[Mindful i Mouse] Happiness of Another New Bowl

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Written yesterday: This morning I had to take some packages to the post office, so I decided to do some walking. I had planned on walking in the park before breakfast, but the wind was atrocious, so I headed to the Antique Market and a thrift shop. I had not had breakfast when I left, just a cup of coffee. I had not planned on staying out long. I did anyways, I got so absorbed in looking at things. I didn't get home until 3 pm~ and I sure was hungry! That felt so good to be hungry and wanting to eat! So without trying for it I had a 19 hour fast. I found another bowl today. I wasn't looking for one, but there it was, begging me to buy it. How could I resist, a pottery bowl for 59 cents!!!! I am bowl fickle. lol. This one is so pretty, has a rounded bottom, a wide lip that I can balance on my fingers when the bowl is hot. When I came home, I tested it with water, it is just slightly smaller than the white bowl. I have to admit that it rests in my hand better. The white bowl is jealous. 3pm bowl: 3 scrambled eggs with cream and butter 4pm bowl: greek yogurt, sprinkle of flaxseed meal, thin drizzle of honey 6pm bowl: chicken curry extended with italian sausages and fresh spinach 8pm bowl: buttermilk I am extremely happy to report...I made it through this day...no wine, nothing more to eat than I listed above. HAPPINESS! The book talked about food possession, how it is a primal force in all living things. Also talked about the rituals around food possession, such as setting the table, the orderly steps taken, such as where a knife or for may go, when the food is placed on the table, the familiar chairs we sit in. These rituals are based in knowing that we are about to take possession of the food we are about to eat. Seeing the food on the table, we “hunt†with our eyes the foods we want to take, enjoy, we imagine what it will taste like, we get ready to take it and eat it. The exercise revolved around a several themes, all to be written out. The first is the feelings behind noting that others have a plate that they can pile food onto, and we have but a small bowl. He asks if there are any fears of not getting enough to eat. Even though the bowl can be filled again and again, is the possession of the food limited when it is eaten in such a small amount at a time? He also asks to write about food rituals performed at our own home, the way others in the family take on certain behaviours, etc. He then asked to write about childhood experiences, an adult experience and about a holiday meal experience. Right now, I am just bordering on getting back into the swing of my own eating, so I chose not to dwell on any past eating. I do not want any triggers right now. I will just say that in my family, eating has always been a very formal affair with the matriarch being in complete control of eating for everyone in the family. I will write about the details another time. I am feeling very encouraged by the One Bowl method, I am enjoying the play with the different bowls, I am glad for being alone to go through these experiences uninterrupted. I did well on Monday, only to tumble after I had three glasses of wine (then 2 oz of almonds, 6 wasa with cheese and butter) my BG hit 121 on Tuesday morning. I felt awful, slept awful. No more wine for now. I must get my BG’s back in alignment. Today, no wine, I felt so much better. I got a good amount of walking in, I loved eating from the new bowl, I am hopeful as I head to bed for a good night’s sleep. --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 3/23/2011 07:02:00 AM