hello...new to this group

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My name is Sharin and I have two sons, Robbie, 4 and Jayson, 7.

Robbie has been in special needs preschool for a little over a year

now. I had him tested for speech delay and over the last 2 years

have been going through evaluations to see just how far his delays

go. Right now he does physical, occupational, and speech therapy.

June 12th he will be given an evaluation for autism. His teacher

suggested it although I have been mentioning it for awhile. When I

was pregnant with him I was told there was a high chace he would be

born with downs...I thought everything was ok when he wasn't but I

knew from the begining that things with him were " different. " My

husband just thought it was in my head and even though we are

seeking help it is all from my doing..not his. He feels Robbie is

just spoiled and that is why he acts out the way he does. My

biggest problems, well besides trying to get answers and helping

Robbie, is I blame myself for all of this. I have bipolar disorder

so I start to feel that I did all this to him. I read that children

with bipolar parents are more likely to have problems like

autism..of course I wasnt diagnosed when I had my kids but I wouldnt

change them being in my life for ANYTHING in the world. I also feel

bad for my older son, Jayson. He is just finishing 1st grade and I

feel bad that he can't do some of the things he wants because of my

inability to handle Robbie and the time it takes to handle what I

can. I just don't want him to feel like he is loved less!!!

Sorry to have rambled on but if anyone has any ideas, questions,

anything...please feel free to let me know. Like I said before, I

am kind of new to all this and any advice would help!

Thank you Sharin