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Hi , thanks for your comments.

I use to have panic attacks but worked through that and the issues

that were triggered at those times. Every blue moon or so I may

experience some anxiety and feel overwhelmed and on edge but it is

not the reason I don't go out, as a matter of fact, I love getting

out. What keeps me here is pain, exhaustion, passing out, stupor,

confusion..more so physical illness. I can't drive. I love to drive

my car but the effort takes all I've got. I may get somewhere and

not be able to get back. Also, it's not worth it when I don't have

what it takes to be even partially myself with others.

Today, Sunday, my husband and I usually get together with some

friends. I'm really dragging but i'm going. Not all days are like

this. Some better, some worse. Car rides make the headaches much

worse. Haven't been able to visit my daughters in a year and a half

and trully miss them and they me....am hanging on a hope and a prayer

that they can soon scientifically back up the suspect autoimmune

disorder with proof so that I can be treated and hopefully pull out

from under. I also don't want to die. I can look at these things

but can't dwell on them. Gotta get on with it and do my best.

I really appreciate your response. Anxiety is a bitch ! Dealing

with my issues took time, courage and getting to appreciate and

acknowledge my gifts and my strengths. Then it still took time for

the brain chemistry to change enough to be more at ease and more

responsible for personal growth. We all handle these things

differently. Some people clean till they drop. Some shop and shop.

There's much good to Life never the less. Sounds like you're

doing " you're " best. Good for you !

Later girly,

Hope

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Hi Hope! Your welcome Honey! My heart just REALLY goes out to you in your situation! You are going thru SOOO much yet you keep going! You are an inspiration to me! I am very sick with colitis, today is VERY bad and I have had to take pills 3 times and it's only 10:15 a.m.! But hearing your problems makes mine seem miniscule! I'm sooo glad you were able to overcome your panic attacks! May I please ask how you achieved it?! I had another one last night and had to take 2 pills to stop it and I slept better, and was able to sleep in more than I have in over 2 weeks! Yeah! I'm sooo grateful to God! I'm glad you too love getting out! The weather is nice and sunny today and I've been out all ready in it and love it! So it's your illness and pain that keeps you in! I'm sooo sorry Honey! I am the same, and also severe anxiety/agoraphobia and depression will keep me in. Soo sorry you cant drive! I can maybe but since

I've split with my ex, I can't afford a car: not with 4 kids to help support (that was before, now they are gone but I still dont' have the $ but blessed to live 4 blocks from grocery stores/shops etc I can walk or ride my bicycle to. ) I'm glad you are going out to see friends but soooo sorry you cant' see your daughters! I KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS! I'm going thru empty nest, another reason why my anxiety/panic is soo bad. Vickie my youngest will be back from Italy in 2 weeks but may move out and so I may have to too: another reason why I'm sooo anxious and the colitis is so bad. But I have complete faith in God that something will work out! He has always helped me and I know He will help me and my kids! I pray that your drs CAN get proof so you CAN get the right treatment and that you live long and are able to see you daughters and feel MUCH better! You sooo deserve it! I understand not being able to dwell on stuff: I cant' either: my eldest son isn't speaking to me

now and it COULD break my heart if I let it but I WON'T! I'M A SURVIVOR AND MY OTHER KIDS NEED ME! I also cant' dwell on the fact that I may have no job and nowhere to live! But again! I have faith that God will help! Yes, thank you! I'm doing my best/what I can. I do enjoy a lot of things between work/housework/doing for others: computer games: especially the Sims and Hoyle board games which have human voices which help me when I'm lonely/anxious or depressed: dvd's I've really been into sitcoms: 3rd rock: laughter IS the best medicine! LOL! it also helps the anxiety and lonliness and listening to music, reading and when I'm able: exercise/dancing. I do sooo hope that things get MUCH better for you Hope! Hang in there Honey! I'm here for you if you need me! I'm an apt mgr and I get paid this week and have to shop, pay bills, then do rents, I have a vacancy end of next week and then Vickie comes home so I'll be busy on and off but will be online some. (((((((( Hugs!

)))))) have a great day! Love, Dekoker. xooxoxo zizzcat8claw <zizzcat8claw@...> wrote: Hi , thanks for your comments.I use to have panic attacks but worked through that and the issues that were triggered at those times. Every blue moon or so I may experience some anxiety and feel overwhelmed and on edge but it is not the reason I don't go out, as a matter of fact, I love getting out. What keeps me here is pain, exhaustion, passing out, stupor, confusion..more so physical illness. I can't drive. I love to drive my car but the effort takes all I've got. I may get somewhere and not be able to get back. Also, it's not worth it when I don't have what it takes to be even partially myself with others.Today, Sunday, my husband and I usually get together with some

friends. I'm really dragging but i'm going. Not all days are like this. Some better, some worse. Car rides make the headaches much worse. Haven't been able to visit my daughters in a year and a half and trully miss them and they me....am hanging on a hope and a prayer that they can soon scientifically back up the suspect autoimmune disorder with proof so that I can be treated and hopefully pull out from under. I also don't want to die. I can look at these things but can't dwell on them. Gotta get on with it and do my best.I really appreciate your response. Anxiety is a bitch ! Dealing with my issues took time, courage and getting to appreciate and acknowledge my gifts and my strengths. Then it still took time for the brain chemistry to change enough to be more at ease and more responsible for personal growth. We all handle these things differently. Some people clean till they drop. Some shop and shop.There's much

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