Xmas on hold till my child KNOWS what Xmas is!

[Guest guest]

This is off topic but I am hoping that by next year, after my

son " improves " that Christmas in our house will " mean " something to

him. You may or may not agree with me, but I just cant get excited

about christmas this year and in fact when i think about it, its

depressing.

Last year, I sort of knew when my son showed no interest in his

pressies that something was " wrong " . Now this year, that he has the

diagnosis, i just keep thinking to the halcyon days of last year. I

knew there was something going on, but i NEVER suspected autism.

I buy my son pressies all the time and just cause he will get them

on Christmas day, dosent mean that he will enjoy them more. I just

dont want to see him playing with the wrapping paper again, and not

showing any interest in what is " inside " the boxes.

Can you identify with this? Maybe i am wrong but thats how i feel

this year. I was never one for the commercialism of Christmas

anyway. I thank the Lord almighty that I have my little boy this

Christmas and he is the only present I will ever need, but trying to

be " jolly " whilst I watch autism cloud my son's life is very dark

indeed.