Bad Day

[Guest guest]

I'm feeling really awful today. I would like to know how the rest of you get through those days when you really feel like you would like to give up. I don't have family left, no friends here either, and I think human contact makes all the difference. Of course, I know that non supportive families are probably worse than none at all. A couple of weeks ago I began treatment called Berg BRT, Body Restoration Technique, which I hoped would help me. It seems to be making me worse, and I am disappointed because it seems that everything I do to try to help myself ends up harming me. Since I began the treatment, I am so dizzy all the time that I am non-functional. I also have frequent spells in which I feel as if I am dropping or falling, and I have a constant left sided

headache. I have Cushing's Disease caused by a pituitary tumor, which I cannot get operated on because of MCS and numerous allergies. I cannot tolerate antibiotics or anesthesia, and I would die during the surgery to remove the tumor. Lots of times, having the pit tumors removed does not help, as they grow right back -- so perhaps that is just as well. The high cortisol caused by the tumor leads to high blood pressure and diabetes. I cannot take blood pressure meds because of MCS. I also have FM. If that were not enough, I was diagnosed with Lyme a few weeks ago. It was almost too much bad news. Because of my MCS and allergies, I cannot be treated with antibiotics for Lyme.

I am rarely well enough to leave my house, and I don't drive often. Today a new maid was supposed to come and help me. I am paying her $25 per hour, which is the going rate here. She stopped to run her own errands on the way to my home, and she was over two hours late getting here. She did not call to let me know. When she finally got here, she had not had lunch and was starving so we went out in her car and I bought her a carry out lunch. After she ate, it was quite late, and she really did not want to do any housework, just look things over. Josie

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