Re: FW: Hi I'm new (Kimmi)

[Guest guest]

hi kimmi,

my name is evelyn. i have three children. evelyn is nine, gabe is six and has cysticfibrosis and asthma and emma is eleven months old. it was nice to hear from someone new. feel free to email me anytime.

evelyn Management <@...> wrote:

Hi all! I added my profile just now but will tell you a little about me & my "life". My name is Kim but I go by Kimmi in my support groups (since there seems to always be more than one Kim or ).

I am 45 years old & have "invisible injuiries" which sure seems to make life hard, as I sure many here know already:*( Prior to March 2000 I was a perfectly healthy, happy, active, working mother of two beautiful teenagers & one 3 year old grandson. Oh how quickly things can change right:*(

I was involved in a car accident (passenger) in March 2000. We were sitting at a red light, waiting to turn left, and were rear ended by a vehicle going 35 mph...he never even hit the brakes. That accident severed my lumbar completely. It was determined during testing that I have Degenerative Disc Disease & my lumbar had been whittling away for years. I had back surgery August 8, 2000; in which they took a hunk of my right hip bone & used it to rebuild my lumbar (biggest mistake thusfar I believe!). I was released (to go home & be on STRICT bedrest) on August 12, 2000 & things went straight downhill from there.

August 20, 2000 my daughter informed me that she was 8 months pregnant with my 2nd grandson (No I didn't know it....she hid the 2nd pregnancy just as well as the 1st when she was 15 years old). August 25, 2000 my daughter & grandson(s) were involved in a car accident & my daughter was in Fetal/Maternal ICU due to complications with the baby. Of course I somehow managed to be right there with her. August 29, 2000 she was released from the hospital & I THOUGHT things would get better...but was severely mistaken.

August 31, 2000 my first born child, my son , took his own life:*( It was his 20th birthday & the day my life shattered down all around me. (I lost 5 babies prior to finally carrying full term, and he was my miracle baby. My daughter (Marci) was born 4 days shy of 11 months later. Shortly thereafter it was discovered that I had severe Endometriosis and should have never been able TO have kids.) I buried my baby boy Sept 1, 2000.

15 days later my daughter gave birth to my 2nd grandson, .

I went back to work in November 2000. Tried for three LONG years to work my way back up to full time, but it just didn't work out. Some days I worked 3 hours, some days 5, then would hurt so bad I couldn't work for 2 days & start it all over again. Finally in January 2003 my employer said "Take 3 months medical leave again & either come back full time NO EXCEPTIONS or resign". My Orthopedic dr said no way I could sit for 8 hours a day & do my job so he recommended I resign. Both dr's feel my chronic pain has everything to do with not only my history of arthritis but also due to the trauma of my son's sudden death:*(

I then filed for SSDI March 2003. Got screwed by the first rep (didn't know I could switch), changed reps after the ALJ denied me, filed an appeal & just last month received the news I was denied there as well:*( The last 3 weeks have looked with no luck for an attorney to represent me in a Federal Appeal; so looks like I will lose any chance of winning benefits for those 15 months:*( Also filed a new SSDI & SSI claim & am going to keep trying.

I have many physical/mental disabilities: Chronic Pain, DDD, Lumbar Spondylosentisis, Radiculitis, Beginning R.A., Gout in both feet, Arthritis running rampid through my entire body, Major Depression, PTSD, Migraines, Numbness/pain in both elbows leading to loss of feeling in both hands, (most recent) sudden loss of vision in both eyes & have EVER side effect of the OxyContin/Oxy IR I take daily.

I now have one surviving child (daughter Marci - 24), her three beautiful babies ( - 8 YOA & named after my daddy, - 5 YOA & named after his Uncle and Yulissa Yvette - our most recent addition, who is somehow already 2 + years old???). My significant other (2nd ex-husband/now fiancee again whom I was on my first date with when the accident that broke my back & ruined my life at 40 YOA) is Randy. I also have a step-daughter (Randi, who is about to turn 15). I am also owned by three weenie dogs (Precious - 10 YOA, Ali - 8 YOA, & Gator - 6 YOA); and yes you are reading it right (though we didn't plan it this way) our dogs are Precious AliGator;) Randy bought Gator when we divorced in 1999 & he has turned out to be my little "knight in shining armor". He is my nurse & my constant companion & I thank God for putting him in my life.

SO....that is the long & short about ME. Life is very hard at this point. To go from having such a full life to (seemingly overnight) being a 45 (NOW) year old, disabled, non-employed mother of 1 living child & 1 child in Heaven, female who hurts 24/7/365 from all the above both mentally & physically can SURE takes it toll on a person:*( People say "You are so strong, there is no way I could have made it through all you have & still be living"; but those people have absolutely NO idea what they are talking about. I have made it the last 5 years by taking baby steps....one foot in front of the other....and reminding myself to breathe.

I look forward to meeting all of you & learning aboutu your lives as well. I try to keep as positive an attitude as possible, but depression is normally my constant companion:*( If the pain isn't so bad that I want/have to just lay on the couch & cry...then the death/suicide of my son & all that comes with that gets me down; and many days it is BOTH that makes me feel like there is simply NO WAY I can go on any longer:*(

Kimmi

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Kimmi,

You do not need a lawyer to represent you at an appeal. But you should be prepared with med records and request letters from all doctors, etc that believe you cannot work. I don't understand why SS is so damn adversarial and why so few people are approved immediately and others fight for years.... I have my suspicions that they rarely bother to even read the stuff if there is no immediate dx that they have to approve like kidney failure. This is why you have to bring everything with you of relevence to the hearing cause it may not be in the case files. You might also check with the doctors and hosp you have listed in your SS application and find out when and if they even bothered to request the records and what records they requested.

They say they are streamlining the process so I guess that means they should start turning you down faster. Oh yea... if you have a friend or relative that is used to dealing with red tape etc... they too can represent you at a hearing to make sure the judge gets all the information he/she needs to make a determination.

FW: Hi I'm new (Kimmi)

Hi all! I added my profile just now but will tell you a little about me & my "life". My name is Kim but I go by Kimmi in my support groups (since there seems to always be more than one Kim or ).

I am 45 years old & have "invisible injuiries" which sure seems to make life hard, as I sure many here know already:*( Prior to March 2000 I was a perfectly healthy, happy, active, working mother of two beautiful teenagers & one 3 year old grandson. Oh how quickly things can change right:*(

I was involved in a car accident (passenger) in March 2000. We were sitting at a red light, waiting to turn left, and were rear ended by a vehicle going 35 mph...he never even hit the brakes. That accident severed my lumbar completely. It was determined during testing that I have Degenerative Disc Disease & my lumbar had been whittling away for years. I had back surgery August 8, 2000; in which they took a hunk of my right hip bone & used it to rebuild my lumbar (biggest mistake thusfar I believe!). I was released (to go home & be on STRICT bedrest) on August 12, 2000 & things went straight downhill from there.

August 20, 2000 my daughter informed me that she was 8 months pregnant with my 2nd grandson (No I didn't know it....she hid the 2nd pregnancy just as well as the 1st when she was 15 years old). August 25, 2000 my daughter & grandson(s) were involved in a car accident & my daughter was in Fetal/Maternal ICU due to complications with the baby. Of course I somehow managed to be right there with her. August 29, 2000 she was released from the hospital & I THOUGHT things would get better...but was severely mistaken.

August 31, 2000 my first born child, my son , took his own life:*( It was his 20th birthday & the day my life shattered down all around me. (I lost 5 babies prior to finally carrying full term, and he was my miracle baby. My daughter (Marci) was born 4 days shy of 11 months later. Shortly thereafter it was discovered that I had severe Endometriosis and should have never been able TO have kids.) I buried my baby boy Sept 1, 2000.

15 days later my daughter gave birth to my 2nd grandson, .

I went back to work in November 2000. Tried for three LONG years to work my way back up to full time, but it just didn't work out. Some days I worked 3 hours, some days 5, then would hurt so bad I couldn't work for 2 days & start it all over again. Finally in January 2003 my employer said "Take 3 months medical leave again & either come back full time NO EXCEPTIONS or resign". My Orthopedic dr said no way I could sit for 8 hours a day & do my job so he recommended I resign. Both dr's feel my chronic pain has everything to do with not only my history of arthritis but also due to the trauma of my son's sudden death:*(

I then filed for SSDI March 2003. Got screwed by the first rep (didn't know I could switch), changed reps after the ALJ denied me, filed an appeal & just last month received the news I was denied there as well:*( The last 3 weeks have looked with no luck for an attorney to represent me in a Federal Appeal; so looks like I will lose any chance of winning benefits for those 15 months:*( Also filed a new SSDI & SSI claim & am going to keep trying.

I have many physical/mental disabilities: Chronic Pain, DDD, Lumbar Spondylosentisis, Radiculitis, Beginning R.A., Gout in both feet, Arthritis running rampid through my entire body, Major Depression, PTSD, Migraines, Numbness/pain in both elbows leading to loss of feeling in both hands, (most recent) sudden loss of vision in both eyes & have EVER side effect of the OxyContin/Oxy IR I take daily.

I now have one surviving child (daughter Marci - 24), her three beautiful babies ( - 8 YOA & named after my daddy, - 5 YOA & named after his Uncle and Yulissa Yvette - our most recent addition, who is somehow already 2 + years old???). My significant other (2nd ex-husband/now fiancee again whom I was on my first date with when the accident that broke my back & ruined my life at 40 YOA) is Randy. I also have a step-daughter (Randi, who is about to turn 15). I am also owned by three weenie dogs (Precious - 10 YOA, Ali - 8 YOA, & Gator - 6 YOA); and yes you are reading it right (though we didn't plan it this way) our dogs are Precious AliGator;) Randy bought Gator when we divorced in 1999 & he has turned out to be my little "knight in shining armor". He is my nurse & my constant companion & I thank God for putting him in my life.

SO....that is the long & short about ME. Life is very hard at this point. To go from having such a full life to (seemingly overnight) being a 45 (NOW) year old, disabled, non-employed mother of 1 living child & 1 child in Heaven, female who hurts 24/7/365 from all the above both mentally & physically can SURE takes it toll on a person:*( People say "You are so strong, there is no way I could have made it through all you have & still be living"; but those people have absolutely NO idea what they are talking about. I have made it the last 5 years by taking baby steps....one foot in front of the other....and reminding myself to breathe.

I look forward to meeting all of you & learning aboutu your lives as well. I try to keep as positive an attitude as possible, but depression is normally my constant companion:*( If the pain isn't so bad that I want/have to just lay on the couch & cry...then the death/suicide of my son & all that comes with that gets me down; and many days it is BOTH that makes me feel like there is simply NO WAY I can go on any longer:*(

Kimmi

http://hometown.aol.com/kbceplina/myhomepage/fan.html

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