feeling sad

January 14, 2006

Angie,

My heartfelt condolences. I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my Father,

suddenly, three months ago. I understand some of what you are going

through.

Hang in there.

Cyber hugs,

~le

>

> hi everyone ..... thought i would let you guys know my grandpa

finally

> passed ..... he held on alot longer than we thought he would..... i

am

> going to be out of town for a couple of days , but have been doing

> great with my work outs and eating , it is getting easier to do this

> and now that he is not suffering anymore i will have to just think

> about him being my gaurdian angel cheering me on ..... God knows he

> would have been so proud of me for doing this , he was such a

> wonderful strong man , always there when i needed him ... well i

hope

> everyone is doing great , and just remember we can all do this

> regardless of what life puts in our paths .......staying positive is

> our only hope ...... Ang

>

January 15, 2006

Hi, Angie...Thanks for keeping us informed of your situtation...You are a strong

woman, and you will make it through this okay...If you ever need to " talk " you

can e-mail me..I lost my sister in Hurricane Katrina, so I understand some of

what you're going through...Beth P.

Angie <shaynsethsmom@...> wrote:

hi everyone ..... thought i would let you guys know my grandpa finally

passed ..... he held on alot longer than we thought he would..... i am

going to be out of town for a couple of days , but have been doing

great with my work outs and eating , it is getting easier to do this

and now that he is not suffering anymore i will have to just think

about him being my gaurdian angel cheering me on ..... God knows he

would have been so proud of me for doing this , he was such a

wonderful strong man , always there when i needed him ... well i hope

everyone is doing great , and just remember we can all do this

regardless of what life puts in our paths .......staying positive is

our only hope ...... Ang

January 16, 2006

Angie,

Hey Kiddo...I'm sorry for your loss, but I think you're right...you've

gained an angel.

Be blessed,

dj

>

> hi everyone ..... thought i would let you guys know my grandpa finally

> passed ..... he held on alot longer than we thought he would..... i am

> going to be out of town for a couple of days , but have been doing

> great with my work outs and eating , it is getting easier to do this

> and now that he is not suffering anymore i will have to just think

> about him being my gaurdian angel cheering me on ..... God knows he

> would have been so proud of me for doing this , he was such a

> wonderful strong man , always there when i needed him ... well i hope

> everyone is doing great , and just remember we can all do this

> regardless of what life puts in our paths .......staying positive is

> our only hope ...... Ang

>

November 16, 2006

Hi Barb,

I found a link for Michigan, I think that's where your from, and see if it will help you out any... They provide help of all kinds and transportation... I'm so sorry that you have to deal with so much... Please check around, there has to be transportation available for you in your town for those that need it...

((( BIG CARING HUGS )))Helen

Hi there!I know that I have not done a good job at keeping up with the group and/or being supportive of everyone, but I just have had a rough two or three weeks.Today I felt like "being sick" was a very judgemental view from other people's perspective. I am so frustrated right now and when I get this way I get kind of "upset" at those around me although there aren't many around me to be upset at.You see, I have told the group before that at one time I had a very good job and life and car and house and husband. My husband (ex) walked out on me very unexpectantly. I lost everything. At about the same time, I became more and more physically ill and emotionally ill that I had to quit my 50 hours a week work and move into a mobile home and have NO car. A lot has happened in my life including losing a brother and his son to suicide about three months apart about 5 years ago. It was hard and still has its moments. I suffer from depression and anxiety, traumatic shock and mood disorders. I do see both a counselor and psychiatrist (for medications). This is just the emotional side of my health. Sometimes I am doing better than others, but right now I am way down in the pit feeling sorry for myself.I have to depend on someone to get me where I want to go and the bus system here is the pits. It takes an hour to go 5 minutes away. I also have problems negotiating the steps right now.I fall a lot and lose my balance a lot, so the bus is a hard thing for me to use. I also seem to not have a problem getting to the place I am going, but a problem catching the right bus that will transfer me to the bus back to my house, because there are only set times and it sucks. Right now I am seeing a new family doctor for a variety of reasons. I have a problem with my memory, falling down, chronic back pain, high blood sugar, thyroid that isn't even registering on testing it is so low, anemia, kidney deficiency and the possibility of Cushing's disease. That is probably just to name a few. I can tell you and you already know this, but people begin to go away when they start hearing a person tell them all these problems or they think you are a hypochondriac despite your doctor telling you otherwise.About today.......I fell back in August and it was a fall that I had fallen before about 3 times. Always landing on my elbow and right arm area. I have had nothing, but continuing problems with this arm. I have addressed it to the doctor three times now and he says that it is on the low end of the list of problems I have and he wants to worry about these other major things first. Well...today I finally went back to him and said that I needed him to address my arm problem. I have gotten to the point that doing normal household chores is impossible. When I do dishes or dusting or laundry or work on this computer or try to do crafts than it flares my arm up and I am in so much pain. This doctor is a new one and I like him ok, but feel sort of like he is one of the judgemental people although he assures me that I have a lot to deal with physically and no wonder I fall and memory and speech problems are going on. Anyway....back to the issue today....I go to CMH for my depression and emotional stuff. Yeah....it is embarrassing to admit I get help there, but my counselor is one of the best. He always pulls a rabbit out of a hat for me and goes to great lengths for me. Today he took me to the doctor and I was suppose to have blood work done at the hospital. My counselor said that they can draw the blood right there in the doctor's office, which they couldn't. I mean he seemed to want to brush me off from having to go to the hospital for blood work, which is understandable. He has a lot of other people to deal with and no time to spare. The doctor was quite upset that I hadn't gotten this blood work done and ask me to please get it done before 10 a.m. in the morning (tomorrow). I need a ride there though. The doctor wants me to get this brace for my arm, but I have to go to a medical supply place to get it. My arm is in such pain and I want to get this brace today to get relief. Again, I need a ride. I have to get my medications filled for the month today or tomorrow, but again I need a ride. The doctor wants to start me in physical therapy 3 times per week and again I need a ride. I had told my counselor that I needed to stop at the store for milk and a couple things, but he didn't have time to take me....again I need a ride. If my counselor cannot take me than he gets someone to drive me. Well....last night I was talking to my dad and he told me that I shouldn't rely so heavily on this counselor and staff, because they were going to get sick of it. My dad lives in Florida and is 86 years old. He says I am burdening people by asking for rides all of the time. So.......today my dad's words affected me. I got so upset, because I have no one else that can or will take me to the doctor or any of the above things. I have had a wonderful Pastor for many years, but I haven't been to church in two years and I think he is giving up on me. If I ask him for a ride he now tells me that his family has to go here or there and he doesn't have time. I guess I must have over burdened him sometime ago.I am so angry tonight at my ex-husband of 14 years for leaving me and leaving me holding the bag on bills and stuff. Oh yeah.....some bill collector got into my account and took every drop of my social security disability money. It took me until yesterday to get it straightened out and all of the bills I paid by check were bouncing left and right. It has been a real mess.I am just not going to do any of the things that I need to and I told my counselor that. I mean he wasn't hearing me today that I need a ride before 10 a.m. in the morning to get my blood work and today I needed to stop at the store and needed to go get fitted for this elbow brace and I HATE having to depend on someone else anyway. This doctor will give up on me if I don't do the things he ask. I don't really know what to do at this point. My counselor says "we will get you there, but then tells me that he has no way of getting me there sometimes." I am so sick of being SICK and having to "burden" other people for help and rides and I just don't know what to do anymore. I am just feeling like giving up. This doctor is very concerned over me, but if I can't go and do the things he ask....he will give up. Yet, my counselor isn't saying they won't do this or that, but I think that he should only do rides for me for things related to my emotional health and that YES I am a burden when I need other rides for other things.I just feel so bad and sorry for myself. I can't even go into an explanation about issues with my (former-sort of) boyfriend who is in alcohol therapy and calling me blaming me for things. That is a whole other story.Thanksgiving is coming and it will just be my dog and cats and I. I know I will get even more depressed thinking about it.I am sorry to BURDEN all of you, but thanks for listening!Barb

"When life's problems seem overwhelming, look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself fortunate."

November 16, 2006

Hi there!

I know that I have not done a good job at keeping up with the group

and/or being supportive of everyone, but I just have had a rough two

or three weeks.

Today I felt like " being sick " was a very judgemental view from other

people's perspective.

I am so frustrated right now and when I get this way I get kind

of " upset " at those around me although there aren't many around me to

be upset at.

You see, I have told the group before that at one time I had a very

good job and life and car and house and husband. My husband (ex)

walked out on me very unexpectantly. I lost everything. At about

the same time, I became more and more physically ill and emotionally

ill that I had to quit my 50 hours a week work and move into a mobile

home and have NO car.

A lot has happened in my life including losing a brother and his son

to suicide about three months apart about 5 years ago. It was hard

and still has its moments. I suffer from depression and anxiety,

traumatic shock and mood disorders. I do see both a counselor and

psychiatrist (for medications). This is just the emotional side of

my health. Sometimes I am doing better than others, but right now I

am way down in the pit feeling sorry for myself.

I have to depend on someone to get me where I want to go and the bus

system here is the pits. It takes an hour to go 5 minutes away. I

also have problems negotiating the steps right now.

I fall a lot and lose my balance a lot, so the bus is a hard thing

for me to use. I also seem to not have a problem getting to the

place I am going, but a problem catching the right bus that will

transfer me to the bus back to my house, because there are only set

times and it sucks.

Right now I am seeing a new family doctor for a variety of reasons.

I have a problem with my memory, falling down, chronic back pain,

high blood sugar, thyroid that isn't even registering on testing it

is so low, anemia, kidney deficiency and the possibility of Cushing's

disease. That is probably just to name a few. I can tell you and

you already know this, but people begin to go away when they start

hearing a person tell them all these problems or they think you are a

hypochondriac despite your doctor telling you otherwise.

About today.......I fell back in August and it was a fall that I had

fallen before about 3 times. Always landing on my elbow and right

arm area. I have had nothing, but continuing problems with this

arm. I have addressed it to the doctor three times now and he says

that it is on the low end of the list of problems I have and he wants

to worry about these other major things first. Well...today I

finally went back to him and said that I needed him to address my arm

problem.

I have gotten to the point that doing normal household chores is

impossible. When I do dishes or dusting or laundry or work on this

computer or try to do crafts than it flares my arm up and I am in so

much pain. This doctor is a new one and I like him ok, but feel sort

of like he is one of the judgemental people although he assures me

that I have a lot to deal with physically and no wonder I fall and

memory and speech problems are going on.

Anyway....back to the issue today....I go to CMH for my depression

and emotional stuff. Yeah....it is embarrassing to admit I get help

there, but my counselor is one of the best. He always pulls a rabbit

out of a hat for me and goes to great lengths for me. Today he took

me to the doctor and I was suppose to have blood work done at the

hospital. My counselor said that they can draw the blood right there

in the doctor's office, which they couldn't. I mean he seemed to

want to brush me off from having to go to the hospital for blood

work, which is understandable. He has a lot of other people to deal

with and no time to spare.

The doctor was quite upset that I hadn't gotten this blood work done

and ask me to please get it done before 10 a.m. in the morning

(tomorrow). I need a ride there though. The doctor wants me to

get this brace for my arm, but I have to go to a medical supply place

to get it. My arm is in such pain and I want to get this brace

today to get relief. Again, I need a ride. I have to get my

medications filled for the month today or tomorrow, but again I need

a ride. The doctor wants to start me in physical therapy 3 times per

week and again I need a ride. I had told my counselor that I needed

to stop at the store for milk and a couple things, but he didn't have

time to take me....again I need a ride. If my counselor cannot take

me than he gets someone to drive me. Well....last night I was

talking to my dad and he told me that I shouldn't rely so heavily on

this counselor and staff, because they were going to get sick of it.

My dad lives in Florida and is 86 years old. He says I am burdening

people by asking for rides all of the time.

So.......today my dad's words affected me. I got so upset, because I

have no one else that can or will take me to the doctor or any of the

above things. I have had a wonderful Pastor for many years, but I

haven't been to church in two years and I think he is giving up on

me. If I ask him for a ride he now tells me that his family has to

go here or there and he doesn't have time. I guess I must have over

burdened him sometime ago.

I am so angry tonight at my ex-husband of 14 years for leaving me and

leaving me holding the bag on bills and stuff. Oh yeah.....some bill

collector got into my account and took every drop of my social

security disability money. It took me until yesterday to get it

straightened out and all of the bills I paid by check were bouncing

left and right. It has been a real mess.

I am just not going to do any of the things that I need to and I told

my counselor that. I mean he wasn't hearing me today that I need a

ride before 10 a.m. in the morning to get my blood work and today I

needed to stop at the store and needed to go get fitted for this

elbow brace and I HATE having to depend on someone else anyway.

This doctor will give up on me if I don't do the things he ask. I

don't really know what to do at this point. My counselor says " we

will get you there, but then tells me that he has no way of getting

me there sometimes. "

I am so sick of being SICK and having to " burden " other people for

help and rides and I just don't know what to do anymore. I am just

feeling like giving up. This doctor is very concerned over me, but

if I can't go and do the things he ask....he will give up. Yet, my

counselor isn't saying they won't do this or that, but I think that

he should only do rides for me for things related to my emotional

health and that YES I am a burden when I need other rides for other

things.

I just feel so bad and sorry for myself. I can't even go into an

explanation about issues with my (former-sort of) boyfriend who is in

alcohol therapy and calling me blaming me for things. That is a

whole other story.

Thanksgiving is coming and it will just be my dog and cats and I. I

know I will get even more depressed thinking about it.

I am sorry to BURDEN all of you, but thanks for listening!

Barb

November 16, 2006

i don't think that you have burdened anybody. atleast any of us, we are here to listen. i wish you had better support closer to you i know how hard it can be to feel alone. i often feel like a burden to others because of my depression. it stems mostly from my sons disease. i hate seeing him sick and i hate seeing his disease progress knowing there is nothing i can do about it. i haven't really posted about what is going on with him lately because i don't want people to think i am whining or i don't want to be a burden so i completely understand where you are coming from. i hope you are feeling better soon and i hope you get the help that you need. i am always here to lend a cyber ear! evelyn Hi there!I know that I have not done a good job at keeping up with the group and/or being supportive of everyone, but I just have had a rough two or three weeks.Today I felt like "being sick" was a very judgemental view from other people's perspective. I am so frustrated right now and when I get this way I get kind of "upset" at those around me although there aren't many around me to be upset at.You see, I have told the group before that at one time I had a very good job and life and car and house and husband. My husband (ex) walked out on me very unexpectantly. I lost everything. At about the same time, I became more and more physically ill and emotionally ill that I

had to quit my 50 hours a week work and move into a mobile home and have NO car. A lot has happened in my life including losing a brother and his son to suicide about three months apart about 5 years ago. It was hard and still has its moments. I suffer from depression and anxiety, traumatic shock and mood disorders. I do see both a counselor and psychiatrist (for medications). This is just the emotional side of my health. Sometimes I am doing better than others, but right now I am way down in the pit feeling sorry for myself.I have to depend on someone to get me where I want to go and the bus system here is the pits. It takes an hour to go 5 minutes away. I also have problems negotiating the steps right now.I fall a lot and lose my balance a lot, so the bus is a hard thing for me to use. I also seem to not have a problem getting to the place I am going, but a problem catching the right bus that will

transfer me to the bus back to my house, because there are only set times and it sucks. Right now I am seeing a new family doctor for a variety of reasons. I have a problem with my memory, falling down, chronic back pain, high blood sugar, thyroid that isn't even registering on testing it is so low, anemia, kidney deficiency and the possibility of Cushing's disease. That is probably just to name a few. I can tell you and you already know this, but people begin to go away when they start hearing a person tell them all these problems or they think you are a hypochondriac despite your doctor telling you otherwise.About today.......I fell back in August and it was a fall that I had fallen before about 3 times. Always landing on my elbow and right arm area. I have had nothing, but continuing problems with this arm. I have addressed it to the doctor three times now and he says that it is on the low end of

the list of problems I have and he wants to worry about these other major things first. Well...today I finally went back to him and said that I needed him to address my arm problem. I have gotten to the point that doing normal household chores is impossible. When I do dishes or dusting or laundry or work on this computer or try to do crafts than it flares my arm up and I am in so much pain. This doctor is a new one and I like him ok, but feel sort of like he is one of the judgemental people although he assures me that I have a lot to deal with physically and no wonder I fall and memory and speech problems are going on. Anyway....back to the issue today....I go to CMH for my depression and emotional stuff. Yeah....it is embarrassing to admit I get help there, but my counselor is one of the best. He always pulls a rabbit out of a hat for me and goes to great lengths for me. Today he took me to the doctor and

I was suppose to have blood work done at the hospital. My counselor said that they can draw the blood right there in the doctor's office, which they couldn't. I mean he seemed to want to brush me off from having to go to the hospital for blood work, which is understandable. He has a lot of other people to deal with and no time to spare. The doctor was quite upset that I hadn't gotten this blood work done and ask me to please get it done before 10 a.m. in the morning (tomorrow). I need a ride there though. The doctor wants me to get this brace for my arm, but I have to go to a medical supply place to get it. My arm is in such pain and I want to get this brace today to get relief. Again, I need a ride. I have to get my medications filled for the month today or tomorrow, but again I need a ride. The doctor wants to start me in physical therapy 3 times per week and again I need a ride. I had told my counselor that I

needed to stop at the store for milk and a couple things, but he didn't have time to take me....again I need a ride. If my counselor cannot take me than he gets someone to drive me. Well....last night I was talking to my dad and he told me that I shouldn't rely so heavily on this counselor and staff, because they were going to get sick of it. My dad lives in Florida and is 86 years old. He says I am burdening people by asking for rides all of the time. So.......today my dad's words affected me. I got so upset, because I have no one else that can or will take me to the doctor or any of the above things. I have had a wonderful Pastor for many years, but I haven't been to church in two years and I think he is giving up on me. If I ask him for a ride he now tells me that his family has to go here or there and he doesn't have time. I guess I must have over burdened him sometime ago.I am so angry tonight at my

ex-husband of 14 years for leaving me and leaving me holding the bag on bills and stuff. Oh yeah.....some bill collector got into my account and took every drop of my social security disability money. It took me until yesterday to get it straightened out and all of the bills I paid by check were bouncing left and right. It has been a real mess.I am just not going to do any of the things that I need to and I told my counselor that. I mean he wasn't hearing me today that I need a ride before 10 a.m. in the morning to get my blood work and today I needed to stop at the store and needed to go get fitted for this elbow brace and I HATE having to depend on someone else anyway. This doctor will give up on me if I don't do the things he ask. I don't really know what to do at this point. My counselor says "we will get you there, but then tells me that he has no way of getting me there sometimes." I am so sick of

being SICK and having to "burden" other people for help and rides and I just don't know what to do anymore. I am just feeling like giving up. This doctor is very concerned over me, but if I can't go and do the things he ask....he will give up. Yet, my counselor isn't saying they won't do this or that, but I think that he should only do rides for me for things related to my emotional health and that YES I am a burden when I need other rides for other things.I just feel so bad and sorry for myself. I can't even go into an explanation about issues with my (former-sort of) boyfriend who is in alcohol therapy and calling me blaming me for things. That is a whole other story.Thanksgiving is coming and it will just be my dog and cats and I. I know I will get even more depressed thinking about it.I am sorry to BURDEN all of you, but thanks for

listening!Barb

Everyone is raving about the all-new beta.

November 16, 2006