[Mindful i Mouse] Week 78

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I woke up this morning and as I looked at the clock, I was shocked to see 5:48am! I thought for sure it was about 2 or 3am. That meant that I slept 12 hours! Wow. And no night sweats! Yesterday, I really suffered. I was feeling awful with heartburn, reflux and gastric distress. I was pretty miserable. I realized that I could not keep on feeling like this, could not stand another moment. My BG's have been way too high ranging between 110 and 176, I have been eating too much in the evening, I have been having trouble sleeping, have been feeling the effects of cheap wine, I have been miserable. I knew I needed to get back on plan 100%. Had a long talk with my husband about our eating, what changes we both needed to make, how we feel about it and what we want to accomplish. It was a very supportive and wonderful talk. Yesterday morning, I went through the cupboards and freezer and got rid of anything that would be a temptation in the evenings. There really wasn't much, as we don't eat a lot of junk. I threw away 2 small bags of flour (neither of us need to make or eat bread anymore) 3 boxes of thin wasa, frozen banana's, bag of frozen homemade pea soup (because it was old) and some frozen entree that was there in case we came in late from the road and had no time to cook or defrost anything. I had a nearly full box of wine that went in the trash too (more on that later). I surveyed the kitchen once more, there was only meats and veggies in the freezer, there were spices, canned fish, tomato paste, curry paste, teas and coffee in the cupboards and the fridge had fresh veggies, eggs, buttermilk, various cheeses and meats. There are only the bottled good wines in the wine cooler, a tin of husband's danish cookies (out of reach) and I am sure there are his candies in his nightstand, but none of these things would I touch. The boxed wine is gone, so there is nothing for me to eat in the evening except on-plan foods. Whew. I took the trash out, and wanted to get some fresh air. I desperately needed something to offset the reflux, so I headed to the variety store and bought carbonated water and chewable tums (they had nothing else of use). I found a bottle of herbal remedy for hot flashes, I bought that too, what the heck. The shop next to it was having a 50% off sale and as sick as I was, I went in, the lure was too great. I had to hit the restroom 5 or 6 times while there, my insides were churning so bad. I finally gave up shopping (couldn't concentrate anyways) and left with a large bag of multi coloured leather to make doll shoes with and a fabulous women's style backpack that I can travel with. It is a medium size, not too huge, it can carry my laptop, camera, food to eat, knitting and a book (I have a 5 hour layover in Seattle) and perhaps even my purse. I remember last summer when I had the laptop bag over my shoulder how painful that was to carry long distances and I really couldn't carry anything else in it. I think a backpack will bear the weight much better. This one has lots of outside zippered pockets and even more inside. Let me just say though, that I barely made it home in time for the next round of pot sitting. Sheesh, it must have been a tummy big of some kind, or perhaps my body was telling me in no uncertain terms, enough was enough! No more cheap wine, no more slip sliding off my plan in the evenings. I am so happy about this find. While I did feel awful, I did eat on-plan throughout the day. I was determined to keep the routine going, the balance I needed. I chose the turtle bowl, and as it can only hold 1 cup at a time, it seemed to be exactly the right amount. I was nauseated most of the day, so hunger was not in mix. Eating small helped. I drank no wine at all. I made a pot of peppermint tea to soothe my stomach, that really helped too. Otherwise, I drank water. Scrambled eggs, beef and broccoli casserole, havarti cheese, greek yogurt with flaxseed meal. Yesterday was the end of Week 78 for me. I have no reports to share as this week I did not count everyday on my program. I weighed 236 this morning, down 7 pounds from last week, but still up 7 pounds from my lowest. I am feeling so much better today, feeling terrific, in fact. Clear headed, refreshed and glad to get rid of whatever caused that sickness yesterday. BG was 112 this morning. My only comment about the past week, is that it was not a good one. I ate well during the day, but all but two of the evenings had too much wine and extra unnecessary food. My plan for Week 79 is to continue with the turtle bowl and drink only teas, water and coffee. I will not limit the number of bowls I eat in a day, but will concentrate on having just the cup of food at a time. I want to continue the exercises in the One Bowl book. I had a whimsical attack this morning and found a lovely turtle themed spoon and chopstick set. I noticed that the matching turtle cup works just fine with coffee or hot tea and has a comforting warm feel in the hand. I am use to handles on tea cups, so this is another moment of change where it makes me pay attention because of the differences. Today, no, this whole week will be a good one! --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 3/27/2011 09:20:00 AM