My Doctors visit today

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Hi Laurie, I am sorry to hear about your health right now. I don't want to come across as mean or insensitive, but, I was just wondering why in your signature line do you have all your symptoms listed? It almost seems like you are equating every ache, pain, and feeling badly to HEPc. It is almost like you are trying to remind yourself that you have this thing, and keep it going, instead of trying to stay positive and just live life. I mean I got it a different way than you did, I was shooting dope, and sometimes I feel like I deserve feeling like crap. I know the exact day also..But, the strange thing is, is that I shot dope with a HEPc + guy for 4 years and didnt get it from him, after sharing needles and being sexual with him. I got it from some guy in California, that I rigged with one time. Then 6 weeks later practicly to the day, it started, 8 weeks of waterfall diarreia, cramps, sick, dehydration, sick, all with having two young kids at home, and me alone. This was in May of 1993. I found out I had it but never thought about it again until I went to a GI doc for GERD. He asked if I had anything else wrong and I said oh yeah I guess I have HEPc. This was in 97-98. He said no reason to do tx for it, then. My enzymes were fine. I just never really thought about it. Unless I went to a new doc that had that questionerre. My X who found out he was HIV+, got tx because he was stage 3 with 60% of his liver not functioning. He also tested + for HEPb. He tx in 2003 and cleared. That was when I thought well maybe I should look into it too. I went in 2004, started tx in July that year but didnt continue since the sx were so severe. My viral when I stopped was 148K. 2 yrs later it was 4 mill. I started tx again in April this year. I am now at 237K. It has been hard at times. I feel like shit, I sweat, and the boys freeze, I drove 3000 miles, twice in 6 weeks. I hurt at times, I get headaches, I feel sick, I dont want to do anything. But, I really try not to complain about it. I just do what I can. Complaining aint going to make it go away is it? I am almost 48 yrs old. Drank like a freaking fish for years, stopped for 4 yrs, started again, till last year after my mom died. And my liver is fine. Go figure. Did you ever think it may have been from the tx more than from the disease? Most people dont get symptoms like you are saying for 25-30 yrs. I do know that doctors get insentives for using certain drugs, and I have had doctors turn me down for tx. I started blowing up like a balloon a few weeks back. Toxins maybe??? No one could tell me what was going on.. I quit the tx for 2 weeks and guess what I was fine. All my swelling went away, I could think again, I wasnt in pain...I am back on now, because I didnt clear, and I am bound and determined to kill this sucker off. But, my legs are now numbing up again, and I feel like crap. I go to the doctor on the 10th. I want off. I think I was better off without the tx and probably would have lived just as long if I hadnt done it. There are so many out there that have no idea they even have it, and may never know. And they do fine. I think sometimes knowing is worse than not. Then you have nothing to fear...I will pray for you, Geri

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In a message dated 10/4/2006 12:02:09 AM Central Daylight Time, mom4possums2002@... writes:

Laurie,

My heart aches for you. You have all of my prayers. This has been a wake up call for me, none of us ever know how long we may have, so best to live each day the best that we can..

Me, too, Laurie, mentally, I have my arms around you, and I hope and pray that things will go better for you. You sure bring out the grandma in me. I will be prayting for you every night. May God bless you.

Love

Dar

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My Doctor's Visit today Current mood: sad & discouraged

Well today I went to see my Hepatitis C doctor and I am being tested every six months for "CANCER", yes cancer. They haven't ruled out a transplant yet.

I am Stage 2 cirrhosis and my liver isn't functioning as well as he would like it too or as well as it should.

I have cleared the virus, for now but with my being chronic active hepatitis c I possibly "WILL" relapse. (This is my forth relapse and every time I relapse the cirrhosis spreads.

I do however take my last shot in four weeks even though it was to be next Monday but.....

Today this volunteer made the remark, after we discussed my fighting for disability and she says, "Your too young to be disabled"... It was a stab in the heart the way she said that.But I looked at her and said "it's now what I look like on the outside it's how I feel on the inside".

Then when the doctor asked me How do you feel today I broke down and cried because that comment was harsh the way she said it to me.

I am now wanting to do things in my life that I have or have not done because I will never know what tomorrow will bring to me.

Please keep me in prayer.

Do me a favor and look around you, if you are near someone you love hold them close. We never know what tomorrow could bring, look at the 5 little girls in Lancaster Pa that lost their innocent lives and now I could lose mine.

But God has given me another chance at life to make things right and do things I hope to do. Meet people I hope to meet.

Keep the Faith & Prayers, Laurie

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Attached below is a list of how I feel almost daily or what I am going through.

Diagnosis Since 1989: Chronic Active Hepatitis C; Geno Type 1-A

Stage 2 cirrhosis of the liver

Enlarged Spleen

Fatigue

Insomnia

Aching muscles

Joint pain

Sinus problems

Bones ache

Headaches ~ forehead, temples, back of neck, and shoulders

Head Pressure at temples

Dizziness

Spotting

Low Immune system

Sometimes-blurred vision or see small spots

Cramping on right side at Liver; left side at Spleen; neck & shoulders; rear cramping on both right and left when turning; stomach area; fingers.

Memory loss; not being able to remember things “a lot”

Loss of sex drive

Depressed “all the time” even though I am on meds.

Tired all the time

I take naps every day 3-4 times a day for 2-3 hours

Bleeding every so often sometimes-small spots other times like a small hemorrhage

I get nauseated; a lot!

Can’t eat certain foods or they make me sick and sometimes I “do” get sick

Itchy skin ~ Stomach, right wrist, lower legs, below left breast

Under active thyroid

Spasms all over body in different areas

Diarrhea

Shortness of Breath

Dry mouth

TIRED ALL THE TIME!!

NO ENERGY!!

Attention:

By Fall or Winter Comcast Cable will have taken over Adelphia Cable.

Please keep posted on my new email addresses to come.

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Thanks Jax, no, I am not trying to be unkind and would love to help with imformation for others. I guess, it is when I do try to tell people that I am feeling badly, they just kinda ignore me, like, I am lying to them. I look ok at that moment, so, I must be alright. I was just having a bad couple days. Geri

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In a message dated 10/4/2006 12:09:39 AM Central Daylight Time, redjaxjm@... writes:

Honey,

DO NOT let that person's words hurt you,, YOU CAN apply for disabilty,, and because you have cirrhosis, you should be able to qualify..

Your symptoms sound just like most everyone ,, most of us have some if not all of those,, you are not alone!

Call the Social Security office and apply for SSDI.,, you are too sick to work and if you have enough work credits, you can qualify,,

good luck hon

jax

I got SSI back in 95 I think. And I was younger than you then.. But, it was for mental issues more so.. geri

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Laurie, My heart aches for you. You have all of my prayers. This has been a wake up call for me, none of us ever know how long we may have, so best to live each day the best that we can.. Many Blessings, Sheena Hope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepC@...> wrote: My Doctor's Visit today Current mood: sad & discouraged Well today I went to see my Hepatitis C doctor and I am being tested every six months for "CANCER", yes cancer. They haven't ruled out a transplant yet. I am Stage 2 cirrhosis and my liver isn't functioning as well as he would like it too or as well as it should. I have cleared the virus, for now but with my being chronic active hepatitis c I possibly "WILL" relapse.

(This is my forth relapse and every time I relapse the cirrhosis spreads. I do however take my last shot in four weeks even though it was to be next Monday but..... Today this volunteer made the remark, after we discussed my fighting for disability and she says, "Your too young to be disabled"... It was a stab in the heart the way she said that.But I looked at her and said "it's now what I look like on the outside it's how I feel on the inside". Then when the doctor asked me How do you feel today I broke down and cried because that comment was harsh the way she said it to me. I am now wanting to do things in my life that I have or have not done because I will never know what tomorrow will bring to

me. Please keep me in prayer. Do me a favor and look around you, if you are near someone you love hold them close. We never know what tomorrow could bring, look at the 5 little girls in Lancaster Pa that lost their innocent lives and now I could lose mine. But God has given me another chance at life to make things right and do things I hope to do. Meet people I hope to meet. Keep the Faith & Prayers, Laurie Visit: My Blog Space Attached below is a list of how I feel almost daily or what I am going through. Diagnosis Since 1989: Chronic Active Hepatitis C; Geno Type 1-A Stage 2 cirrhosis of the liver Enlarged Spleen Fatigue Insomnia Aching muscles Joint pain Sinus problems Bones ache Headaches ~ forehead, temples, back of neck, and shoulders Head Pressure at temples Dizziness Spotting Low Immune system Sometimes-blurred vision or see small spots Cramping on right side at Liver; left side at Spleen; neck & shoulders; rear cramping on both right and left when turning; stomach area; fingers. Memory loss; not being able to remember things “a lot” Loss of sex drive Depressed “all the time” even though I am on meds. Tired all the time I take naps every day 3-4 times a day for 2-3 hours Bleeding every so often sometimes-small spots other times like a small hemorrhage I get nauseated; a lot! Can’t eat certain foods or they make me sick and sometimes I “do” get sick Itchy skin ~ Stomach, right wrist, lower legs, below left breast Under active thyroid Spasms all over body in different areas Diarrhea Shortness of

Breath Dry mouth TIRED ALL THE TIME!! NO ENERGY!! Attention: By Fall or Winter Comcast Cable will have taken over Adelphia Cable. Please keep posted on my new email addresses to come. www.adelphia.net

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Geri this disease affects everyone differently and just because you had no damage does not mean that someone who has had it even a much shorter time doesnt have MORE damage,, and even those who never drank can have lots of damage,, there is NO perfect timeline for this disease OR its symptoms.. Because Hep affects your immune system,, just about everything IS tied to HEPC.. Docs are starting to see this more and more.. I know you were not trying to be unkind, but it really does affect each person differently and one thing that I didnt know when I was doing tx is that the hep can cause auto-immune problems as can the treatment and those who have say RA or other immune problems can be and ARE affected much harder than those who do not have immune problems... Good luck and I hope you clear this time! jaxus4heavenbound@... wrote: Hi Laurie, I am sorry to hear about your health right now. I don't want to come across as mean or insensitive, but, I was just wondering why in your signature line do you have all your symptoms listed? It almost seems like you are equating every ache, pain, and feeling badly to HEPc. It is almost like you are trying to remind yourself that you have this thing, and keep it going, instead of trying to stay positive and just live life. I mean I got it a different way than you did, I was shooting dope, and sometimes I feel

like I deserve feeling like crap. I know the exact day also..But, the strange thing is, is that I shot dope with a HEPc + guy for 4 years and didnt get it from him, after sharing needles and being sexual with him. I got it from some guy in California, that I rigged with one time. Then 6 weeks later practicly to the day, it started, 8 weeks of waterfall diarreia, cramps, sick, dehydration, sick, all with having two young kids at home, and me alone. This was in May of 1993. I found out I had it but never thought about it again until I went to a GI doc for GERD. He asked if I had anything else wrong and I said oh yeah I guess I have HEPc. This was in 97-98. He said no reason to do tx for it, then. My enzymes were fine. I just never really thought about it. Unless I went to a new doc that had that questionerre. My X who found out he was HIV+, got tx because he was stage 3 with 60% of his liver not

functioning. He also tested + for HEPb. He tx in 2003 and cleared. That was when I thought well maybe I should look into it too. I went in 2004, started tx in July that year but didnt continue since the sx were so severe. My viral when I stopped was 148K. 2 yrs later it was 4 mill. I started tx again in April this year. I am now at 237K. It has been hard at times. I feel like shit, I sweat, and the boys freeze, I drove 3000 miles, twice in 6 weeks. I hurt at times, I get headaches, I feel sick, I dont want to do anything. But, I really try not to complain about it. I just do what I can. Complaining aint going to make it go away is it? I am almost 48 yrs old. Drank like a freaking fish for years, stopped for 4 yrs, started again, till last year after my mom died. And my liver is fine. Go figure. Did you ever think it may have been from the tx more than

from the disease? Most people dont get symptoms like you are saying for 25-30 yrs. I do know that doctors get insentives for using certain drugs, and I have had doctors turn me down for tx. I started blowing up like a balloon a few weeks back. Toxins maybe??? No one could tell me what was going on.. I quit the tx for 2 weeks and guess what I was fine. All my swelling went away, I could think again, I wasnt in pain...I am back on now, because I didnt clear, and I am bound and determined to kill this sucker off. But, my legs are now numbing up again, and I feel like crap. I go to the doctor on the 10th. I want off. I think I was better off without the tx and probably would have lived just as long if I hadnt done it. There are so many out there that have no idea they even have it, and may never know. And they do fine. I think sometimes knowing is worse than not. Then you have nothing to

fear...I will pray for you, Geri Jackie

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Honey, DO NOT let that person's words hurt you,, YOU CAN apply for disabilty,, and because you have cirrhosis, you should be able to qualify.. Your symptoms sound just like most everyone ,, most of us have some if not all of those,, you are not alone! Call the Social Security office and apply for SSDI.,, you are too sick to work and if you have enough work credits, you can qualify,, good luck hon jaxHope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepC@...> wrote: My Doctor's Visit today Current mood: sad & discouraged Well today I went to see my Hepatitis C doctor and I am being tested every six months for "CANCER", yes cancer. They haven't ruled out a transplant yet. I am Stage 2 cirrhosis and my liver isn't functioning as well as he would like it too or as well as it should. I have cleared the virus, for now but with my being chronic active hepatitis c I possibly "WILL" relapse. (This is my forth relapse and every time I relapse the cirrhosis spreads. I do however take my last shot in four weeks even though it was to be next Monday but..... Today this volunteer made the remark, after we discussed my fighting for disability and she says, "Your too young to be disabled"... It was a stab in the heart the way she said that.But I looked at her and said "it's now what I look like on the outside it's how I feel on the inside". Then when the doctor asked me How do you feel today I broke down and cried because that comment was harsh the way she said it to me. I am now wanting to do things in my life that I have or have not done because I will never know what tomorrow will bring to me. Please keep me in prayer. Do me a favor and look around you, if you are near someone you love hold them close. We never know what tomorrow could bring, look at the 5 little girls in Lancaster Pa that lost their innocent lives and now I could lose mine. But God has given me another chance at life to make things right and do things I hope to do. Meet people I hope to meet. Keep the Faith & Prayers, Laurie Visit: My Blog Space Attached below is a list of how I feel almost daily or what I am going through. Diagnosis Since 1989: Chronic Active Hepatitis C; Geno Type 1-A Stage 2 cirrhosis of the liver Enlarged

Spleen Fatigue Insomnia Aching muscles Joint pain Sinus problems Bones ache Headaches ~ forehead, temples, back of neck, and

shoulders Head Pressure at temples Dizziness Spotting Low Immune system Sometimes-blurred vision or see small spots Cramping on right side at Liver; left side at Spleen; neck & shoulders; rear cramping on both right and left when turning; stomach area; fingers. Memory loss; not being able to remember things “a lot” Loss of sex drive Depressed “all the time” even though I am on meds. Tired all the time I take naps every day 3-4 times a day for 2-3 hours Bleeding every so often sometimes-small spots other times like a small

hemorrhage I get nauseated; a lot! Can’t eat certain foods or they make me sick and sometimes I “do” get sick Itchy skin ~ Stomach, right wrist, lower legs, below left breast Under active thyroid Spasms all over body in different areas Diarrhea Shortness of Breath Dry mouth TIRED ALL THE TIME!! NO ENERGY!! Attention: By Fall or Winter Comcast Cable will have taken over Adelphia Cable. Please keep posted on my new email addresses to come. www.adelphia.net Jackie

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In a message dated 10/4/2006 8:31:42 PM Central Daylight Time, redjaxjm@... writes:

well if you need it again,, you should apply!

Oh I cant now..too much money????? I got married in 98 and never worked enough to get real SS, just the one for poor folks..and you have to drive a 78 pinto, and live in a shack basicly..geri

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well if you need it again,, you should apply!us4heavenbound@... wrote: In a message dated 10/4/2006 12:09:39 AM Central Daylight Time, redjaxjm writes: Honey, DO NOT let that person's words hurt you,, YOU CAN apply for disabilty,, and because you have cirrhosis, you should be able to

qualify.. Your symptoms sound just like most everyone ,, most of us have some if not all of those,, you are not alone! Call the Social Security office and apply for SSDI.,, you are too sick to work and if you have enough work credits, you can qualify,, good luck hon jax I got SSI back in 95 I think. And I was younger than you then.. But, it was for mental issues more so.. geri Jackie

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honey, I know that,, its awful, I have the same problems with my parents,, they do NOT understand that just because I look alright that I am not sick and just do not have the energy to have to deal with all their issues! I hope you get feeling better soon,, email me off the group if you want to honey,, its ok,, hugs jaxus4heavenbound@... wrote: Thanks Jax, no, I am not trying to be unkind and would love to help with

imformation for others. I guess, it is when I do try to tell people that I am feeling badly, they just kinda ignore me, like, I am lying to them. I look ok at that moment, so, I must be alright. I was just having a bad couple days. Geri Jackie

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You two keep up the hard work! Look to who your

support system can be...they will be there! It

doesn't need to be family...

--- Jackie on <redjaxjm@...> wrote:

> honey, I know that,, its awful, I have the same

> problems with my parents,, they do NOT understand

> that just because I look alright that I am not sick

> and just do not have the energy to have to deal with

> all their issues!

> I hope you get feeling better soon,, email me off

> the group if you want to honey,, its ok,,

> hugs

> jax

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> us4heavenbound@... wrote:

> Thanks Jax, no, I am not trying to be

> unkind and would love to help with imformation for

> others. I guess, it is when I do try to tell people

> that I am feeling badly, they just kinda ignore me,

> like, I am lying to them. I look ok at that moment,

> so, I must be alright. I was just having a bad

> couple days. Geri

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> Jackie

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Geri, I get the same response. I get it from people who are ignorant of this disease, relatives included. I stopped trying to tell them about it long ago. I just don't like the rebuff I get. I know how I feel and what my condition is, even if they don't want to see it. My sons are prime here. THey don't want me to be sick, so they just don't see. It's kind of like that commercial that shows a beat up black and blue face and says that this is what your liver would look like if we could see it. lol You have this group to help and to vent to, at least. SahronJackie on <redjaxjm@...> wrote: honey, I know that,, its awful, I have the same problems with my parents,, they do NOT understand that just because I look alright that I am

not sick and just do not have the energy to have to deal with all their issues! I hope you get feeling better soon,, email me off the group if you want to honey,, its ok,, hugs jaxus4heavenbound@... wrote: Thanks Jax, no, I am not trying to be unkind and would love to help with imformation for others. I guess, it is when I do try to tell people that I am feeling badly, they just kinda ignore me, like, I am lying to them. I look ok at that moment, so, I must be alright. I was just having a bad couple days. Geri Jackie

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Im sorry Geri,, that sucks! Its not that you are married,, its solely based on YOUR work history for SSDI, you have to have so many 'credits' of work history and you have to have paid into it as well... they DO take all your household income for SSI which is different that SSDI... very confusing,, but Im very sorry that you dont have enough work history to qualify,, I was ever so grateful that I did.. I had worked 3 jobs for 20 years when I got so sick on tx that I couldnt work any longer... Good luck hon,, jaxus4heavenbound@... wrote: In a message dated 10/4/2006 8:31:42 PM Central Daylight Time, redjaxjm writes: well if you need it again,, you should apply! Oh I cant now..too much money????? I got married in 98 and never worked enough to get real SS, just the one for poor folks..and you have to drive a 78 pinto, and live in a shack basicly..geri Jackie

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Laurie, my heart is with you. I'm sooo sorry you relapsed. It must be a crushing blow. I relapsed the first round of treatment, but am doing it again. I don't think I have as much damage as you, tho.

I will certainly keep you in my thoughts and prayers. The power of positive prayer can help soooo much. God bless you,

Sharon

My doctors Visit today

Please pray for me

November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus.

Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis.

I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage.

I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy.

May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next.

I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive.

Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another.

Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him.

Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more.

Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me.

Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie

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Laurie, you have my prayers..

God bless and keep you..

Debi in Austin

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SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR DR APPT. WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK WITH YOUR BX AND PRAY FOR THE BEST AND HUBBY'S UNDERSTANDING KATHope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepC@...> wrote: Please pray for

me November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next. I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing

EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie

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Father, I thank you for hearing me and I know that you hear me always. "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from You. (2 Cor. 1:3-4) For you are our God, the one who is worthy of our praise, the one who has done mighty miracles that I, myself have seen. (Deut. 10-21) Father, we thank You for sending Jesus to be our intercessor and the Holy Spirit to be our comforter so that all believers would have ongoing immediate access to our Father via the Holy Spirit. Father, we come to you tonight asking you to be with our Sister, Laurie in her time of need. Romans 8:34 - says that "Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us." We pray that You will surround Laurie

with your love and be with her in this time of need. You know her heart and her needs, Lord and you are the giver of miracles. We ask that you carry Laurie through these trials and help her to come through them according to Your will. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen Hope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepC@...> wrote: Please pray for me November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week

of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next. I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie

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Hi Laurie, Sorry to hear the news and you are in my prayers for sure. Finances can be such a stress thats one of my problems now. Husband could lose job and things are a darn mess. I think this is a lonely disease because what you look like and feel like are two different things. My sis was over and she asks how I am and I always say so-so I guess, she says well you look good. Well honey pie looks are deceiving but of course I don't say it lol. If you need to go on tx perhaps one of the companies can supply med for free if you can't afford it. I know Roche does it and I am sure others do also its a thought. Don't mind me just rambling been up since 3:30 this AM. I am starting 3rd week of tx today and while I haven't had any real bad sides I am having some now. I hope all turns out well for you. Hugs, patHope for Hepatitis C

<HopeforHepC@...> wrote: Please pray for me November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next. I need prayer

now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie

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Hello Laurie:

Please do your best to realize that the HCV dargon feeds lustfully on fear. Each new Day that I am Blessed with, I re-commit myself to staying out of my own head = the most dangerous neighborhood to Live in. Try doing it yourself. I understand the anxiety, fears, worrys, disappointment, anger and all else that comes along with being told that you are not undetectable for right now. I have been there (In fact, I am now waiting on the final results of my latest HCV RNA viral load labs that were drawn last Friday. I Pray that I am still SVR- But I also leave the results in God's Care so that I am not consumed by my own thoughts. Your own battle has not been lost. You simply have a temporary setback. STAYTHISCLOSE to all of the rest of us here and wherever else that you can receive Support and Strength from. My Prayers are with you right now as I write this to you and the rest of our Family !!!

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Hugs, Pat. Have a good day. VickieGpatricia <pandas2@...> wrote: Hi Laurie, Sorry to hear the news and you are in my prayers for sure. Finances can be such a stress thats one of my problems now. Husband could lose job and things are a darn mess. I think this is a lonely disease because what you look like and feel like are two different things. My sis was over and she asks how I am and I always say so-so I guess, she says well you

look good. Well honey pie looks are deceiving but of course I don't say it lol. If you need to go on tx perhaps one of the companies can supply med for free if you can't afford it. I know Roche does it and I am sure others do also its a thought. Don't mind me just rambling been up since 3:30 this AM. I am starting 3rd week of tx today and while I haven't had any real bad sides I am having some now. I hope all turns out well for you. Hugs, patHope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepCverizon (DOT) net> wrote: Please pray for me November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do

next. I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from

me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie

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Hi Vickie hope you also have a nice well evening now. How are you doing? PatVickie Gray <onelildeltagirl@...> wrote: Hugs, Pat. Have a good day. VickieGpatricia <pandas2sbcglobal (DOT) net> wrote: Hi Laurie, Sorry to hear the news and you are in my prayers for sure. Finances can be such a stress

thats one of my problems now. Husband could lose job and things are a darn mess. I think this is a lonely disease because what you look like and feel like are two different things. My sis was over and she asks how I am and I always say so-so I guess, she says well you look good. Well honey pie looks are deceiving but of course I don't say it lol. If you need to go on tx perhaps one of the companies can supply med for free if you can't afford it. I know Roche does it and I am sure others do also its a thought. Don't mind me just rambling been up since 3:30 this AM. I am starting 3rd week of tx today and while I haven't had any real bad sides I am having some now. I hope all turns out well for you. Hugs, patHope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepCverizon (DOT) net> wrote: Please pray for me November I went off treatment because in March 2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our

finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next. I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos.

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Hi, Pat. I'm doing ok. Just had that liver biopsy. Results should be in in about five days I was told. patricia <pandas2@...> wrote: Hi Vickie hope you also have a nice well evening now. How are you doing? PatVickie Gray <onelildeltagirl > wrote: Hugs, Pat. Have a good day. VickieGpatricia

<pandas2sbcglobal (DOT) net> wrote: Hi Laurie, Sorry to hear the news and you are in my prayers for sure. Finances can be such a stress thats one of my problems now. Husband could lose job and things are a darn mess. I think this is a lonely disease because what you look like and feel like are two different things. My sis was over and she asks how I am and I always say so-so I guess, she says well you look good. Well honey pie looks are deceiving but of course I don't say it lol. If you need to go on tx perhaps one of the companies can supply med for free if you can't afford it. I know Roche does it and I am sure others do also its a thought. Don't mind me just rambling been up since 3:30 this AM. I am starting 3rd week of tx today and

while I haven't had any real bad sides I am having some now. I hope all turns out well for you. Hugs, patHope for Hepatitis C <HopeforHepCverizon (DOT) net> wrote: Please pray for me November I went off treatment because in March

2006 I cleared the virus. Today April 17 2007, my virus is back and I have to have a biopsy of my liver done to see if I am late stage 2 early stage 3 cirrhosis. I have been trying to stay positive for myself and my husband because of our finances but now this is another blow to our marriage. I have to get blood work done before Friday this week, then 1st week of May my biopsy. May 16th I go back to see my doctor to determine what to do next. I need prayer now more than ever, I know I always come to you asking but I know what lies ahead with our finances at the point of losing EVERYTHING and I am NOT going to because my GOD is stronger and more to my being

positive. Also I want to be well enough to visit my cousin in Kansas. Joy I am coming one way or another. Well now it's getting Rich (my husband) to understand the next step, can he handle it, NO because it's like anything else to him. Please pray for his understanding that GOD show him what I am going through and that I need him to support me more. Well until next time Journal. I love this because you are here to take my pains and heartaches from me. Love, Peace and many blessings, Laurie Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos.

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Hi Vicky, how did the bioposy go? Haven't had one now I am finding out through group should of had one. I have just had ultra-sounds on liver will ask Mr. Quack MD why I never had one. So maybe I am going through all this for nothing very depressing. Good luck on bx. results. patVickie Gray <onelildeltagirl@...> wrote: Hi, Pat. I'm doing ok. Just had that liver biopsy. Results should be in in about five days I was told. Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos. Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos.

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Hi Vicky, how did the biopsy go? Haven't had one now I am finding out through group should of had one. I have just had ultra-sounds on liver will ask Mr. Quack MD why I never had one. So maybe I am going through all this for nothing very depressing. Good luck on bx. results. patVickie Gray <onelildeltagirl@...> wrote: Hi, Pat. I'm doing ok. Just had that liver biopsy. Results should be in in about five days I was told. Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos. Ahhh...imagining that irresistible "new car" smell?Check out new cars at Autos.