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I would look at the abilify.

It can cause psychosis.

Tell your dr you want him to try something else because obviously it isn't working.

What else is he on?

Will pray for your situation.

Elaine

Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

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I would look at the abilify.

It can cause psychosis.

Tell your dr you want him to try something else because obviously it isn't working.

What else is he on?

Will pray for your situation.

Elaine

Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

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honey, none of us would bash you. We of all people understand. Are you sure that the Abilify is not causing

the problem? Abilify made Karac so aggressive that we had to hospitalize him for several weeks. Anyway I

am so sorry and I prayed for you both this morning. Love and blessings, Pat K

Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,

I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore.

Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here.

The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention.

I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me?

I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.

It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right.

I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.

Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

honey, none of us would bash you. We of all people understand. Are you sure that the Abilify is not causing

the problem? Abilify made Karac so aggressive that we had to hospitalize him for several weeks. Anyway I

am so sorry and I prayed for you both this morning. Love and blessings, Pat K

Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,

I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore.

Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here.

The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention.

I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me?

I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.

It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right.

I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.

Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

((((())))

I don't know what else to say but I will pray for you and your son.

Sharon

From: W <mlwpdb@...>Subject: Very frustrated and very long...autism Date: Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 9:11 AM

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to

Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will

live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

- I would NEVER accuse a parent of giving up on their child; believe me I've been there (but fortunately for me - not as bad). I do know how I felt and I am so sorry you have to go through this. I know I said before if all the professionals (from doctors, social workers, etc.) EVER had to go through what some of us have had to go through - they would never make it. I don't think sending a child to residential or whatever you chose to do is giving up on him - I think it is important that you do what you "need" to do to make your life and Ricky's better. Some children may never see residential, but for others that may be their only chance.

I don't know what to offer to help, but I do know what we ended up doing with Maddie - we started messing with meds and I demanded the doctor go to the extreme with Maddie. When we first started he wanted to go up like 2.5 mg. at a time and wait a month before raising again - at this point I was so desparate for help I said NO - you need to go to the extreme and we will back off, but she has to stop hurting herself and me. I threatened (half jokingly) if I couldn't get her under control I would be leaving Maddie with him and good luck with that. He did then go to extremely high and we were able to get some relief. She did have a drugged effect, but we are working backwards now and so far so good. He said we will keep going backwards till we start seeing the behavior back again and I'm to call immediately and we will return to the last dose we were at. I think we are probably at the dost we will be staying -

she is alert and happy, but you can tell she is able to control the rage issues.

I will continue to pray for you and your son - I know it is hard (especially being by yourself).

Rhonda

From: W <mlwpdb (DOT) com>Subject: Very frustrated and very long...AutismBehaviorProbl emsgroups (DOT) comDate: Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 9:11 AM

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to

Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will

live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

He is on 150mg of Lamictal as well. Thanks Elaine.

[Guest guest]

Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.

[Guest guest]

Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.

[Guest guest]

Why is he on lamictal? Seizures?

Lamictal AND abilify were two bad meds for my daughter.

She developed extreme anxities on lamictal. And I mean extreme. She was basically housebound.

She had became more psychotic on abilify.

Elaine

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He is on 150mg of Lamictal as well. Thanks Elaine.

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Honestly, if he has a diagnoses, why can't it be the same thing? It is NOT *just* a behavior problem.

Have you talked to his dr?

Does he have a psych dr?

Elaine

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Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.

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Thanks Rhonda. Do you or anyone here know what the highest dose of Abilify would be to start at and then work backwards? What about the Lamictal? He is on a total of 10mg of Abilify a day and 150mg of Lamictal.

[Guest guest]

I don't know. I was told, like I don't already know this, that ASD is a lifelong problem that I just need to learn to deal with. And that he will probably always going to do this.

I haven't been able to get ahold of anyone at the psych dr. office. I will keep making calls. His case worker called me earlier, but I missed her call. something has to be done.

[Guest guest]

The doctor put him on Lamictal because she said it helps with aggresion. I just don't know what to do right now.

[Guest guest]

Thanks Sharon.

[Guest guest]

Thanks Sharon.

[Guest guest]

Malissa,

I don't have much info to help you but just know Im here if you want to chat.....

Lesley...

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Thanks Sharon.

[Guest guest]

Malissa,

I don't have much info to help you but just know Im here if you want to chat.....

Lesley...

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Thanks Sharon.

[Guest guest]

, I am praying for you over here in my neck of the woods. I wish I could offer words of wisdom, and no, it doesn't sound like you are abandoning your child. I'm having issues with Adderall over here. Have peace in knowing you are covering all basis and that you are trying to make responsible choices given the circumstances. People who are not in our shoes do not understand and make silly assumptions or conclusions without having a clue as how to even conceptualize walking in our shoes.

I'm praying for you and Ricky,

>> Hi all,> > I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. > > Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. > > The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. > > I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? > > I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.> > It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. > > I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.> > Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.> > >

[Guest guest]

, I am praying for you over here in my neck of the woods. I wish I could offer words of wisdom, and no, it doesn't sound like you are abandoning your child. I'm having issues with Adderall over here. Have peace in knowing you are covering all basis and that you are trying to make responsible choices given the circumstances. People who are not in our shoes do not understand and make silly assumptions or conclusions without having a clue as how to even conceptualize walking in our shoes.

I'm praying for you and Ricky,

>> Hi all,> > I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. > > Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. > > The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. > > I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? > > I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.> > It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. > > I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.> > Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.> > >

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It's a behavior problem caused by a psy. problem!! Pat K

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Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.

[Guest guest]

It's a behavior problem caused by a psy. problem!! Pat K

Re: Very frustrated and very long...

Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry. I know you have tried everything. I agree though that a residential home FOR NOW is what he needs. They will teach him how to deal with his feelings and his aggression. They are trained to do that. Then they can teach you how to deal with him. Anyone who judges you hasn't been in your shoes. No one thinks you are a bad mother. It's hard dealing with an autistic child who has behavioral problems. Unfortunately no one knows that unless they have to deal with one. I wish I was by you I would give you a huge hug and cry with you.

pray about what you should do. Ask God to show you what's best for Ricky and you. God will help you get through this rough time.

You also need to take care of yourself. You need to see a social worker where you can tell them what your going through and they can help you.

I hope no one bashes you or anyone else. We need to support each other. Each person is going through there own issues with their child. Remember we love you and we are praying for you.

Gwen

autism From: mlwpdb@...Date: Tue, 22 Sep 2009 14:11:51 +0000Subject: Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry. I know you have tried everything. I agree though that a residential home FOR NOW is what he needs. They will teach him how to deal with his feelings and his aggression. They are trained to do that. Then they can teach you how to deal with him. Anyone who judges you hasn't been in your shoes. No one thinks you are a bad mother. It's hard dealing with an autistic child who has behavioral problems. Unfortunately no one knows that unless they have to deal with one. I wish I was by you I would give you a huge hug and cry with you.

pray about what you should do. Ask God to show you what's best for Ricky and you. God will help you get through this rough time.

You also need to take care of yourself. You need to see a social worker where you can tell them what your going through and they can help you.

I hope no one bashes you or anyone else. We need to support each other. Each person is going through there own issues with their child. Remember we love you and we are praying for you.

Gwen

autism From: mlwpdb@...Date: Tue, 22 Sep 2009 14:11:51 +0000Subject: Very frustrated and very long...

Hi all,I have been very behind with the group messages because of issues with Ricky. He is, for the third time, in Rescue adjusting meds. His Abilify was increased to 5mg in am and 5mg in pm. There doesn't seem to be any other help for us anymore. Ricky went off on me and my apartment on Sunday night, all because I wouldn't buy him a cell phone for his birthday, which is today. He is 12 today. I am so sad that he isn't here. The ER wouldn't help much, other than say that he doesn't need to take up a room when he should be in jail. Juvenile detention would only book him and send him home. However, the ER told me that if I left the hospital with him, they would call the police on me, because he isn't safe. THe Childen's hospital refused to admit him because they think this is all behavioral. SO, he goes to Rescue yet again. And they even had said that if he comes back because he hit, kicked me again, they would pink slip him to Juvenile detention. I am so beyond frustrated!! What do I do when no one seems to want to help me? I am worried that all these providers and case workers are going to look bad at me for not knowing how to handle my Autistic child. I am worried that Children's Services will open a case to investigate why I am not capable, or that his bio dad will take me back to court regarding custody. I know I will be getting treated horribly by Ricky's dad, and both my mom and his father's mother. Even though I have all the documentation to back me up, but I am afraid it won't be enough.It seems like the only option may be residential. I know I read a few posts not long ago about residential. Please forgive me for not remembering who it was regarding. I feel like I am at my last straw. His counselor released him from her services because he tells her what she wants to hear, but doesn't do what he knows is right. I am not saying he will live in residential forever, just enough to get some round the clock help. Now, before anyone bashes me for "giving up on my child", stop and delete this message and move on. I have tried everything that I know to do and his caseworkers have told me to do. I am not giving up on my child, abandoning him, etc. I am trying to help him and I can't do that in my home right now. I have no one to take him in their home. His bio dad can't have unsupervised visitation right now. So, living with dad again isn't an option. My mom can't handle him either.Thanks for letting me vent. Please don't bash me or put me down. I am very fragile with my feelings right now. Believe me, I am not just throwing my kid away. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to do in my life. I am heartbroken.

[Guest guest]

: I know you said that Ricky was on risperdal and you had to take him off because of the weight gain. I totally understand that because I was about to take Caleb off for that same reason. How did Ricky do on the Risperdal? Is there anything they could give him to counteract the weight gain? Caleb is on ADHD meds also so that helped with his weight gain. I know wellbutrin is suppose to control your appetite but I don't know at what age you can begin taking it. There has to be other meds out there to help Ricky.

autism From: pkuenstler@...Date: Tue, 22 Sep 2009 12:57:30 -0400Subject: Re: Very frustrated and very long...

It's a behavior problem caused by a psy. problem!! Pat K Re: Very frustrated and very long...

Pat,

At first the Abilify seemed to work. For about a month, it was great. Now, life is hell. We have tried so many medications, I don't know where to begin. The problem is, the Toledo Hospital kids psych unit refused to admit him because this is a behavior problem, not a psych problem. That makes me angry.

Thanks, Pat.