Re: My health diary is up and running!

[Guest guest]

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It really is. I have to really work at it though, because I tend to censor myself. I guess I'm always afraid of triggering someone who might be reading it. As far as enduring stuff, I can't say I've had an easy road so far, but I'm trying to make the best of it. I feel that if I take those things and just let them eat at me, then I'm doing no one good, and letting the creeps win. Thank you for your kind words. I truly appreciate them.

My health diary is up and running!

My health diary is now up and running! If you want to see what I look like (in a very bad self picture where I'm looking at the lcd screen in the bathroom mirror...lol) or read the thoughts there...be careful, they can get intense...you can see my diary at

http://www.healthdiaries.com/eternal-struggle.htm

Hugs,

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Some things are hard for me to admit. One thing that is in my diary is how I plotted to kill my abuser. Now, people who don't know me might think I would have really done it. It was a way to cope, fantasizing about various painful methods of death for him. As far as my family, most of them I understand why they can't talk about it. Many of them don't even see what the big deal is, because they don't know the whole story. Some think that I lied about the whole thing because that is what my Mother told them. As far as my Mother goes...she has some problems dealing with it, mainly guilt and embarrassment I think. If we could sit down and talk about it, I'd feel much better. I think she may think that I am angry with her because she should have known it was going on. I did think that at first, but I think mainly I am upset because she wanted me to forget it ever happened, and scolded me for not being 'over it'. As far as staying with him, she's afraid to be alone. After all, he wasn't abusive to her, but I'm afraid that he will be. When I left the house he started taking his aggression out on my brother. (not like he was with me though, and that I don't quite understand) My brother is getting close to moving out, and I fear that he will eventually abuse her. I'm trying to prepare myself for that time, because undoubtedly she will come to me to console her, then she'll leave him. I know I'll be angry that she leaves him for abusing her, but not her daughter. I'll have to deal with that when it comes.....but I see it coming. I know I'm not to blame, I just wish others knew that too. I can conquer all? I dunno about that. I surely can't conquer my chocolate addiction, and who wants to? LOL...thanks again. It does help to get it all out.

Hugs,

My health diary is up and running!

My health diary is now up and running! If you want to see what I look like (in a very bad self picture where I'm looking at the lcd screen in the bathroom mirror...lol) or read the thoughts there...be careful, they can get intense...you can see my diary at

http://www.healthdiaries.com/eternal-struggle.htm

Hugs,

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I say DO NOT worry about censoring yourself.You are not writing all that down to please others you are writing it as a way of self help and therapy.You will feel so much better knowing that you no longer hold in all of your deep dark secrets.Matter of fact I can almost bet that you will be on a "high" once you put your feelings into words.

Know that you are not to blame for the things that have happened to you.The sick ones are the abusers!!!!!! Others sometimes are put into a shock by what happens to those dear to them and their only way of coping is by denying it or not wanting to talk about it.

Hang in there! You can conquer all!!!!

-- Re: My health diary is up and running!

,

It really is. I have to really work at it though, because I tend to censor myself. I guess I'm always afraid of triggering someone who might be reading it. As far as enduring stuff, I can't say I've had an easy road so far, but I'm trying to make the best of it. I feel that if I take those things and just let them eat at me, then I'm doing no one good, and letting the creeps win. Thank you for your kind words. I truly appreciate them.

My health diary is up and running!

My health diary is now up and running! If you want to see what I look like (in a very bad self picture where I'm looking at the lcd screen in the bathroom mirror...lol) or read the thoughts there...be careful, they can get intense...you can see my diary at

http://www.healthdiaries.com/eternal-struggle.htm

Hugs,

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