Guest guest Posted January 27, 2009 Report Share Posted January 27, 2009 What someone said about "Its them, not me" struck a chord with me . . . I am realizing that I don't think I loved Matt, I was just lonely, but with the current situation I am in . . . Its a heartache that will never go away, and I will ALWAYS love , no matter who I am with, and even tho I am getting married to someone that's wonderful, that part of me still hurts, It always will. We were sposed to be together forever . . . but now I have that chance with myt fiance, and I AM NOT letting him slip thru my fingers as I did . I know there are times when I push my fiance away, and that is becuz of fear . . . a fear I am not ready to explain just yet. All of it having to do with my past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2009 Report Share Posted January 27, 2009 You said it your self that you love him but the more telling words are the ones you did not say which are that you are in love with him. I know from life once you can realize that the pain will go away. I loved someone and when he was injured beyond repair it took me four years to truely become to a point where I could be in love with someone else. That someone else has now been my husband for almost 40 years now. So hang in From: thebearfamily88 <TheBearFamily88@...>Subject: Struck a chord with meabusesurvivorswithdisabilities , , Bipolar_Christians , childsurvivors Date: Tuesday, January 27, 2009, 2:01 AM What someone said about "Its them, not me" struck a chord with me . . . I am realizing that I don't think I loved Matt, I was just lonely, but with the current situation I am in . . . Its a heartache that will never go away, and I will ALWAYS love , no matter who I am with, and even tho I am getting married to someone that's wonderful, that part of me still hurts, It always will. We were sposed to be together forever . . . but now I have that chance with myt fiance, and I AM NOT letting him slip thru my fingers as I did . I know there are times when I push my fiance away, and that is becuz of fear . . . a fear I am not ready to explain just yet. All of it having to do with my past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2009 Report Share Posted January 27, 2009 You said it your self that you love him but the more telling words are the ones you did not say which are that you are in love with him. I know from life once you can realize that the pain will go away. I loved someone and when he was injured beyond repair it took me four years to truely become to a point where I could be in love with someone else. That someone else has now been my husband for almost 40 years now. So hang in From: thebearfamily88 <TheBearFamily88@...>Subject: Struck a chord with meabusesurvivorswithdisabilities , , Bipolar_Christians , childsurvivors Date: Tuesday, January 27, 2009, 2:01 AM What someone said about "Its them, not me" struck a chord with me . . . I am realizing that I don't think I loved Matt, I was just lonely, but with the current situation I am in . . . Its a heartache that will never go away, and I will ALWAYS love , no matter who I am with, and even tho I am getting married to someone that's wonderful, that part of me still hurts, It always will. We were sposed to be together forever . . . but now I have that chance with myt fiance, and I AM NOT letting him slip thru my fingers as I did . I know there are times when I push my fiance away, and that is becuz of fear . . . a fear I am not ready to explain just yet. All of it having to do with my past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2009 Report Share Posted January 27, 2009 Well, that too (the in-love part). I will always feel that way. I just don't think to say these things. But I am in a different place now than I was 6 yrs ago, and I fell head over heels in love with my fiance, and actually ppl suspected that it was bound to happen between us. I'm glad it did. But theres that other part of me, of the ex, that I have to get past, and I know it will be difficult. He broke my heart severely when he broke up with me, for more than o0ne reason. -- Struck a chord with meabusesurvivorswithdisabilities , , Bipolar_Christians , childsurvivors Date: Tuesday, January 27, 2009, 2:01 AM What someone said about "Its them, not me" struck a chord with me . . . I am realizing that I don't think I loved Matt, I was just lonely, but with the current situation I am in . . . Its a heartache that will never go away, and I will ALWAYS love , no matter who I am with, and even tho I am getting married to someone that's wonderful, that part of me still hurts, It always will. We were sposed to be together forever . . . but now I have that chance with myt fiance, and I AM NOT letting him slip thru my fingers as I did . I know there are times when I push my fiance away, and that is becuz of fear . . . a fear I am not ready to explain just yet. All of it having to do with my past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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