Re: GOOD BY ALL

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, I want you here with us. You are a source of strength that you don't even know you are. You are a friend to all of us. You care more than most, and you are sensitive to our needs. I wish we were more sensitive to your needs. We care about you and you care about us.

((((( HUGS )))))

Carolyn

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Dear ,

I hope you are still reading the posts once in a while. Just wanted

to say hi. I'll still say hi once in a while, just in case. I havent

been able to get on very often lately either, but sometimes I'll get

on & just check on everyone, even if I dont post I'm thinking of you

all. We will worry about you, and miss you. Please take care of

yourself. Love,

> I FIGURED I SAY IT I NOT ON MUCH AND WHO KNOWES WITH MY BODY AND

HOW THINGS

> ARE GOING SO TAKE CARE ALL I KEEP READING BUT I ODN TO THINK I BE

WRITING

> ANY MORE TO THE LIST I DO NTO FEEL LIKE I BELONG BUT I KNOW THAT IT

IS JUST

> ME OS DO NTO WORRY ABOUT IT I MA A WEARD PERSON TAKE CARE ALL I DO

HOPE LIFE

> TREATS YOU ALL WELL

>

> DARKBEING

>

> LAST EMAIL

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Whoa!!!

!!!

What's wrong? I don't understand. You aren't weird at all, and you

bring so much life to the group, I don't think it'd be the same

without you. I won't let you leave. You can't!!!! Do you have any

idea how much people here love you? I got several phone calls about

you leaving, people worried about you, and we need you here. You

are a special person to me...to all of us here! You have a place in

our lives that we won't give up. Don't you give up on us either!

Not posting is not an excuse to leave. We all understand, this

group being as it is, has some times where people don't post as

often. we all have the times in our lives where we just don't feel

like it, but we know that when we aren't posting, there are still

people in our cyber-family who care about us and are thinking of us

just the same. Please don't feel pressured to post, we are happy

when we get letters from you, and to hear about triumphs and to help

you along through not so good times. You fit in here just as much

as anyone else. You belong here! If you really, truly want to

leave, and don't want us in your life, please tell me why. You are

an important part in all our lives...please don't leave!

waiting your reply,

> I FIGURED I SAY IT I NOT ON MUCH AND WHO KNOWES WITH MY BODY AND

HOW THINGS

> ARE GOING SO TAKE CARE ALL I KEEP READING BUT I ODN TO THINK I BE

WRITING

> ANY MORE TO THE LIST I DO NTO FEEL LIKE I BELONG BUT I KNOW THAT

IT IS JUST

> ME OS DO NTO WORRY ABOUT IT I MA A WEARD PERSON TAKE CARE ALL I DO

HOPE LIFE

> TREATS YOU ALL WELL

>

> DARKBEING

>

> LAST EMAIL

[Guest guest]

you are not responsible for the tragedy in your life.. And anyone who digs into you saying that it was your fault is being cruel and very unjust to you

There are,and always will be ,this kind of person in this worl, petty do gooders, of course.

Try to overcome these dark thoughts please, it might take a long time but you can do it.

Love Anne

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i am sorry i ma realy messed up right now things are not good at home mony

and this is the time of year i lost most of my famly my brother and father

and grandmother to a drunk that was enjoying xmas will working for the city

driving a huge truck hoped the curve and did not evna notice kiling him just

drove on and went ot his party had a grate time wil my brother died 5 min

after being hit he chest was crushed buy the wheels the the salt truck i

sorry all this is not a being sick thing it is more depreshion and other

stuff like wanting ot join my brother my life was destroyed by this being

stuck in this wheel chair is not evna close to how the death of him

destroyed me i miss him so much i can nto take it at times i just wanted to

go so i did not cuse nay problems on hear in case i end up waht ever you

know i have a frind thst keeps telling me how much i hurt others if i did so

i have been thinking a lot and still am mostly about my 2 kids devin 6 and

damien 8 devin is sick he has a problem with his intestines they do nto know

what or why but his lard do not push the fecal mater towards his rectum so

he is always very bloted and sore and to help him they have to do a deep

unimpatment of him which is not pleaset for a adult and to him he thinks i

am having fun he thinks i take him to be hurt at the docters on purpuse and

this bothers me big time s oi do nto know wht i ma doing i know this i ma

staying in my little room not seeing anyone and not talking to anyonethat

comes in my home i have locked my self away in my bedroom my wife bring me

my food and i have acess to the washroom i am on in hear i used to being

locked up i evna prefer it see i ma messed up i rather be in a instutution

locked up then out at home i gess i spent to much time when i wsa a child in

them i was in one from 7 to 15 o know i ma off topick for this list i ma

sorry i just wantedto anser so you know i ma alive that is all ok i sorry i

do nto meen to be a bother to any one at all i just kneed to hide forgive me

i am sorry

dark messed up big time

Re: GOOD BY ALL

> Whoa!!!

>

>

> !!!

>

> What's wrong? I don't understand. You aren't weird at all, and you

> bring so much life to the group, I don't think it'd be the same

> without you. I won't let you leave. You can't!!!! Do you have any

> idea how much people here love you? I got several phone calls about

> you leaving, people worried about you, and we need you here. You

> are a special person to me...to all of us here! You have a place in

> our lives that we won't give up. Don't you give up on us either!

> Not posting is not an excuse to leave. We all understand, this

> group being as it is, has some times where people don't post as

> often. we all have the times in our lives where we just don't feel

> like it, but we know that when we aren't posting, there are still

> people in our cyber-family who care about us and are thinking of us

> just the same. Please don't feel pressured to post, we are happy

> when we get letters from you, and to hear about triumphs and to help

> you along through not so good times. You fit in here just as much

> as anyone else. You belong here! If you really, truly want to

> leave, and don't want us in your life, please tell me why. You are

> an important part in all our lives...please don't leave!

>

> waiting your reply,

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

> > I FIGURED I SAY IT I NOT ON MUCH AND WHO KNOWES WITH MY BODY AND

> HOW THINGS

> > ARE GOING SO TAKE CARE ALL I KEEP READING BUT I ODN TO THINK I BE

> WRITING

> > ANY MORE TO THE LIST I DO NTO FEEL LIKE I BELONG BUT I KNOW THAT

> IT IS JUST

> > ME OS DO NTO WORRY ABOUT IT I MA A WEARD PERSON TAKE CARE ALL I DO

> HOPE LIFE

> > TREATS YOU ALL WELL

> >

> > DARKBEING

> >

> > LAST EMAIL

>

>

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[Guest guest]

,, so sorry to hear about the loss of your loved ones. It must be a

very difficult time of year for you! Also sorry to hear that your son is

sick! My daughter has Irritable bowel syndrome, and I know its difficult to

see your child sick,,, and in pain,, and then having to deal with the

prodding and poking that the doctors do to them,, he doesn't understand

now,, but he will later on that you are not doing this to be mean,, you are

only taking care of him,, which is what a good parent does!!

This group is so you can come in and talk about what ever you like!! You are

not a bother,,, I love hearing from you! And anytime you want to talk,, vent

or anything,, that's what this group is for,, and why we are here,, so we

can talk and listen to those who know what we are going thru,, as it is

difficult to talk to others about our problems!!

Please,, Please do not do anything to hurt yourself!! That would only bring

great pain and sorrow for those you left behind!! Try to stay positive,, I

know its hard sometimes,, but when ever that thought comes into your head

try to think about something good,, like your kids,, and the new baby that's

on its way!! When I get depressed I try to think about silly stuff my

daughter used to do when she was little,, or about what shes gonna be when

she grows up, and about the kids she is gonna have, and me being a grandma,,

and stuff like that,, anything to get your mind off of it!!! You will be in

my thoughts and prayers!!!

Hugs

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Darkbeing wrote:

sorry all this is not a being sick thing it is more

depreshion and other

stuff like wanting ot join my brother my life was destroyed by this

being

stuck in this wheel chair is not evna close to how the death of him

destroyed me i miss him so much i can nto take it at times i just wanted

to

go so i did not cuse nay problems on hear

~

Everything we go through on a daily basis has

to do with "Being Sick". I am so sorry that you lost so much of your

family during this time of the year. I think everyone thinks

about those they have lost during this time of the year since the holidays

are meant to be with family.

My Gramma died on Christmas Eve Day 1995.

My baby cousin Danny died at 5 days old, & was buried on Christmas

Eve Day 1977. Danny's Mom & older brother Jake are all dead too.

Aunt Joyce died of brain cancer in June 1986, and Jake died in October

1991 after a major motorcycle accident. That is all on one side of

my family. Gramma was Joyce's Mom, and Jake & Danny were

my cousins. Joyce & Danny are buried in one grave, and

Jake is next to them. From that immediate family there is only my

little cousin Tera (22 yrs) left. She has the cutest little

boy Jordan who will be 3 in January. But she doesn't have her Mom,

and hasn't since she was 5 years old. Of the 7 kids my Gramma had

2 have died already. Of the resulting 14 grandchildren, 4 have died

before the age of 22.

What I am trying to say is that we all think about

the people we have lost during the holidays. It is natural to miss

those you love so much. Unfortunately that also means that sadness

is compounded around this time of the year because we miss them so much.

Please don't hurt yourself, if you need to talk

you know that we are all here for you, with all the members here, there

is almost always at least one person online 24 hours a day.

If you need someone to talk to there are many telephone crisis lines available

24/7, we don't want to lose you. We are all very worried about

you.

I hope that you will stop & take a deep breath

before doing anything. Your family needs you. As for being

sorry, you don't have to be sorry about anything. You are hurting

& you are reaching out for help. That is the right thing to do.

To my knowledge there isn't any 'off topic' topics. We are a group

of people here to support each other through all the good & bad in

life.

I hope getting all this off your chest was of

some help to you, sometimes that is the most important thing that comes

from pouring your heart out to your friends. And in case you wondered,

that is exactly what we are... friends!!

Be kind to yourself, let your feelings show.

Don't bottle everything up inside you please, I don't want you to self

destruct.

I hope that nothing I have said has offended you

or hurt you in anyway... every time I have let my fingers do the walking

on the key board in the last 7 days, I have said something wrong to someone

without even knowing I did it. I found out 7 days ago that

I am pregnant, I am on a bunch of Trying to Conceive lists, but now that

I am pregnant no matter what I say or how I label the message, I am saying

something wrong or offending someone. All because I achieved the

one thing me have all been working towards... it makes no sense to me,

but that is what I am talking about.

I didn't mean to pour my heart out to you, I was

trying to make you feel better. Before I babble your ear off I will

say good bye for now.

I really hope you feel better soon!

Love Always,

Anne

[Guest guest]

I am sorry to hear all this. You know none of it is off topic on

here you can vent as much as you like on here. I am sorry you were in

institutions as a child. I am autistic and I was in institutions (or

locked mental places) for most of 6 years when I was a teenager and it

does get hard to live outside. After as long as you spent in that place

it is no wonder you sometimes feel like being back there. There is a

word for it that I cannot remember but it is something like

institutionalisation (spelling?).

I hope you find some peace in your head soon and I can understand why

Christmas is a very hard time for you. Remember that the people of this

list are here to support you when you need it.

CZ

Darkbeing wrote:

> i am sorry i ma realy messed up right now things are not good at home mony

> and this is the time of year i lost most of my famly my brother and father

> and grandmother to a drunk that was enjoying xmas will working for the city

> driving a huge truck hoped the curve and did not evna notice kiling him just

> drove on and went ot his party had a grate time wil my brother died 5 min

> after being hit he chest was crushed buy the wheels the the salt truck i

> sorry all this is not a being sick thing it is more depreshion and other

> stuff like wanting ot join my brother my life was destroyed by this being

> stuck in this wheel chair is not evna close to how the death of him

> destroyed me i miss him so much i can nto take it at times i just wanted to

> go so i did not cuse nay problems on hear in case i end up waht ever you

> know i have a frind thst keeps telling me how much i hurt others if i did so

> i have been thinking a lot and still am mostly about my 2 kids devin 6 and

> damien 8 devin is sick he has a problem with his intestines they do nto know

> what or why but his lard do not push the fecal mater towards his rectum so

> he is always very bloted and sore and to help him they have to do a deep

> unimpatment of him which is not pleaset for a adult and to him he thinks i

> am having fun he thinks i take him to be hurt at the docters on purpuse and

> this bothers me big time s oi do nto know wht i ma doing i know this i ma

> staying in my little room not seeing anyone and not talking to anyonethat

> comes in my home i have locked my self away in my bedroom my wife bring me

> my food and i have acess to the washroom i am on in hear i used to being

> locked up i evna prefer it see i ma messed up i rather be in a instutution

> locked up then out at home i gess i spent to much time when i wsa a child in

> them i was in one from 7 to 15 o know i ma off topick for this list i ma

> sorry i just wantedto anser so you know i ma alive that is all ok i sorry i

> do nto meen to be a bother to any one at all i just kneed to hide forgive me

> i am sorry

>

> dark messed up big time

> Re: GOOD BY ALL

>

>

>

>>Whoa!!!

>>

>>

>>!!!

>>

>>What's wrong? I don't understand. You aren't weird at all, and you

>>bring so much life to the group, I don't think it'd be the same

>>without you. I won't let you leave. You can't!!!! Do you have any

>>idea how much people here love you? I got several phone calls about

>>you leaving, people worried about you, and we need you here. You

>>are a special person to me...to all of us here! You have a place in

>>our lives that we won't give up. Don't you give up on us either!

>>Not posting is not an excuse to leave. We all understand, this

>>group being as it is, has some times where people don't post as

>>often. we all have the times in our lives where we just don't feel

>>like it, but we know that when we aren't posting, there are still

>>people in our cyber-family who care about us and are thinking of us

>>just the same. Please don't feel pressured to post, we are happy

>>when we get letters from you, and to hear about triumphs and to help

>>you along through not so good times. You fit in here just as much

>>as anyone else. You belong here! If you really, truly want to

>>leave, and don't want us in your life, please tell me why. You are

>>an important part in all our lives...please don't leave!

>>

>>waiting your reply,

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>>I FIGURED I SAY IT I NOT ON MUCH AND WHO KNOWES WITH MY BODY AND

>>

>>HOW THINGS

>>

>>>ARE GOING SO TAKE CARE ALL I KEEP READING BUT I ODN TO THINK I BE

>>

>>WRITING

>>

>>>ANY MORE TO THE LIST I DO NTO FEEL LIKE I BELONG BUT I KNOW THAT

>>

>>IT IS JUST

>>

>>>ME OS DO NTO WORRY ABOUT IT I MA A WEARD PERSON TAKE CARE ALL I DO

>>

>>HOPE LIFE

>>

>>>TREATS YOU ALL WELL

>>>

>>>DARKBEING

>>>

>>>LAST EMAIL

>>

>>

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[Guest guest]

,

You don't have to be sorry for anything. You have nothing to be

sorry for. I'm sorry things have been so rough for you. Your life

has purpose here in this world, and especially here in this forum.

I think everyone has wondered if life is worth living, I know I sure

have. It may help to get on here and voice your frustrations, I

know it helps for me. I worry about you so much, and that worry

comes from caring for you. Don't worry about being on or off topic,

if you have something to say, it is very much on topic. I wish I

could take your pain away for you. What do you enjoy? Is there

anything you do that makes you feel good? What makes you happy?

Much love,

> > > I FIGURED I SAY IT I NOT ON MUCH AND WHO KNOWES WITH MY BODY

AND

> > HOW THINGS

> > > ARE GOING SO TAKE CARE ALL I KEEP READING BUT I ODN TO THINK I

BE

> > WRITING

> > > ANY MORE TO THE LIST I DO NTO FEEL LIKE I BELONG BUT I KNOW

THAT

> > IT IS JUST

> > > ME OS DO NTO WORRY ABOUT IT I MA A WEARD PERSON TAKE CARE ALL

I DO

> > HOPE LIFE

> > > TREATS YOU ALL WELL

> > >

> > > DARKBEING

> > >

> > > LAST EMAIL

> >

> >

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thank you

Re: GOOD BY ALL

> ,

>

> You don't have to be sorry for anything. You have nothing to be

> sorry for. I'm sorry things have been so rough for you. Your life

> has purpose here in this world, and especially here in this forum.

> I think everyone has wondered if life is worth living, I know I sure

> have. It may help to get on here and voice your frustrations, I

> know it helps for me. I worry about you so much, and that worry

> comes from caring for you. Don't worry about being on or off topic,

> if you have something to say, it is very much on topic. I wish I

> could take your pain away for you. What do you enjoy? Is there

> anything you do that makes you feel good? What makes you happy?

>

> Much love,

>

>

> email: -owner

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