Re: Just venting...

[Guest guest]

Dear

You arent asking for sympathy. We are here to listen. I lost all those

things to and my heart goes out to you.

God Bless

Janet

[Guest guest]

It is NEVER a waste of my time to read your vent! We have all vented

at some point and it's great to have this group to vent to. We are the only

ones who truly understand. I just found out yesterday that my own brother

doesn't believe anything about my illness and that hurts.

Don't feel crazy, it's the rest of the world that's nuts for not

understanding.

Sue

Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I am just venting to

my only friend, my computer. God what has this world come to?

I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly echoing what most

of you have felt at one time or another during this but I just had to

vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you think that I am

wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

Chris...

[Guest guest]

Chris

I truly understand how the government works as that basement I worked in

was a government federal building on a shipyard. They covered the whole thing

up, got rid of me and brought in men with hazmat suits to clean the basement.

OWCP turned me down and I lost my EEOC case. The government DOES NOT

CARE......

Janet

[Guest guest]

Hey My dad (also a U.S.(Army)Vet) always told me that you could count

your friends on one hand and have a lot left over!! That may be true but I

have found more friends through my illness and from this group than I could

ever imagine, more than I can count!!! It's just unfortunate that we have to

become friends through an illness. If you could throw a party we'd sure all

have a great time together!!

Your friend,

Sue

I have had more support in the last hour I feel like throwing a party..lol I

thank you guys so much I don't know how to express the comfort you are

giving me. I really believe when the shit hits the fan all your friends duck

and

laugh when you get hit, that should have been learned long ago but its real

now, funny how people you don't even know can end up being better friends than

you ever thought possiable. Thankyou so much Barbara

Chris...

[Guest guest]

Greetings

It is nice to have a place to vent, particularly as everyone on these

lists can understand where you are standing!

When I have a rough day - a really rough day -, I have decided

to 'Let Go - and Let God' - Say a little prayer - It's me God, and

I've tied a knot and am hanging on. What say you give me some help

here'.

You are obviously a strong person, and I wish you a better road ahead,

Sincerely,

a

>

> Well I am going to vent some depresing thoughts with the group. I

am

> discusted that I used to have alot of friends and buisiness

> contacts. I was a highly respected locksmith in Atlanta. life

seemed

> to be at least decent. I had a horrable year two years ago on a

> personal level. In one weekend my then wifes daughter ran away and

> made some awful accusations against my wife and I which we later

> found out she had gotten pregnant and just wanted to move in with

her

> boyfriend, so after having my home and life invaded by the

> authorities and finally cleared when it all came out. Then my

brother

> came with vengance in mind and informed me that my dad who was

there

> at my birth was not my real dad. (like 39 years later I need to

know

> this) Yes, I had a complete melt down.

> Suffice it to say I made it through it all, picked up my feet and

> moved on.

> Now the mold stuff. I am now feeling like I am in the twilight

> zone. I have managed to have the friends that still talk to me

tell

> me they are just to busy to keep hearing about my problems and that

> they have all moved on from it.. (must be nice) During this I have

> lost my wife, family, job, home, life possesions and feel a bit

> empty. The others have, or are ignoring my phone calls or have gone

> as far as changing thier number. The rest like me to visit when

they

> need some work done or something but then it turns to listening to

> all thier probs, which is ok, but what about me. You know that

> song " I want to talk about me " I think toby keith..... Mostly I

just

> want a friend to be around to be a friend. Have a problem and they

> all disperse like flys when you pick up the fly swatter.

> Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I am just venting

to

> my only friend, my computer. God what has this world come to?

> I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly echoing what most

> of you have felt at one time or another during this but I just had

to

> vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you think that I

am

> wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

> Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

> Chris...

>

[Guest guest]

that's NOT a waste of time at all, chris.....i think many of us, myself

included, have lost friends through all this. i know people i used to be

close to have kind of disappeared into the woodwork..... & its sad.

i can't work anymore either due to my disability, i can't do LOTS of things

i formerly did-- & i guess that makes me/us " boring " or " self-centered "

people? NOT!! i, like you, i'm sure, just are trying to live our lives day

in & day out, as " normally " as possible.

those persons who haven't been ill for the long term have NO idea.....that's

why this board is so important, & so supportive of all on here.

take care, chris, & God bless,

victoria

[] Just venting...

> Well I am going to vent some depresing thoughts with the group. I am

> discusted that I used to have alot of friends and buisiness

> contacts. I was a highly respected locksmith in Atlanta. life seemed

> to be at least decent. I had a horrable year two years ago on a

> personal level. In one weekend my then wifes daughter ran away and

> made some awful accusations against my wife and I which we later

> found out she had gotten pregnant and just wanted to move in with her

> boyfriend, so after having my home and life invaded by the

> authorities and finally cleared when it all came out. Then my brother

> came with vengance in mind and informed me that my dad who was there

> at my birth was not my real dad. (like 39 years later I need to know

> this) Yes, I had a complete melt down.

> Suffice it to say I made it through it all, picked up my feet and

> moved on.

> Now the mold stuff. I am now feeling like I am in the twilight

> zone. I have managed to have the friends that still talk to me tell

> me they are just to busy to keep hearing about my problems and that

> they have all moved on from it.. (must be nice) During this I have

> lost my wife, family, job, home, life possesions and feel a bit

> empty. The others have, or are ignoring my phone calls or have gone

> as far as changing thier number. The rest like me to visit when they

> need some work done or something but then it turns to listening to

> all thier probs, which is ok, but what about me. You know that

> song " I want to talk about me " I think toby keith..... Mostly I just

> want a friend to be around to be a friend. Have a problem and they

> all disperse like flys when you pick up the fly swatter.

> Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I am just venting to

> my only friend, my computer. God what has this world come to?

> I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly echoing what most

> of you have felt at one time or another during this but I just had to

> vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you think that I am

> wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

> Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

> Chris...

>

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[Guest guest]

Reading your story WAS NOT a waste of my time. In

fact, I think you were very courageous to write it,

and one thing is for certain, you are not " wacked. "

We all have a story, and although mine is a lot

different than yours, I know exactly what it feels

like to have family and friends turn their back on

you. It happened to me 20 years ago, when I became

ill, through no fault of my own.

And now, like you said, something else – the mold. At

times it feels like it’s just one thing on top of

another, and I often wonder if it’s ever going to end.

Then something good happens to make me realize there

is hope, and that when I get out of bed in the

morning, it is worth putting one foot in front of the

other, and facing another day, because I know, things

will get better. I don’t know how, and I don’t know

when, but I know they will.

So no matter how depressed you may get, just

hang in there, and take comfort in knowing you have

friends in this group, who understand, who will

listen, and who will be there for you.

Barb

--- unitedstatesvet <unitedstatesvet@...> wrote:

> Well I am going to vent some depresing thoughts with

> the group. I am

> discusted that I used to have alot of friends and

> buisiness

> contacts. I was a highly respected locksmith in

> Atlanta. life seemed

> to be at least decent. I had a horrable year two

> years ago on a

> personal level. In one weekend my then wifes

> daughter ran away and

> made some awful accusations against my wife and I

> which we later

> found out she had gotten pregnant and just wanted to

> move in with her

> boyfriend, so after having my home and life invaded

> by the

> authorities and finally cleared when it all came

> out. Then my brother

> came with vengance in mind and informed me that my

> dad who was there

> at my birth was not my real dad. (like 39 years

> later I need to know

> this) Yes, I had a complete melt down.

> Suffice it to say I made it through it all, picked

> up my feet and

> moved on.

> Now the mold stuff. I am now feeling like I am in

> the twilight

> zone. I have managed to have the friends that still

> talk to me tell

> me they are just to busy to keep hearing about my

> problems and that

> they have all moved on from it.. (must be nice)

> During this I have

> lost my wife, family, job, home, life possesions and

> feel a bit

> empty. The others have, or are ignoring my phone

> calls or have gone

> as far as changing thier number. The rest like me

> to visit when they

> need some work done or something but then it turns

> to listening to

> all thier probs, which is ok, but what about me.

> You know that

> song " I want to talk about me " I think toby

> keith..... Mostly I just

> want a friend to be around to be a friend. Have a

> problem and they

> all disperse like flys when you pick up the fly

> swatter.

> Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I

> am just venting to

> my only friend, my computer. God what has this

> world come to?

> I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly

> echoing what most

> of you have felt at one time or another during this

> but I just had to

> vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you

> think that I am

> wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

> Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

> Chris...

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Sue, Your dad is a wise man, like everyone else I have chosen to ignore that

truth like others ignore us, funny how it has to slap you in the face for us

to understand.. I would lioke to thank every woman that has slapped me

now,I probobly learned something I did not now before...lol And stop it, I

would LOVE to arange a huge get together, on the white house lawn would be

great...

[Guest guest]

Couldn't think of a better place except perhaps the capitol!!!

Sue, Your dad is a wise man, like everyone else I have chosen to ignore that

truth like others ignore us, funny how it has to slap you in the face for us

to understand.. I would lioke to thank every woman that has slapped me

now,I probobly learned something I did not now before...lol And stop it, I

would LOVE to arange a huge get together, on the white house lawn would be

great...

Chris...

[Guest guest]

your not alone chris, we are here, and yes, Im sure several of us

relate to your story. I think a lot of people just dont want to

listen because they would than have to amit that our would may be on

the verge of ending. my daughters and a cousin had a pretty good talk

about a week ago, they are learning and care enought to try to be

perfume free cause they know if something bothers me, I cant stick

around. my daughter bought a ionic breeze for her house just to help

for me to be there and both my daughters try hard to keep smells down

in theri homes so I can go there. they cant control if a friend shows

up with perfume on, but several of theri friends know I have this

problem. it hasnt been easy, and they are the only ones that have

tried to accomadate my illness, and they to sometimes dont want to

hear about things I've learned and my consider me a little absessed

with it, but they also know its my life and my pain. but anyway, this

night they , for some reason was very interested in what I had to say

and even asked questions, cousin, boyfriends too. and they voised

theri conserns about felling like the world was coming to the end.

this coming from 20-30 year olds. they see it, and no dought fell

helpless . it saddened me. they have children, some are my grandkids.

the cousin made a statement about how it pained him to think about

what his 2 year old daughter might grow up to face. the pain was in

all theri eyes, and mine. I realized that night that maybe people

dont want to hear about toxic molds and contaminated water and air,

because it scares the crap out of them and they fell helpless as to

what they can do. they also touched on the subject of our goverment

being crooked, but again what can they do. no one can change things

alone, and this keeps most people felling helpless, and sometimes its

easyier just to not think about things and hope it goes away or fixes

itself. but as we know, that doesnt work. keep your chin up, and try

to consentrate on the good things, as small as they may

be.

>

> Well I am going to vent some depresing thoughts with the group. I

am

> discusted that I used to have alot of friends and buisiness

> contacts. I was a highly respected locksmith in Atlanta. life

seemed

> to be at least decent. I had a horrable year two years ago on a

> personal level. In one weekend my then wifes daughter ran away and

> made some awful accusations against my wife and I which we later

> found out she had gotten pregnant and just wanted to move in with

her

> boyfriend, so after having my home and life invaded by the

> authorities and finally cleared when it all came out. Then my

brother

> came with vengance in mind and informed me that my dad who was

there

> at my birth was not my real dad. (like 39 years later I need to

know

> this) Yes, I had a complete melt down.

> Suffice it to say I made it through it all, picked up my feet and

> moved on.

> Now the mold stuff. I am now feeling like I am in the twilight

> zone. I have managed to have the friends that still talk to me

tell

> me they are just to busy to keep hearing about my problems and that

> they have all moved on from it.. (must be nice) During this I have

> lost my wife, family, job, home, life possesions and feel a bit

> empty. The others have, or are ignoring my phone calls or have gone

> as far as changing thier number. The rest like me to visit when

they

> need some work done or something but then it turns to listening to

> all thier probs, which is ok, but what about me. You know that

> song " I want to talk about me " I think toby keith..... Mostly I

just

> want a friend to be around to be a friend. Have a problem and they

> all disperse like flys when you pick up the fly swatter.

> Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I am just venting

to

> my only friend, my computer. God what has this world come to?

> I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly echoing what most

> of you have felt at one time or another during this but I just had

to

> vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you think that I

am

> wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

> Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

> Chris...

>

[Guest guest]

Bless you... Thanks Janet

Gingersnap1964@... wrote: Dear

You arent asking for sympathy. We are here to listen. I lost all those

things to and my heart goes out to you.

God Bless

Janet

[Guest guest]

An amen to that, thank you a..

yukon_paula <yukon_paula@...> wrote: Greetings

It is nice to have a place to vent, particularly as everyone on these

lists can understand where you are standing!

When I have a rough day - a really rough day -, I have decided

to 'Let Go - and Let God' - Say a little prayer - It's me God, and

I've tied a knot and am hanging on. What say you give me some help

here'.

You are obviously a strong person, and I wish you a better road ahead,

Sincerely,

a

[Guest guest]

, you are so rite. Its like " If they only knew " but I would not wish

this on my worst enimy.. Thank you for the support.

Chris...

[Guest guest]

You touched on alot of truths for sure. The ol " if its not affecting me, I

don't want to hear about it " As far as the government, boy have I gotten in a

few heated arguments about that. It is great to hear your family is atleast

listining that is rare. I used to throw up when my wife used hairspray and tell

me to grow up (i am older) and would spray more and wonder why I could not be

intamate with her and so on. Your responce is unbelievably real and I thank you

for the time, I so need it at the moment...

Chris...

[Guest guest]

I have had more support in the last hour I feel like throwing a party..lol I

thank you guys so much I don't know how to express the comfort you are giving

me. I really believe when the shit hits the fan all your friends duck and laugh

when you get hit, that should have been learned long ago but its real now, funny

how people you don't even know can end up being better friends than you ever

thought possiable. Thankyou so much Barbara

Chris...

Barbara <floridabound03200@...> wrote:

Reading your story WAS NOT a waste of my time. In

fact, I think you were very courageous to write it,

and one thing is for certain, you are not " wacked. "

We all have a story, and although mine is a lot

different than yours, I know exactly what it feels

like to have family and friends turn their back on

you. It happened to me 20 years ago, when I became

ill, through no fault of my own.

And now, like you said, something else – the mold. At

times it feels like it’s just one thing on top of

another, and I often wonder if it’s ever going to end.

Then something good happens to make me realize there

is hope, and that when I get out of bed in the

morning, it is worth putting one foot in front of the

other, and facing another day, because I know, things

will get better. I don’t know how, and I don’t know

when, but I know they will.

So no matter how depressed you may get, just

hang in there, and take comfort in knowing you have

friends in this group, who understand, who will

listen, and who will be there for you.

Barb

[Guest guest]

...On Behalf Of Tazin Round

I have had more support in the last hour I feel like throwing a party..lol I

thank you guys so much I don't know how to express the comfort you are

giving me. I really believe when the shit hits the fan all your friends

duck and laugh when you get hit, that should have been learned long ago but

its real now, funny how people you don't even know can end up being better

friends than you ever thought possiable. Thankyou so much Barbara

Chris...>>

Hi Chris.

We are having a cyber party for you.

One of the objectives of this group is to support the members. Sometimes

all we can do is have an open heart and listening ears.

Not everyone has had the problems you have, however I know we all understand

and certainly care. Anytime you are down, just post. You have many friends

on this group who care about you.

Thank you so much for trusting us by sharing your emotions.

Rosie

[Guest guest]

Sue, you have no idea what that means, thank you and you are very correct...

Chris...

ssr3351@... wrote:

It is NEVER a waste of my time to read your vent! We have all vented

at some point and it's great to have this group to vent to. We are the only

ones who truly understand. I just found out yesterday that my own brother

doesn't believe anything about my illness and that hurts.

Don't feel crazy, it's the rest of the world that's nuts for not

understanding.

Sue

Well I have given you a word out of a letter but I am just venting to

my only friend, my computer. God what has this world come to?

I am not asking for any sympathy as I am probobly echoing what most

of you have felt at one time or another during this but I just had to

vent a little. I hope this does not make any of you think that I am

wacked but I sure feel that way sometimes.

Thanks for wasting your time reading this.

Chris...

[Guest guest]

Sue, Your dad is a wise man, like everyone else I have chosen to ignore that

truth like others ignore us, funny how it has to slap you in the face for us to

understand.. I would lioke to thank every woman that has slapped me now,I

probobly learned something I did not now before...lol And stop it, I would

LOVE to arange a huge get together, on the white house lawn would be great...

Chris...

ssr3351@... wrote:

Hey My dad (also a U.S.(Army)Vet) always told me that you could count

your friends on one hand and have a lot left over!! That may be true but I

have found more friends through my illness and from this group than I could

ever imagine, more than I can count!!! It's just unfortunate that we have to

become friends through an illness. If you could throw a party we'd sure all

have a great time together!!

Your friend,

Sue

I have had more support in the last hour I feel like throwing a party..lol I

thank you guys so much I don't know how to express the comfort you are

giving me. I really believe when the shit hits the fan all your friends duck

and

laugh when you get hit, that should have been learned long ago but its real

now, funny how people you don't even know can end up being better friends than

you ever thought possiable. Thankyou so much Barbara

Chris...

[Guest guest]

Janet, you don't know how many peoplle get mad at me when I say that this

country has gone even beyond comunism straight to dictatorship. This statement

is off the wall but what is the diff. between Sadam gassing everyone and this

goverment letting us get poisioned (Much in the same way only more secret?) I

will stop there before I go to far as I am not thrilled with this country much

(it's leaders anyway) Spilled coffee gets you 10 mil. ruining your life gets

you fired??? What gives.

Chris...

Gingersnap1964@... wrote:

Chris

I truly understand how the government works as that basement I worked in

was a government federal building on a shipyard. They covered the whole thing

up, got rid of me and brought in men with hazmat suits to clean the basement.

OWCP turned me down and I lost my EEOC case. The government DOES NOT

CARE......

Janet

[Guest guest]

Everything you said is correct, more so than I think I even know. Yes I do feel

like I have made several new friends who have been more suportive than anyone I

have known in person and I do believe if one person here was ridaculed in any

way ther would be a possy of vehicles ready to go assist. I am glad my post was

ok because, well, usually you do that to someone close to you and besides my

parents there is no one, even if there was they sure don't want to hear about

it. It has been very nice to read the feed back today, or should I say

comforting and soothing. (is that a guy thing to say..lol) and I do feel a

little better about the situation for now. I have been holding alot of this

stuff for a long time, it was time to exhale.... Thanks KC (and the Mrs.)

Chris...

[Guest guest]

You're welcome. I'm glad alot of people had a chance to respond. I

apologize for the typos in that last email,we didn't proofread. It's

been a long day with many things going on. I've been playing catchup

since I just recently have taken on a fulltime job. Just completely

exhausted.

Take care,

KC

>

> Everything you said is correct, more so than I think I even know.

Yes I do feel like I have made several new friends who have been

more suportive than anyone I have known in person and I do believe

if one person here was ridaculed in any way ther would be a possy of

vehicles ready to go assist. I am glad my post was ok because,

well, usually you do that to someone close to you and besides my

parents there is no one, even if there was they sure don't want to

hear about it. It has been very nice to read the feed back today,

or should I say comforting and soothing. (is that a guy thing to

say..lol) and I do feel a little better about the situation for

now. I have been holding alot of this stuff for a long time, it was

time to exhale.... Thanks KC (and the Mrs.)

> Chris...

>

[Guest guest]

KC Well said.

Janet

[Guest guest]

KC,

Carefull not to spread yourself too thin. We and Sharon need you.

Janet

[Guest guest]

take time to take care of YOU too, kc!

v.

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>

>

> You're welcome. I'm glad alot of people had a chance to respond. I

> apologize for the typos in that last email,we didn't proofread. It's

> been a long day with many things going on. I've been playing catchup

> since I just recently have taken on a fulltime job. Just completely

> exhausted.

>

> Take care,

>

> KC

>

>

>>

>> Everything you said is correct, more so than I think I even know.

> Yes I do feel like I have made several new friends who have been

> more suportive than anyone I have known in person and I do believe

> if one person here was ridaculed in any way ther would be a possy of

> vehicles ready to go assist. I am glad my post was ok because,

> well, usually you do that to someone close to you and besides my

> parents there is no one, even if there was they sure don't want to

> hear about it. It has been very nice to read the feed back today,

> or should I say comforting and soothing. (is that a guy thing to

> say..lol) and I do feel a little better about the situation for

> now. I have been holding alot of this stuff for a long time, it was

> time to exhale.... Thanks KC (and the Mrs.)

>> Chris...

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[Guest guest]

you're welcome, chris-- & i hope you're having a better day? one day at a

time, as they say-- & we can ALL hope & pray things will be " recognized " by

the authorities (soon?!), & that things will change.......??

take care,

victoria

Re: [] Just venting...

> , you are so rite. Its like " If they only knew " but I would not

> wish this on my worst enimy.. Thank you for the support.

> Chris...

>

>

>

>

>

> FAIR USE NOTICE:

>

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