I'm fresh off of moderation, was Re: hi everyone

[Guest guest]

Dear Lorna Wynn, I'm fresh off of moderation so i feel like i just got

out of the cold . It's no fun being moderated on a discussion board

because then your posts don't go through a majority of the time. Are

you the offspring sister of that great author Lorna Wing? . I ask

that humorously because the almost paralell names of Lorna Wing and

Lorna Wynn are interesting to me. I feel as much in need of help as you

are on these boards. I haven't been doing all that well lately as of

late ever since i got back from my moms house over the weekend, i'm all

bruised up from that experience (long story ask if interested). Time

permitting i have the ability to talk about just about anything on

these boards without feeling like there's a grim reaper over my head

with a scythe in his hands.

That's honestly how it feels most of the time which is the reason why i

suppress most of my thoughts nowadays and don't really say what i want

to in fear of getting struck down again. I really don't have as much

trust as i used to in these forums as i used to before i was moderated.

I felt alot more secure before i knew that my every word and action

would be put to the test. It's kind of like stretching a rubber band

you can stretch it and stretch it all you want but only goes so far

before it snaps and flies back in your face again.

Which is why there is good reason to be cautious with your words on

these boards, do not say anything outright that could stir the zombies

and goblins from their resting places that they begin to do evil

biddings time and time again. It is an unrestful place for unrestful

minds and yet people find comfort here and i don't know why. People

find solitude in a place like this because they feel that it brings

them comfort away from all things that would do harm to them. It is a

runaway from all things that would diminish our thoughts from what is

real and what is not.

To many it is like a resting place much like an inn where you spend the

night but to me it has never felt that way. To me it has felt like a

hospital,it has felt no different than my experience at Havenwyck

hospital which was the most inhospitable place i had ever been to. I

have no intention to hurt anyone i simply mean to say that i have found

no sense of solitude in a place where we are convicted all the time and

in such a place of strict rules and regulations yet others go

unpunished.

I only pray for the day that things will lighten up and shine some

light into the darkness of this shadow land that has been created for

all of us who have aspergers syndrome who suffer so solemnly every day

and yet mourn for the day that we can finally find some friends and yet

we have no other way to find them except through these boards.

It's a sad way of life, it's as bad as the life of an alcoholic,always

trying to stay sober, always trying to avoid touching that terrible

drink that has brought them so many miseries, that they may have felt

may have washed their troubles away when in reality it has only brought

them more grief. Life is supposed to be lived to the fullest and i

intend to do so myself i just wish there was an easier way around

things instead of having to take the hard road all the time. I hope to

hear from you soon,good luck in all you do. I'll be here for you

through thick and thin Lorna that's if i'm not put back on moderation

from this post .

Signed,

Greg

> im back and ive been gone for 3 weeks to oregon. I am going to take

> alot of my groups off to focus on this group. anyway how is everyone.

> Im feeling soso at the moment. I go through weird emotions soemtimes

> lol. Dont know if you all can relate. I am coming back to give you

all

> support and getting it myself cause I feel I need it . Anyway hope

you

> guys are doing good. Lorna