I really really need support

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I am sitting at my computer typing this out with so many tears I can hardly see

straight. When does this end? We've done it all - pesticides, natural

treatments (internal & external), meds, cleaning protocols, laundry protocols,

etc. and I am literally still purging this stuff from my skin and the crawlies

are worse than ever. My husband has improved somewhat and wants to live in a

" don't ask, don't tell " kind of space. He just cannot accept that this is our

existence right now. I am cleaning a 5500 sq ft house every day, doing crazy

amounts of laundry for an infected family of 5 and trying to work...all with

brain fog and constant distraction.....I have begged him to leave this

house...we just have too many nooks and crannies and if I haven't been able to

kill off whatever this is by now I don't think I will. I feel hopeless.....this

is not living. This is just a nightmare. I pray every single second but I fear

I have lost my faith.