Re: Living with a Negative Person

December 10, 2006

Willow,

I believe negativity can affect the physical body too..

I am saddened to hear of what you have and are going through...

XOXHeidi

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Living with a Negative Person

I am absolutely better off without the vampire (my-ex). People that have known me tell me constantly howdifferent for the better I am without him. I am poorwithout him and my money will get even tighter withthe new year. My medical expenses are going to go upto $500/$600 per month because of changes in MedicareD coverages. I'll be getting taxes taken out of mycheck where it hasn't been before. The tax money thatI have saved up will be eaten up by house repairs dueto the ice storm of 10 days ago that still hasn'tmelted completely.I don't flaunt my illnesses, but I don't feel I haveto hide them either. I just have to be myself,genuinely, and my illnesses are part of that. I haveto limit certain activities. When I start to gettired, I have to quit. There are some things I knowthat I cannot do. I do believe in eating well andexercising as much as I can. As it is, I could notlive here without my neighbors. I want to get to apoint where if they move, I can stay here if my healthallows.I worry about my son who is getting more and more illliving with my spirit-killing -ex. I talked to himtonight. He had slept all day until 5pm. At 9:30 whenI called to see why no one had got my message for himto call me from the answering machine (they were athome the whole time), he had already taken a sleepingpill to go to sleep. He calls his dad 'TheIntimidator' when he talks to anyone else about him.My -ex's greatest wish is to be disabled so he doesn'thave to work anymore. He clears $4000 a month rightnow and can't live on it. He's sure not ready to liveon a fraction of that. Unfortunately, my son can notfunction in the real world of work or school. He canonly do every other day and he sleeps the whole day inbetween. He had a head injury in the first grade whichcaused petit mal and now grand mal seizures. He hasbad ADHD and he fights depression. I'm afraid that mystaying for 17 years after my son was born there willbe 3 people with broken health. I believe that thenegativity we lived in CAN produce adverse affects ina physical body. I am very fortunate that a healer Iknow has moved into Tallahassee so can get tosee him. He was like an hour away and Joe justwouldn't take him. is really excited to seethis man again.; )WillowMy Challenges:Scoliosis, Radiation Injury to my Brain, Ministrokes, Memory Problems, Cluster Migraine Headaches, Osteoporosis with Multiple Broken Bones, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain and Fatigue, Depression, PTSD, Bipolar Type II Rapid Cycling, Anxiety, Chronic Insomnia, Sleep Apnea, Spinal Stenosis, TMJ injury, Thyroid Cancer X3, Skin Cancer, Loss of Salivary Glands due to Thyroid Radiation Tx, Teeth Destruction with Loss of Salivary Glands, Obesity, Restless Leg Syndrome, Alpha Wave Intrusion on Delta Sleep plus many other Sleep Anomalies, vonWillebrand's disease (genetic bleeding disorder), Hypertension, High Cholesterol and Triglycerides, Chronic Allergies, Asthma, Peripheral Neuropathy, Chronic Gastritis, GERD, Adult ADD, Overactive Bladder,

December 11, 2006

Dear Willow,

I am so sorry to hear your ex described as "the vampire" and as his own son calls him "the Intimidator" that is very upsetting to me. I am so blessed. I have a wonderful husband who is trying to do the best for me and I have two great very smart and talented wonderful kids who are now grown but still choose to live at home with us. I can't think of anything I want other than a grandchild some day. That and the material things I need due to my physical differences. That includes my mental "illnesses" ie Anxiety, Depression and Bipolar. As you know I have many other "medical" problems ie fibro, asthma allergies, gerd, IBS, sleep apnea, insomnia, etc.....I am on so many meds I can't keep track and have to carry lists of meds around all the time. I know what they look like and what they are for. My poor hubby decided or was told to keep a watch over my meds and how I was taking them, so my pain meds I need now are locked up as if I was a child. yeah I resent that but it is soooo much better than going back to that behavioral health unit. That is the worst I have ever been treated. Not even my pcp doc knows how bad it is I don't think. He never goes down there...... this doesn't mean I don't believe you, I do. It's just very sad to me.

all ways love, all ways Jesus! your sis, age 46 w/fibro asthma allergies etc,bipolar depression anxiety etc.mom of Nick age 24 wonderful adorable young man & pharm techAng age 22 college student doing great but happens to be blessed with this crazy thing called cfwife of , 48, trying to help fix us.(we aren't broken)and Lucy age 4 the dog

Living with a Negative Person

I am absolutely better off without the vampire (my-ex). People that have known me tell me constantly howdifferent for the better I am without him. I am poorwithout him and my money will get even tighter withthe new year. My medical expenses are going to go upto $500/$600 per month because of changes in MedicareD coverages. I'll be getting taxes taken out of mycheck where it hasn't been before. The tax money thatI have saved up will be eaten up by house repairs dueto the ice storm of 10 days ago that still hasn'tmelted completely.I don't flaunt my illnesses, but I don't feel I haveto hide them either. I just have to be myself,genuinely, and my illnesses are part of that. I haveto limit certain activities. When I start to gettired, I have to quit. There are some things I knowthat I cannot do. I do believe in eating well andexercising as much as I can. As it is, I could notlive here without my neighbors. I want to get to apoint where if they move, I can stay here if my healthallows.I worry about my son who is getting more and more illliving with my spirit-killing -ex. I talked to himtonight. He had slept all day until 5pm. At 9:30 whenI called to see why no one had got my message for himto call me from the answering machine (they were athome the whole time), he had already taken a sleepingpill to go to sleep. He calls his dad 'TheIntimidator' when he talks to anyone else about him.My -ex's greatest wish is to be disabled so he doesn'thave to work anymore. He clears $4000 a month rightnow and can't live on it. He's sure not ready to liveon a fraction of that. Unfortunately, my son can notfunction in the real world of work or school. He canonly do every other day and he sleeps the whole day inbetween. He had a head injury in the first grade whichcaused petit mal and now grand mal seizures. He hasbad ADHD and he fights depression. I'm afraid that mystaying for 17 years after my son was born there willbe 3 people with broken health. I believe that thenegativity we lived in CAN produce adverse affects ina physical body. I am very fortunate that a healer Iknow has moved into Tallahassee so can get tosee him. He was like an hour away and Joe justwouldn't take him. is really excited to seethis man again.; )WillowMy Challenges:Scoliosis, Radiation Injury to my Brain, Ministrokes, Memory Problems, Cluster Migraine Headaches, Osteoporosis with Multiple Broken Bones, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain and Fatigue, Depression, PTSD, Bipolar Type II Rapid Cycling, Anxiety, Chronic Insomnia, Sleep Apnea, Spinal Stenosis, TMJ injury, Thyroid Cancer X3, Skin Cancer, Loss of Salivary Glands due to Thyroid Radiation Tx, Teeth Destruction with Loss of Salivary Glands, Obesity, Restless Leg Syndrome, Alpha Wave Intrusion on Delta Sleep plus many other Sleep Anomalies, vonWillebrand's disease (genetic bleeding disorder), Hypertension, High Cholesterol and Triglycerides, Chronic Allergies, Asthma, Peripheral Neuropathy, Chronic Gastritis, GERD, Adult ADD, Overactive Bladder,

January 24, 2007

Dear and All of the List,

Happy New Year! I have missed talking to you more than

you know!

In case anyone didn't read the note I wrote to the

list, my computer died a slow and agonizing death

about the middle of December. I sent out a note that

I'd be getting a new computer in 3 weeks about a week

ago. It arrived the next day. I put the posts in

folders so I could keep up with the new stuff and work

on reading older posts. I wasn't comfortable just

deleting messages from groups like this so I'm working

through them as I can.

As I have read some of the old posts from this list, I

was SO touched by the support that is here for me and

others. It is truly wonderful. Some of you have gone

through some tough times since I was online. I have

said a little little prayers as I have read of them

with sadness for the challenges that your have faced

with such great spirit. It feels really good to be

back in this caring community.

Thanks to each of you for being the gift in my life

that you are.

; )

Willow

--- M <brenda.morey@...> wrote:

> Dear Willow,

> I am so sorry to hear your ex described as " the

> vampire " and as his own son calls him " the

> Intimidator " that is very upsetting to me. I am so

> blessed. I have a wonderful husband who is trying to

> do the best for me and I have two great very smart

> and talented wonderful kids who are now grown but

> still choose to live at home with us. I can't think

> of anything I want other than a grandchild some day.

> That and the material things I need due to my

> physical differences. That includes my mental

> " illnesses " ie Anxiety, Depression and Bipolar. As

> you know I have many other " medical " problems ie

> fibro, asthma allergies, gerd, IBS, sleep apnea,

> insomnia, etc.....I am on so many meds I can't keep

> track and have to carry lists of meds around all the

> time. I know what they look like and what they are

> for. My poor hubby decided or was told to keep a

> watch over my meds and how I was taking them, so my

> pain meds I need now are locked up as if I was a

> child. yeah I resent that but it is soooo much

> better than going back to that behavioral health

> unit. That is the worst I have ever been treated.

> Not even my pcp doc knows how bad it is I don't

> think. He never goes down there...... this doesn't

> mean I don't believe you, I do. It's just very sad

> to me.

>

> all ways love, all ways Jesus! your sis,

> age 46 w/fibro asthma allergies etc,bipolar

> depression anxiety etc.

> mom of Nick age 24 wonderful adorable young man &

> pharm tech

> Ang age 22 college student doing great but happens

> to be blessed with this crazy thing called cf

> wife of , 48, trying to help fix us.

> (we aren't broken)

> and Lucy age 4 the dog

> Living with a Negative Person

>

> I am absolutely better off without the vampire (my

> -ex). People that have known me tell me constantly

> how

> different for the better I am without him. I am

> poor

> without him and my money will get even tighter

> with

> the new year. My medical expenses are going to go

> up

> to $500/$600 per month because of changes in

> Medicare

> D coverages. I'll be getting taxes taken out of my

> check where it hasn't been before. The tax money

> that

> I have saved up will be eaten up by house repairs

> due

> to the ice storm of 10 days ago that still hasn't

> melted completely.

>

> I don't flaunt my illnesses, but I don't feel I

> have

> to hide them either. I just have to be myself,

> genuinely, and my illnesses are part of that. I

> have

> to limit certain activities. When I start to get

> tired, I have to quit. There are some things I

> know

> that I cannot do. I do believe in eating well and

> exercising as much as I can. As it is, I could not

> live here without my neighbors. I want to get to a

> point where if they move, I can stay here if my

> health

> allows.

>

> I worry about my son who is getting more and more

> ill

> living with my spirit-killing -ex. I talked to him

> tonight. He had slept all day until 5pm. At 9:30

> when

> I called to see why no one had got my message for

> him

> to call me from the answering machine (they were

> at

> home the whole time), he had already taken a

> sleeping

> pill to go to sleep. He calls his dad 'The

> Intimidator' when he talks to anyone else about

> him.

> My -ex's greatest wish is to be disabled so he

> doesn't

> have to work anymore. He clears $4000 a month

> right

> now and can't live on it. He's sure not ready to

> live

> on a fraction of that. Unfortunately, my son can

> not

> function in the real world of work or school. He

> can

> only do every other day and he sleeps the whole

> day in

> between. He had a head injury in the first grade

> which

> caused petit mal and now grand mal seizures. He

> has

> bad ADHD and he fights depression. I'm afraid that

> my

> staying for 17 years after my son was born there

> will

> be 3 people with broken health. I believe that the

> negativity we lived in CAN produce adverse affects

> in

> a physical body. I am very fortunate that a healer

> I

> know has moved into Tallahassee so can get

> to

> see him. He was like an hour away and Joe just

> wouldn't take him. is really excited to see

> this man again.

>

> ; )

>

> Willow

>

> My Challenges:

> Scoliosis, Radiation Injury to my Brain,

> Ministrokes, Memory Problems, Cluster Migraine

> Headaches, Osteoporosis with Multiple Broken Bones,

> Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain and Fatigue, Depression,

> PTSD, Bipolar Type II Rapid Cycling, Anxiety,

> Chronic Insomnia, Sleep Apnea, Spinal Stenosis, TMJ

> injury, Thyroid Cancer X3, Skin Cancer, Loss of

> Salivary Glands due to Thyroid Radiation Tx, Teeth

> Destruction with Loss of Salivary Glands, Obesity,

> Restless Leg Syndrome, Alpha Wave Intrusion on Delta

> Sleep plus many other Sleep Anomalies,

> vonWillebrand's disease (genetic bleeding disorder),

> Hypertension, High Cholesterol and Triglycerides,

> Chronic Allergies, Asthma, Peripheral Neuropathy,

> Chronic Gastritis, GERD, Adult ADD, Overactive

> Bladder,

>

My Challenges:

Scoliosis, Radiation Injury to my Brain, Ministrokes, Memory Problems, Cluster

Migraine Headaches, Osteoporosis with Multiple Broken Bones, Fibromyalgia,

Chronic Pain and Fatigue, Depression, PTSD, Bipolar Type II Rapid Cycling,

Anxiety, Chronic Insomnia, Sleep Apnea, Spinal Stenosis, TMJ injury, Thyroid

Cancer X3, Skin Cancer, Loss of Salivary Glands due to Thyroid Radiation Tx,

Teeth Destruction with Loss of Salivary Glands, Obesity, Restless Leg Syndrome,

Alpha Wave Intrusion on Delta Sleep plus many other Sleep Anomalies,

vonWillebrand's disease (genetic bleeding disorder), Hypertension, High

Cholesterol and Triglycerides, Chronic Allergies, Asthma, Peripheral Neuropathy,

Chronic Gastritis, GERD, Adult ADD, Overactive Bladder,

January 24, 2007