Re: PLEASE HELP! lint, fibers, dust bugs. death seems more attractive than this!!

July 3, 2009

I'm very sorry to hear about your plight. It does sound very much like

morgellons and you should seek out their group. Don't do anything stupid. You

should talk to a doctor - if you are unable to convince them of the reality at

least you will get some support for your mind as you sound really depressed. I'm

going to work so can't talk but just wanted to put in a word that others have

this too so you aren't alone,

Some have found some relief, so I think so you need to talk to more morgellons

people..

Al.

>

> I don't know how this all started. For a while, I noticed that I

> had this invisible crawling on my hair/scalp that would come and go. I

> thought it perhaps might have been lice so I went to a doctor who said

> there was nothing there. Then, I started noticing that whenever I went

> in a certain room, I would feel this invisible crawling in my

> scalp/hair and it started to extend into my arms and legs. I also

> noticed there was a student who also scratched non-stop. I didn't

> think anything of that girl, until other students in the class started

> complaining of itching while in that room. Another weird thing was that

> I started seeing gnats constantly flying around me wherever I went when

> there was no fruit/plants.

>

> Anyhow, this invisible crawling/itching would then take place thereafter

> whenever I wore certain clothes. I checked those specific clothes

> obsessively for any bugs or mites, etc.. All I saw was that those

> clothes had A LOT of dust spewing from them whenever they were shook,

> even when freshly washed. I thought that was weird, but didn't

> think anything of it, and I just went on being clueless…

>

> However, I went on a cruise and everything stopped, even when I

> returned. Thus, I dismissed thestudent passing anything onto me.

> Then,it all started again when I vacuumed my apt. I then thought perhaps

> it all began due to some mite that was in my vacuum as I left it

> wrapped in a plastic bag outside on my balcony. (There is a tree right

> not too far from my balcony that birds like to hang out on.) Also, I

> caught a very bad cold right after the cruise, so my immune system was

> very low.

>

> In any case, that was when this hell all broke loose. I began noticing

> the dust that I saw on my certain clothes was everywhere. All my

> clothes starting having a lot of " dust " , my car would have the

> same " dust " and lint looking things floating around, my house

> became dustier more than normal in addition to these tiny lint things,

> and then my face started having an invisible crawling sensation as

> well.

>

> One day, during the invisible crawling sensation, I took a magnifying

> mirror and looked at my face. I noticed that I had the dust/lint in my

> eyelashes. I knew that had to be the culprit so with a tweezer, I

> grabbed onto the lint so I could put it on a piece of tape. When I took

> that lint off my eyelashes, the lint looking thing started moving,

> swaying, curving in a circular motion. I couldn't believe what I

> was seeing so I endeavored to convince myself that I was delusional and

> was just imagining things. Praying that I was indeed just seeing

> things, I decided to put it to test with another lint looking thing.

> While I was searching my body, Inoticed that they were everywhere on my

> body, on my clothes, on my hair!!! It all made sense. This is what was

> causing the invisible crawling.

>

> I searched for answers on the internet, and started diagnosing myself

> with all kinds of things. At first I thought I had dog mites, as I have

> a dog who scratches as well. Then, I thought I had bird mites,then

> morgellons due to the tiny lint, but I don't have the open sores

> orlesions. I started doing the ritualsthat people advised to do as it

> was helping them. (the salt baths, lotions, oil, lice treatment,

> menthols, insectrepellent, shampoo, gse, garlic, fumigation, carpet

> steam cleaning, airpurifier, sulfur, flea sprays, borax, windex,

> enzymes, excessive taping ofanything I thought was a bug and looking

> through a microscope, etc…)

>

> Thereafter, I noticed some more symptoms of this invisiblewhatever it

> is. On top of this crawlingon my scalp/hair and on my body, I had more

> gnats and other bugs constantly flying around me as if they were

> following me, and dust always coming off me(most noticeably in the

> sunlight), and then these black specks everywhere coming from my body

> whenever I would rub myself with lotion or oil. Another big thing was

> this popping/snapping sensation on my face as if whatever I had was

> either coming out my pores,and/or jumping off my face to others around

> me. Also, I would get tiny, raised bite marks.

>

> Every time I am around people, they start to excessively scratch their

> scalp, put their fingers through their hair, shake their hair asif

> something jumped on them and was crawling, constantly scratch their

> face, orlook at their arms to search for what is biting them. Two of my

> coworkers I think has caught on to me being the culprit as I can see

> them trying to keep a distance whenever they come in contact with me.

> Whenever I am in a meeting or around people I get this intense

> crawling/pin pricking sensation and then a snapping/jumping sensation

> and then people start scratching. It gets worse because my anxiety

> level goes up as I know that it is I who is the reason for their

> scratching. This extends to my everyday life outside ofwork. When

> people are near me be it family or friends, or if they are in my car or

> at my house, they start scratching too. Afraid that I am spreading

> whatever disease I may have, I have become a hermit, going to work and

> coming straight home to search for an answer on the internet, evading

> meeting friends or even family. I have become depressed, and I

> seriously need help. I would rather die than live with this. I tried

> this whole positive thinking and tried to make myself believe it was all

> in my head and I was just being hyper sensitive anddelusional as several

> doctors have told me, but who am I kidding.

>

> A couple of things I am observing taking place as of this moment:

>

> * Continued intense invisible crawling in my hair, arms, legs.

> * Black specks coming from my pores.

> * Dust (maybe very tiny bugs that perhaps float?)

> * Tiny lint as well as longer lints that move when I grabit. This is

> everywhere, including my clothes, my body, anything that has cotton

> (towels, cotton balls, q-tips)

> * Tiny blue/red twisted fibers. I even found a green one today.

> * Itchy rash on my neck and my ears

>

> * Feels worse when I am at work around people, or when I am around

> people in general. I thought perhaps it was the office that was

> infested, so I put it to test. I went to work on a Sunday when nobody

> was there, and I felt only a tiny bit of crawling, which got worse

> during the day. However, there were no excessive

> snapping/popping/jumping sensations that I feel when there are people

> there. I am assuming this thing stays on me when no one is around, but

> this thing can sense when others are around me and will jump on other

> people to see if the grass is greener on others. (I want to quit my job

> because of this for fear of spreading what I have. I hav e lready

> stopped my volunteering as a tutor for fear of spreading it to

> children.)

> * I also notice this dust/lint on other people, but it seems like

> they are not bothered by it.

> * Increase floaters in eyes, especially one big one with two black

> dots in my left eye, which bothers my vision.

> * Brain fog.

> * Cysts on neck and body, which I never had.

> * Blood spots but im assuming its from scratching.

>

> More symptoms AFTER beginning of my experimental of healing methods

> (salt bathing, sprays, etc…) Is that a good thing or bad thing?

> Are these things causing me to have a bigger breakout or are they

> getting it off of me from the inside out? I feel like I have to do

> something proactive instead of leaving it to later result in something

> worse.

>

> *Also, when I brush my hair I get bites on my feet, so im assuming this

> dust/lint that spews out of my hair onto the floor is what is biting me.

> This happens also when I am shampooing my hair.

>

> *Also, it has now spread to my poor dog. He has always been an itchy

> dog, but now heis constantly scratching, shaking off whatever he now has

> on him, nibbling onhis skin, whimpering, etc... It is notfleas, and he

> rarely goes outside.

>

> please anybody somebody help....

>

July 3, 2009

Also I think it is worth telling your family everything. If you are at this

stage you should level. The constant strain of hiding this problem - which lets

remember is no fault of your own! - is exhausting and it will make you feel a

lot better, especially if they don't dismiss you. Find some good resources on

the web and show them about morgellons, tell them how they feel. You will feel

better (I did same - it helped hugely)