your Title? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2006 Report Share Posted December 6, 2006 > > Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing process > right now. Yours? Mine is already done with the publishing process. > > Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of Love ... The > Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided me for so many years. > What's your Title? Mine is called Its Good To Be Different. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2006 Report Share Posted December 6, 2006 My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him. People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at www.target.com and www.amazon.com You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read. Carolyn Re: Author Bio Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing process right now. Yours? Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided me for so many years. What's your Title? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2006 Report Share Posted December 6, 2006 My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him. People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at www.target.com and www.amazon.com You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read. Carolyn Re: Author Bio Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing process right now. Yours? Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided me for so many years. What's your Title? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 7, 2006 Report Share Posted December 7, 2006 I look forward to ordering your book! I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really bad with my son that's in line with your title: Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000 Long Day I tucked him into bed tonight—a day so long My exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guilt again around my burdened shoulders a covering for my bowed head Too much yelling, too much anger Did Miss Ann in her Romper Room ever go home at the end of the day and cry when the mindless prattle and nonsense songs of skipping, bouncing children— small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood— had robbed her mind of studied thoughts? Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises stop? Did June Cleaver ever feel trapped in her obsessively clean black-and-white home her heavy-breathing panic on the floor next to the Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustration when the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras? Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day? Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothing and gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longing The picture of brimming eyes that I love “Why?” mouthed in confusion and horror stays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic anesthesia So my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of us as I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficulty of diagnoses translated into a life lived one foot in front of the other I do thank God for the blessings that lift me out of the weeping darkness for a moment for the realization that not every day is spent thrashing and beating against that which I cannot change and for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a bit easing the pain as I close my eyes and run to rest Theresa On Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote: > > My title is " Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > A Mother's Search For a Living God " It is about my search for God > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him. > > People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > www.target.com and www.amazon.com > > You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read. > > Carolyn > > Re: Author Bio > > Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > process right now. Yours? > > Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > me for so many years. What's your Title? > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 7, 2006 Report Share Posted December 7, 2006 In a message dated 12/7/2006 12:48:50 A.M. Eastern Standard Time, mstedman0660@... writes: Mine is called Its Good To Be Different. I like that theme song a lot! Is it about autism or just plain good not to be a carbon copy sheep? Let's hear about it! Please. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 7, 2006 Report Share Posted December 7, 2006 Hi Theresa, Just want to let you , how beautiful your poem is. It brought me to tears. I think that all who read it will feel the same as you do, I know I do. Everyday I pray to the merciful God, asking him to led me and help understand me sweet son. I understand the screaming part, the please be quite, please Zachary just one minute.........etc. I know it is hard but I tell myself God gave me this child for a reason. Zachary was my angel, my husband and I tried for 7 yrs to have a child. One day I was talking to God and said well I guess its not in your plans for us to have a child so I give up. Little did I know I was 2 wks pregnant with Zachary at the time.lol. I tell myself everyday, God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I know it is sometimes very hard, but with God as our leader we can get past it. God Bess You All, , Oklahoma City,OK.Theresa Mesa <clanmesa@...> wrote: I look forward to ordering your book!I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really bad with my son that's in line with your title:Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000Long DayI tucked him into bed tonight—a day so longMy exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guiltagain around my burdened shouldersa covering for my bowed headToo much yelling, too much angerDid Miss Ann in her Romper Roomever go home at the end of the day and crywhen the mindless prattle and nonsense songsof skipping, bouncing children—small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood—had robbed her mind of studied thoughts?Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises stop?Did June Cleaver ever feel trappedin her obsessively clean black-and-white homeher heavy-breathing panic on the floor next tothe Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustrationwhen the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras?Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day?Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothingand gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longingThe picture of brimming eyes that I love“Why?” mouthed in confusion and horrorstays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic anesthesiaSo my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of usas I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficultyof diagnoses translated into a life livedone foot in front of the otherI do thank God for the blessings that lift me outof the weeping darkness for a momentfor the realization that not every day is spentthrashing and beating against that which I cannot changeand for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a biteasing the pain as I close my eyes and run to restTheresaOn Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote:>> My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him.>> People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > www.target.com and www.amazon.com>> You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read.>> Carolyn>> Re: Author Bio>> Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > process right now. Yours?>> Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > me for so many years. What's your Title?>>>> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2006 Report Share Posted December 8, 2006 In a message dated 12/8/2006 9:02:48 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, krbenglish@... writes: Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothingand gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longing I felt that way about Father Knows Best. Every problem solved in half an hour. I think we all understand your poem well. Thank You. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 9, 2006 Report Share Posted December 9, 2006 I'm glad it touched you. I didn't want to steal Carolyn's thunder, though. I just wanted her to know that I understood her title... Theresa Mesa Mesa Design House http://mesadesignhouse.com 909-335-9710 Hours: By appointment only On Dec 7, 2006, at 9:43 AM, English wrote: > > Hi Theresa, > Just want to let you , how beautiful your poem > is. It brought me to tears. I think that all who read it will feel > the same as you do, I know I do. Everyday I pray to the merciful > God, asking him to led me and help understand me sweet son. I > understand the screaming part, the please be quite, please Zachary > just one minute.........etc. I know it is hard but I tell myself > God gave me this child for a reason. Zachary was my angel, my > husband and I tried for 7 yrs to have a child. One day I was > talking to God and said well I guess its not in your plans for us > to have a child so I give up. Little did I know I was 2 wks > pregnant with Zachary at the time.lol. I tell myself everyday, God > doesn't give us more than we can handle. I know it is sometimes > very hard, but with God as our leader we can get past it. > > God Bess You All, > , Oklahoma City,OK. > > Theresa Mesa <clanmesa@...> wrote: > I look forward to ordering your book! > > I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really > bad with my son that's in line with your title: > > Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000 > > Long Day > > I tucked him into bed tonight—a day so long > My exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guilt > again around my burdened shoulders > a covering for my bowed head > Too much yelling, too much anger > > Did Miss Ann in her Romper Room > ever go home at the end of the day and cry > when the mindless prattle and nonsense songs > of skipping, bouncing children— > small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood— > had robbed her mind of studied thoughts? > Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises > stop? > > Did June Cleaver ever feel trapped > in her obsessively clean black-and-white home > her heavy-breathing panic on the floor next to > the Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustration > when the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras? > Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day? > Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothing > and gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longing > > The picture of brimming eyes that I love > “Why?” mouthed in confusion and horror > stays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic > anesthesia > So my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of us > as I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficulty > of diagnoses translated into a life lived > one foot in front of the other > > I do thank God for the blessings that lift me out > of the weeping darkness for a moment > for the realization that not every day is spent > thrashing and beating against that which I cannot change > and for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a bit > easing the pain as I close my eyes and run to rest > > Theresa > > > > On Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote: > > > > > My title is " Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > > A Mother's Search For a Living God " It is about my search for God > > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him. > > > > People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > > www.target.com and www.amazon.com > > > > You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read. > > > > Carolyn > > > > Re: Author Bio > > > > Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > > process right now. Yours? > > > > Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > > me for so many years. What's your Title? > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 11, 2006 Report Share Posted December 11, 2006 My pleasure. I realized in retrospect that I was stealing Carolyn's thunder, though, and that was very insensitive of me. I apologize. Theresa Mesa Mesa Design House http://mesadesignhouse.com 909-335-9710 Hours: By appointment only On Dec 8, 2006, at 6:53 PM, sunrose101@... wrote: > In a message dated 12/8/2006 9:02:48 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, > krbenglish@... writes: > Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothing > and gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longing > I felt that way about Father Knows Best. Every problem solved in > half an hour. > > I think we all understand your poem well. Thank You. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 Oh that was fine Theresa, I didn't think of it that way at all. In fact I really loved your poem, have saved it. When I was reading it, I was thinking it would have been nice to have had it and I would have put it in my "forward" pages. I admire folks who can write good poetry, have never really tried it myself, but think it would be fun. There was one poem I wrote though, I was on a plane flying from L.A. back home to Oregon, and had just given my life to the Lord on that plane, and I felt so happy I grabbed a pad of paper and began to write. When the plane landed my husband and three kids were there to get us. My mom and I had taken my disabled son to a Kulman service in L.A. Well all the way home I read the poem out loud, and we all laughed like loonies, it was real funny about our trip and all. I had never been on L.A. freeways before in a taxi cab, it was really something else! Anyway I have ordered 250 copies of my book from the publisher, should get them Monday UPS, and am going to start taking it around to bookstores, etc. I am pretty excited to say the least! Carolyn Re: Author Bio My pleasure. I realized in retrospect that I was stealing Carolyn's thunder, though, and that was very insensitive of me. I apologize.Theresa MesaMesa Design Househttp://mesadesignhouse.com909-335-9710Hours: By appointment onlyOn Dec 8, 2006, at 6:53 PM, sunrose101aol wrote:> In a message dated 12/8/2006 9:02:48 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, > krbenglish writes:> Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothing> and gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longing> I felt that way about Father Knows Best. Every problem solved in > half an hour.>> I think we all understand your poem well. Thank You.>> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Theresa and , I have to say I was very touched by your poem and understood what you were saying all too well also. Wonderful job expressing the feelings! , as far as the Lord will not give me more than I can handle..... I always like to amend that with what my mom says which is the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, but sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much!!!! DeeDee mom of Aslynne 16 nt, Elissa AS, ADHD, ODD and bi polar disorder and Tynan 7 PDD nos English <krbenglish@...> wrote: Hi Theresa, Just want to let you , how beautiful your poem is. It brought me to tears. I think that all who read it will feel the same as you do, I know I do. Everyday I pray to the merciful God, asking him to led me and help understand me sweet son. I understand the screaming part, the please be quite, please Zachary just one minute.........etc. I know it is hard but I tell myself God gave me this child for a reason. Zachary was my angel, my husband and I tried for 7 yrs to have a child. One day I was talking to God and said well I guess its not in your plans for us to have a child so I give up. Little did I know I was 2 wks pregnant with Zachary at the time.lol. I tell myself everyday, God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I know it is sometimes very hard, but with God as our leader we can get past it. God Bess You All, , Oklahoma City,OK.Theresa Mesa <clanmesaearthlink (DOT) net> wrote: I look forward to ordering your book!I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really bad with my son that's in line with your title:Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000Long DayI tucked him into bed tonight—a day so longMy exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guiltagain around my burdened shouldersa covering for my bowed headToo much yelling, too much angerDid Miss Ann in her Romper Roomever go home at the end of the day and crywhen the mindless prattle and nonsense songsof skipping, bouncing children—small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood—had robbed her mind of studied thoughts?Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises stop?Did June Cleaver ever feel trappedin her obsessively clean black-and-white homeher heavy-breathing panic on the floor next tothe Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustrationwhen the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras?Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day?Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothingand gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longingThe picture of brimming eyes that I love“Why?” mouthed in confusion and horrorstays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic anesthesiaSo my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of usas I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficultyof diagnoses translated into a life livedone foot in front of the otherI do thank God for the blessings that lift me outof the weeping darkness for a momentfor the realization that not every day is spentthrashing and beating against that which I cannot changeand for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a biteasing the pain as I close my eyes and run to restTheresaOn Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote:>> My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him.>> People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > www.target.com and www.amazon.com>> You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read.>> Carolyn>> Re: Author Bio>> Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > process right now. Yours?>> Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > me for so many years. What's your Title?>>>> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Theresa and , I have to say I was very touched by your poem and understood what you were saying all too well also. Wonderful job expressing the feelings! , as far as the Lord will not give me more than I can handle..... I always like to amend that with what my mom says which is the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, but sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much!!!! DeeDee mom of Aslynne 16 nt, Elissa AS, ADHD, ODD and bi polar disorder and Tynan 7 PDD nos English <krbenglish@...> wrote: Hi Theresa, Just want to let you , how beautiful your poem is. It brought me to tears. I think that all who read it will feel the same as you do, I know I do. Everyday I pray to the merciful God, asking him to led me and help understand me sweet son. I understand the screaming part, the please be quite, please Zachary just one minute.........etc. I know it is hard but I tell myself God gave me this child for a reason. Zachary was my angel, my husband and I tried for 7 yrs to have a child. One day I was talking to God and said well I guess its not in your plans for us to have a child so I give up. Little did I know I was 2 wks pregnant with Zachary at the time.lol. I tell myself everyday, God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I know it is sometimes very hard, but with God as our leader we can get past it. God Bess You All, , Oklahoma City,OK.Theresa Mesa <clanmesaearthlink (DOT) net> wrote: I look forward to ordering your book!I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really bad with my son that's in line with your title:Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000Long DayI tucked him into bed tonight—a day so longMy exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guiltagain around my burdened shouldersa covering for my bowed headToo much yelling, too much angerDid Miss Ann in her Romper Roomever go home at the end of the day and crywhen the mindless prattle and nonsense songsof skipping, bouncing children—small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood—had robbed her mind of studied thoughts?Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises stop?Did June Cleaver ever feel trappedin her obsessively clean black-and-white homeher heavy-breathing panic on the floor next tothe Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustrationwhen the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras?Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day?Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothingand gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longingThe picture of brimming eyes that I love“Why?” mouthed in confusion and horrorstays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic anesthesiaSo my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of usas I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficultyof diagnoses translated into a life livedone foot in front of the otherI do thank God for the blessings that lift me outof the weeping darkness for a momentfor the realization that not every day is spentthrashing and beating against that which I cannot changeand for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a biteasing the pain as I close my eyes and run to restTheresaOn Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote:>> My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him.>> People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > www.target.com and www.amazon.com>> You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read.>> Carolyn>> Re: Author Bio>> Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > process right now. Yours?>> Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > me for so many years. What's your Title?>>>> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 You'll have to share your poem! I'm sure we could all use a giggle! Theresa Mesa Mesa Design House http://mesadesignhouse.com 909-335-9710 Hours: By appointment only On Dec 12, 2006, at 10:09 AM, Carolyn wrote: > > Oh that was fine Theresa, I didn't think of it that way at all. > In fact I really loved your poem, have saved it. When I was reading > it, I was thinking it would have been nice to have had it and I > would have put it in my " forward " pages. > > I admire folks who can write good poetry, have never really > tried it myself, but think it would be fun. There was one poem I > wrote though, I was on a plane flying from L.A. back home to > Oregon, and had just given my life to the Lord on that plane, and I > felt so happy I grabbed a pad of paper and began to write. > > When the plane landed my husband and three kids were there to > get us. My mom and I had taken my disabled son to a Kulman > service in L.A. Well all the way home I read the poem out loud, and > we all laughed like loonies, it was real funny about our trip and > all. I had never been on L.A. freeways before in a taxi cab, it was > really something else! > > Anyway I have ordered 250 copies of my book from the publisher, > should get them Monday UPS, and am going to start taking it around > to bookstores, etc. I am pretty excited to say the least! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 14, 2006 Report Share Posted December 14, 2006 <giggle> Sometimes I say that the Lord and I need to sit down and have a talk about exactly how much I can handle. LOL!!! Theresa Mesa Mesa Design House http://mesadesignhouse.com 909-335-9710 Hours: By appointment only On Dec 13, 2006, at 5:19 AM, d corbin wrote: > > Theresa and , I have to say I was very touched by your poem > and understood what you were saying all too well also. Wonderful > job expressing the feelings! > > , as far as the Lord will not give me more than I can > handle..... I always like to amend that with what my mom says which > is the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, but sometimes > I wish he didn't trust me so much!!!! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 14, 2006 Report Share Posted December 14, 2006 <giggle> Sometimes I say that the Lord and I need to sit down and have a talk about exactly how much I can handle. LOL!!! Theresa Mesa Mesa Design House http://mesadesignhouse.com 909-335-9710 Hours: By appointment only On Dec 13, 2006, at 5:19 AM, d corbin wrote: > > Theresa and , I have to say I was very touched by your poem > and understood what you were saying all too well also. Wonderful > job expressing the feelings! > > , as far as the Lord will not give me more than I can > handle..... I always like to amend that with what my mom says which > is the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, but sometimes > I wish he didn't trust me so much!!!! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2006 Report Share Posted December 15, 2006 Dee Dee I have to say that I feel taht way sometimes mysefl. The other day at church, I was talking to someone about Zachary and she say will God must thinking your really special....., I was thinking to myself," I wish he hadn't thought of me being so special....lol".d corbin <jdcorbin_2000@...> wrote: Theresa and , I have to say I was very touched by your poem and understood what you were saying all too well also. Wonderful job expressing the feelings! , as far as the Lord will not give me more than I can handle..... I always like to amend that with what my mom says which is the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, but sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much!!!! DeeDee mom of Aslynne 16 nt, Elissa AS, ADHD, ODD and bi polar disorder and Tynan 7 PDD nos English <krbenglish > wrote: Hi Theresa, Just want to let you , how beautiful your poem is. It brought me to tears. I think that all who read it will feel the same as you do, I know I do. Everyday I pray to the merciful God, asking him to led me and help understand me sweet son. I understand the screaming part, the please be quite, please Zachary just one minute.........etc. I know it is hard but I tell myself God gave me this child for a reason. Zachary was my angel, my husband and I tried for 7 yrs to have a child. One day I was talking to God and said well I guess its not in your plans for us to have a child so I give up. Little did I know I was 2 wks pregnant with Zachary at the time.lol. I tell myself everyday, God doesn't give us more than we can handle. I know it is sometimes very hard, but with God as our leader we can get past it. God Bess You All, , Oklahoma City,OK.Theresa Mesa <clanmesaearthlink (DOT) net> wrote: I look forward to ordering your book!I thought I'd share a poem I wrote when things were really, really bad with my son that's in line with your title:Copyright Theresa Mesa 2000Long DayI tucked him into bed tonight—a day so longMy exhaustion smothers me as I wind the blanket of guiltagain around my burdened shouldersa covering for my bowed headToo much yelling, too much angerDid Miss Ann in her Romper Roomever go home at the end of the day and crywhen the mindless prattle and nonsense songsof skipping, bouncing children—small children, not boys on the cusp of manhood—had robbed her mind of studied thoughts?Did she ever yell, “Shut up!” and cover her ears to make the noises stop?Did June Cleaver ever feel trappedin her obsessively clean black-and-white homeher heavy-breathing panic on the floor next tothe Wedgewood stove? Did Ward wring out his frustrationwhen the Beav and his TV brother fought behind blind cameras?Did they both worry about the Beaver every minute of the day?Their perfect calm lives of minor crises taught me nothingand gave me a legacy of inadequacy and longingThe picture of brimming eyes that I love“Why?” mouthed in confusion and horrorstays my hand from a fistful of pills, a bottle of alcoholic anesthesiaSo my prayers fly upward for a different tomorrow for all of usas I clutch my Bible to my chest and cry for the difficultyof diagnoses translated into a life livedone foot in front of the otherI do thank God for the blessings that lift me outof the weeping darkness for a momentfor the realization that not every day is spentthrashing and beating against that which I cannot changeand for that moment, the covering of guilt slips a biteasing the pain as I close my eyes and run to restTheresaOn Dec 6, 2006, at 3:19 PM, Carolyn wrote:>> My title is "Why Didn't Anybody Ever Tell Me About This! (subtitle) > A Mother's Search For a Living God" It is about my search for God > when the experts told me my son was hopeless and I needed to take > him to the state mental institution, walk away and forget him.>> People can order it by phone, 1-866-909-2665 or on-line at > www.target.com and www.amazon.com>> You have to go to books and then type in the title, and it will > come up. Let us know when yours is ready for us to read.>> Carolyn>> Re: Author Bio>> Carolyn! You wrote a book too! So did I. It's in the printing > process right now. Yours?>> Mine's called A RADIANT LIFE: Raw Food and the Presence of > Love ... The Presence of Love being your Friend Who has Guided > me for so many years. What's your Title?>>>> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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