Violent Thoughts -Kathy(was- Re: Friend obsession)

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Aww, thanks Kathy!

You always have a WONDERFUL way of putting yourself in the child's

shoes. I don't 'get' OCD as well as you do. Your explanation that

may be transporting himself back before OCD started was...

well... perfect. I can't think of a better explanation!

I'm not doing too well today with 's OCD. He woke up this

morning (low on meds) and came to me TERRIFIED and whispered: " I'm

having bad thoughts. " The way he said it gave me goosebumps because

he sounded like someone else. When I asked him " What's OCD telling

you this morning? " he said VERY SERIOUSLY, " It wants me to kill my

brother.... should I? " *cringe* I was shell-shocked for a minute

and had my OWN OCD paranoid thought: *gasp* My kid is gonna be on

the evening news!!!

After I calmed down, we talked about Violent Thoughts as being part

of OCD and how it plays tricks on your mind. He didn't believe me

and said, so sadly, " I hate OCD. It makes me feel like a dork! I'm

all alone. No one has thoughts like these. "

So! To prove that he's indeed, NOT ALONE, I signed on and let him

read a few exerpts from the OCDTeen list. I searched for 'Violent

Thoughts' and proved to him that he's not the only person that OCD

lies to and plays tricks on. He started to feel alot better...

Whew. The only thing I can figure out that caused this NEW symptom

to occur is 1) he was low on meds this morning, but he's ALWAYS low

on meds in the a.m. or 2) his older brother, , got alot of

attention yesterday because it was his 20th birthday. We took him

out to eat, came with us, and friends and family members sat

around the table discussing on the day he was born, cute stories

about when he was a toddler, etc... wasn't the center of

attention-- like he usually is-- and he didn't like that very much.

He was crabby everytime someone paid more attn. to his brother.

Now, of course...THIS MORNING... he want's to kill him. Or, errr...

OCD wants to kill him! And, it really scared .

Sometimes, it seems so contrived-- for attention. Or, maybe it just

escalates from 'I hate my brother' to 'I need to kill him.' I don't

know.... I don't understand OCD and I just wish it would leave my son

ALONE. *sigh* What now? Should I expose him to serial killers at

the state pen? (kidding)

Thanks, Kathy.

Joni

@y..., " Kathy " <klr@s...> wrote:

> Joni, this is heart-tugging and something Kel did as well several

months

> after OCD hit. She began romanticizing her life, friends, etc.

before

> OCD--also wishing she hadn't grown up, that she was still three or

four and

> in preschool, before OCD made everything, including her friendships,

> difficult and unrewarding. She seemed to want to transport herself

back in

> time to the people and places she enjoyed before OCD, to get away

from it I

> think. She also pushed hard to contact the old friends, and even

had a few

> playdates with these kids--which were disappointing all in all.

may

> also be thinking that if he gets back with friends he had before

OCD, things

> can be the way they were before he had to contend with the

disorder.

> and Kel are still young enough to have this sort of magical

thinking, and

> think a return to another place or time will get rid of the OCD.

may

> even half-believe that OCD is " in " the new neighborhood, and not in

the old.

>

> This type of thinking faded as Kel's OCD receded and she's happy

today with

> her current friends and all the things she can do as a big girl. I

bet his

> obsession with old friends will fade as he improves as well.

>

> Kathy R. in Indiana

>