What happened last night

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Hi ladies,

I just have a short while online this morning but will be back tonight to go

through messages. I wanted to write what happened last night while having a

conversation with my son about school.

Yesterday, he woke up and said he was very sick. He ran to the bathroom a few

times so I called the school and told them he'd be staying home. During the day

he seemed to be fine. Then at bedtime while tucking him in, I asked him if he

pretended to be sick today. He just put his head down and sort of sulked. I

asked him what was going on at school that he didn't want to go. He yelled and

cried that he hated swimming lessons and that he was terrified of sinking. The

entire conversation he was " blinking " a LOT. It looks intentional.. not normal

blinking like we do everyday. He squeezes his eye shut and blinks about 4 or 5

times like there's something in his eye or a habit forming thing. Obviously this

is caused by stress mostly. He does it at school a lot as well.

Anyway, we were having a good talk about how he doesn't need to be frightened

and he seemed fine but when I went to leave he cried out " mom " and continued to

freak out about swimming lessons. I tried to assure him all would be okay and he

would eventually enjoy the lessons and he screamed, " MOM you just don't

understand. " and started to get very angry so I told him I would talk to his

teachers about it and assured him I wouldn't make him do anything he didn't want

to do. I don't know what to do.

He spit a few times " in his shirt " and wiped his mouth clean and when I asked

him to stop spitting he got very defensive and said he couldn't help it. Then he

hit himself in the head saying he hated his brain. " I have a dumb brain " were

his comments.

This was very disturbing to me. Nobody has EVER told him he was dumb, if

anything we praise him on how smart he is. I have heard him say how he hates his

brain before while getting frustrated with school work... the fact it's not

going away after talking about it with him... it just seems to be getting worse.

It frightens me. Obviously he's aware that it's something he " can not " control.

I will be looking for a doctor to find out what is going on with him.

Any thoughts on this would be appreciated. I'll be back tonight to read through

the dozen or so emails I've received. lol You ladies are great.

Thanks,