Re: Out-Of-Touch

[Guest guest]

Oh dearest Leigh,

We are all still here sweet one *hugs you tight*

Give your body a chance to heal darlin you've been though a hell of a time!!! There have been many new members to the list, and some old faces have moved on, but there are still many here that you know.

Everyone has been so concerned about you my Aussie sis.. *angel kisses*

Dont unsubscribe, just give yourself the gift of time to readjust. There is so much in your life and your body is going to take a long time to heal including your soul. I am sure You are exhausted more then you know.

You have fought so hard for your life. Hang onto it honey. The writing and all will come back to you. Speaking as an artist there are days when it doesn't happen anyhow. However you have been though so much its not surprising you dont have the energy to even care about these aspects of your life just now. But that's ok, they are not going anywhere, they will still be with you when you feel like doing them again.

"What happen to everyone that was in this group before I had the accident?"

I'll write to you privately about some of this later ok? Or try to get you on or ICQ or something?

"I should not be feeling like this with only having those two things."

"SHOULD" never come into it hon, it is as it is. Its not your fault and its nothing you can control. Just allow it to be in your life just now and remind yourself that some things take a bit of time. You were almost dead honey. Please take things easy. I know you are a fighter and want to conquer the world yesterday but you are just not up to it now, so go slow (I know you'll poke your tongue out at me for that one.)

"So why have I stopped wanting to do all the other stuff that I use to thrive on doing before? Writing? College? This group?"

You need time to heal. On every level. As I said, just take it one day at a time. Dont beat yourself up for it, just go with it. Your body knows what it needs just now. You've survived, now the big struggle starts, learning how to live again. Baby steps honey - take it slow.

Write to me if you wish sweety You know I love you lots and lots and lots

*huge gentle all consuming hugs to you*

Aisha your aussie sis

[Guest guest]

Dear Leigh: You have had to cope with so many changes. You sound overwhelmed. You don't have to do anything right now, except take care of yourself and your family. Take it easy. Don't worry about the future or about any plans you had made. You can always make new plans or go back to old ideas. There is plenty of time. Right now, try not to worry about the big picture. Concentrate on YOU. Love, Lee

& Leigh McKnight <blmcknight@...> wrote:

Well I never thought I would ever be thinking this, but I am so out-of-touch with everyone since the accident. Almost all the messages I read, I do not know the people that wrote them. What happen to everyone that was in this group before I had the accident?Even now, I am out of the hospital, and still I have to force myself to go to the computer. Before the accident, I would check my email a few times daily. I would be smiling before I even made it to the computer room. This group changed my life in so many ways, but know I feel a little dead. I do not understand this. Yes, every day I struggle with illnesses, but that never stopped me before. Yes, I have been able to start using a walker half of the day. I should not be feeling like this with only having those two things. I have a wonderful successful husband who loves me dearly and i love dearly. I have wonderful loving in-laws. I have three gorgeous babies who prove to and I every day that they are strong and will make it through anything. So why have I stopped wanting to do all the other stuff that I use to thrive on doing before? Writing? College? This group?I can't even sit down and write anymore. I do not want to go to college anymore, I don't care. I do not want to finish the website and I started. Honestly, I have even thought about unsubscribing.I have thought about this a lot.