Living with a Negative Person

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I am absolutely better off without the vampire (my

-ex). People that have known me tell me constantly how

different for the better I am without him. I am poor

without him and my money will get even tighter with

the new year. My medical expenses are going to go up

to $500/$600 per month because of changes in Medicare

D coverages. I'll be getting taxes taken out of my

check where it hasn't been before. The tax money that

I have saved up will be eaten up by house repairs due

to the ice storm of 10 days ago that still hasn't

melted completely.

I don't flaunt my illnesses, but I don't feel I have

to hide them either. I just have to be myself,

genuinely, and my illnesses are part of that. I have

to limit certain activities. When I start to get

tired, I have to quit. There are some things I know

that I cannot do. I do believe in eating well and

exercising as much as I can. As it is, I could not

live here without my neighbors. I want to get to a

point where if they move, I can stay here if my health

allows.

I worry about my son who is getting more and more ill

living with my spirit-killing -ex. I talked to him

tonight. He had slept all day until 5pm. At 9:30 when

I called to see why no one had got my message for him

to call me from the answering machine (they were at

home the whole time), he had already taken a sleeping

pill to go to sleep. He calls his dad 'The

Intimidator' when he talks to anyone else about him.

My -ex's greatest wish is to be disabled so he doesn't

have to work anymore. He clears $4000 a month right

now and can't live on it. He's sure not ready to live

on a fraction of that. Unfortunately, my son can not

function in the real world of work or school. He can

only do every other day and he sleeps the whole day in

between. He had a head injury in the first grade which

caused petit mal and now grand mal seizures. He has

bad ADHD and he fights depression. I'm afraid that my

staying for 17 years after my son was born there will

be 3 people with broken health. I believe that the

negativity we lived in CAN produce adverse affects in

a physical body. I am very fortunate that a healer I

know has moved into Tallahassee so can get to

see him. He was like an hour away and Joe just

wouldn't take him. is really excited to see

this man again.

; )

Willow

My Challenges:

Scoliosis, Radiation Injury to my Brain, Ministrokes, Memory Problems, Cluster

Migraine Headaches, Osteoporosis with Multiple Broken Bones, Fibromyalgia,

Chronic Pain and Fatigue, Depression, PTSD, Bipolar Type II Rapid Cycling,

Anxiety, Chronic Insomnia, Sleep Apnea, Spinal Stenosis, TMJ injury, Thyroid

Cancer X3, Skin Cancer, Loss of Salivary Glands due to Thyroid Radiation Tx,

Teeth Destruction with Loss of Salivary Glands, Obesity, Restless Leg Syndrome,

Alpha Wave Intrusion on Delta Sleep plus many other Sleep Anomalies,

vonWillebrand's disease (genetic bleeding disorder), Hypertension, High

Cholesterol and Triglycerides, Chronic Allergies, Asthma, Peripheral Neuropathy,

Chronic Gastritis, GERD, Adult ADD, Overactive Bladder,