This infection is a test

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The physical suffering is bad enough, but the mental/emotional suffering is,

perhaps, worse.

The loneliness it generates is intense, and the way it effects one's neurology

is mind-boggling. The effects I've witnessed, in both myself and others, blows

me away.

And denial " aint just a river in Egypt " . It's difficult to accept how

overpowering these bugs are. If I focus on them, they instantly go crazy (with

the biting and itching).

The stress from them being in my body, and perpetually overpopulating (at

seemingly increasing rates), has resulted in my not getting enough sleep.

For the past 5 months, I haven't been able to get to sleep until dawn. That

means I'm up all night, every night. And my new upstairs neighbor (who was

homeless before moving in), is intolerant of noise of any kind.

Which means- nightimes are l-o-n-g and painful. It's 2:20 am, as I'm typing this

message.

It seems much of the material put out by the former nanotransformation site is

eerily accurate- i.e. the creatures bond with our DNA, don't have cell walls,

and can transfer genes laterally. This helps explain how they adapt so well to

almost every protocol, and why- what once worked against them, fails to do so

now.

Sorry if this post is overly morose, but that's one of the moods it puts me in.

D.