[Mindful i Mouse] Week 75 Weigh In and Reports

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Week 75 Done. This was my lowest in all numbers and best week since I started my diet and I gained weight. Ketones are in the moderate range. Strong purple. I am taking a deep breath, I know that it is not a true gain, but even so, it makes me feel as though I can never achieve my goal no matter how hard I work it. I searched through my reports, I closed my eyes to sense what I felt inside, and everything tells me I should have lost weight. Click on any report to enlarge. Yep, the lowest calories of all. Even carbs are great. BG wasn't. I hit 108 this morning. Here are the daily intakes. Fairly steady. No big swings. All goals in target except the fiber, but I have been out of flaxseed meal. I am assuming that the stress of sitting at that shipper for 18 hours is messing with my numbers. Internally, I feel thinner. My body feels different, my stomach is even smaller than last week. Hunger was strong at the beginning of the week, but the last two days, it has really lessened. I would have preferred to have seen 229 for another week and not a gain, but such is the crazy world of dieting. Must not cry. I feel clenched, and it zooms my anxiety about home time. Husband indulged in snacks again last night. I asked him this morning where he felt he was at, as he has a weigh in coming up. He thinks he's lost weight and estimates his weight at 295. He doesn't have any desire to weigh himself otherwise, instead prefers to wait until the doctor's visit. He also thinks he has done better with his snacking on this run, but I have a different view on that. What irks me is that he will probably show that loss on the doctor's scale, even with all the excess eating, while I eat less than 1000 calories and GAIN weight. We will be at the Yard in two days. I will have one or two dinners from the Chinese take out and hopefully home by the end of the week. So week 76 will have a fluctuation of calories. It just kills me to have to take those two pounds off of my mini goal. There is no way I can lose 12 pounds anymore. I admit I feel defeated. You would think that after 75 weeks of this drama I would have gotten use to it. Nope. --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 3/05/2011 05:18:00 AM