[Mindful i Mouse] True Hunger

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Yesterday was stressful. Our load assignment was one of those awful one load - 6 deliveries. Lots of work and only 700 miles out of it. It's my remaining grandmother's birthday and it made me think that when I am home, I will need to go see her as I will be gone a year and she is now 94. Then my mother was fussing over the timing for taking me to the airport (I will have to leave our car where we park our truck on home-time for my husband to use and my parents will need to come and pick me up and drive about 1.5 hours to the airport). So we had to lay down some plans for that. I talked to my daughter about what I needed to bring for clothes, and we got talking about dieting. She wants to lose about the same amount of weight that I need to, which doesn't quite compute in my head, as she wasn't that large when I saw her last in August???? She is nursing, that ought to help with weight, at least I got skinny as a beanpole when I nursed her. Anyways, she wants to be diet buddies and overhaul the kids' eating and I am so dang relieved that she is interested! It will not only help me, but help the children get off the junk food. So lots of thoughts were swirling around in this old brain. Because of our hectic schedule, we had to get up at 3 am yesterday, ate breakfast at 4 am, lunch at 11am and dinner at 6 pm. This is too long of a time for me between meals when I am only eating 880 calories. Dinner was the hardest to get to, I was very hungry for hours. I like to be very hungry for up to an hour, more than that, it get harder. I tried to work through it, I had read on one of the forums a fun little line: Hunger is not an emergency! " and that is so true. But I do think our bodies are hard wired to push the hunger signals so that we would continue to be inspired to hunt for food. We had no nuts available to snack on, and we are running out of food with no Wal-Mart's (that allow trucks) on our route, so I need to stretch what I have for at least 4 or 5 more days. By the time it got to dinner, I was so famished, I decided to made something extra to go with my 2 chicken sausages. I had a can of peas, a can of corn and a can of refried beans, two cans of chili, 4 cans of chicken and 6 cans of sardines. The chicken is extremely dry unless mixed with mayonnaise, so that wasn't the most pleasing idea. The chili had 44 carbs, so that was out, I won't eat corn anymore unless it is fresh on a cob, and canned peas are so mushy. Sardines were not appealing either. So I opted for the refried beans as something to add to my dinner. It upped my carbs too high, but it gave a fullness to my hungering tummy. It didn't taste all that good, I could detect a tinny taste. But at least it was beans, lard and salt. Simple ingredients, but only 1g of fat which I would have preferred much more. I ate half the can. My BG this morning didn't reflect the extra carbs, it was 81. I am so happy with readings in the 80's. Today, if we can keep the meals about 5 hours apart, I want to try again for the planned 880 calories. I spent some time reading on the net about IF - intermittent fasting that is all the rage right now. I really don't know what I think of it. I read in one place that very low calories have the exactly same benefit that intermittent fasting does on longevity, blood sugars and overall health, so what the benefit would to change what I am doing, I am not sure. I also " hear' the snake oil talk of " eat all you want of the foods you love " in a 4 hour window and fast for 20 hours. Well since sleep can occupy nearly half those fasting hours, it seems that it would be easy enough to do. I certainly have trained myself to sit on hunger for hours! But I don't like the idea of eat anything and I can see how that would soon bring back the binge monster. He began to make himself known as I thought how that " might " work on my home-time for a month alone. A way to get some of those old binge foods back while doing the fast! It started to ring like an alarm bell in my ears. So if I decided to stick to low carb foods during the 4 hour window, what would the benefit be? I failed to find it. If I fail to lose weight on the 880-1100 calories by the time I am home (3 more weeks) then after my husband gets back on the truck, I will consider experimenting with it. The best window seems to be to eat between 2pm and 6pm. So I am slightly disappointed in not making the 880 goal for yesterday, but heck, it was just the schedule we were on and I had no control over that. It did make me realize that not feeling hungry before a meal means I ate too much the meal before. I want to keep grasping that concept so that when this is all over I have an understanding about my body and it's language of information. I no longer fear hunger, I understand it's purpose and I have to say I am pleased to know that I can work through it, I can make choices and I am not going to pass out and die from it. lol. Hunger is NOT an emergency! --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 2/23/2011 05:14:00 AM